September 2013 babies!!

[fish2012]

Oh dal tag how exciting! Is it 20wks? Fx for you xx

[DLTAG89]

Thank you both, yeah ill be 19+6 tomorrrow. I cant wait, been trying to keep myself busy today so it goes quicker

[shiningstar]

Hi everyone! It's been awhile since I've posted. It's been one week since I found out I'm having another little boy. I was proud of myself at first because I was doing SO good. I was planning and getting excited. Then the sadness came. My anxiety has been through the roof. Anything I can do for that when pregnant? I have all the same feelings coming back that I had when I found out I was pregnant (suprise pregnancy), except this time it's 10X worse. I was in such a good place before I conceived this baby. I didn't really care about gender. I was just happily living life with my two boys.

The sadness & anxiety seem to come in waves. It's really weird. Like yesterday I was feeling happy and hopeful- even lucky to be having this healthy baby boy. (Which I should be because I am blessed!) Then I took a nap and woke up with intense anxiety. I still haven't told many people we are having another boy. I told some family but that's it. It's sad but I've been avoiding my neighbors like the plague. lol! I'm trying to figure out the perfect way to announce on facebook. I tried to get a pic of my boys holding the ultrasound pic last night, but that went terribly wrong. They wouldn't both look at the camera and my oldest had a fake smile. I was going to put the caption "My 3 Sons". Anyone have any creative ideas I can steal? lol! I am desperate to announce it in a fun, creative way. For some reason I think that will make it easier.

Sorry to be such a downer.. I just didn't know where else to turn. Dh doesn't really understand what I'm going through. Sometimes I don't even! lol! When I really think about the reasons I want a girl they are so superficial. I firmly believe I can have close, meaningful relationships with my boys that will last the rest of my life. I'm trying to focus on that and be proud of my family dynamic. It's easier said than done though. I feel like a monster because I've been so moody with my whole family, especially my 8 year old. I really need to stop acting this way. I did have a super sweet moment with my 2 year old this morning that filled my heart with joy. He's not much of a cuddler usually but he laid on my chest for a good 10 minutes. It felt soooo good. I had both my little boys close to me. <3

Thanks for listening to me go on and on. It feels good to vent. How is everyone else doing that didn't get their DG? I would love to talk!

[shiningstar]

Good luck DLTAG! I'll be rooting for you!!

[Wanting-a-girl]

Aww sorry your feeling down I have really bad anxiety where I get panic attacks out of no here and obvious I can't really take anything for it but when I was put on my morning sickness meds they really really chilled me out really good its diclectin which is just vitamin b6 so maybe call your dr and see If you can take a b vitamin

[Wanting-a-girl]

Good luck with your scan today! How many more hours

[Southern Butterfly]

Good luck DLTA! I will be stalking too

Shining- Glad to see you back. I'm sorry you're still struggling but it sounds like you are doing a wonderful job focusing on the positives. As I said in another post, I had the worst GD after I found out about DS3 but you sounds like you are lightyears ahead of where I was only a week after finding out last time. You should be proud of yourself for moving forward the way you are. It took me much longer to do that when I was in your position.

I feel so incredibly fortunate to have been spared the weight and anxiety of GD this time around. I'm not sure how much of it is a concious choice and how much is just due to how much I learned on my dark journey during my last pregnancy. Although I have been nothing but excited about this new little guy, I do still remember GD all too well and hope I can still offer some support the way others supported me in the past. I remember when I finally came to the realization that GD isn't a life sentence, unless you let it be. That was one of my "aha" moments.

[DLTAG89]

Shining i know how you feel as i felt the same when i found out DS2 was a boy (he was going to be our last as this one is a suprise baby). I never saw myself having boys and now i have 2 of them. I've always wanted a little girl as i want the mother daughter relationship i never had with my mum but your never guaranteed those things and i could end up with a relationship with my daughter like i had with my mum. I guess what i'm trying to say is its ok to feel sad and sometimes i really dont think men understand that the 1 thing you want in the world is the 1 thing you cant have. Big hugs.

Thanks everyone, only 23 hours now till my scan, eeek cant wait

[Thorz300]

Shinning im so sorry! I totally understand my GD was absolutely the worst with DS3 I think it's so bad with the 3rd for a couple of reasons, 1st because lots of people have two of the same gender in a row, but 3 becomes a pattern and you are forced to realize that you might not ever be able to have a girl. And it also stung hard for me because I knew that meant I would have to try 1 more time (I wanted to be done at 3) but that because my 3rd was a boy my 4th probably would be too. So with the 3rd I really had to work out my GD demons. But now with my 4th most likely being a boy, it still stings a bit when I dwell on the loss of the dream, but I'm truly ok because I already worked it out after Ds3. I hope that makes since. Take all the time you need, it will get better i promise!

[fish2012]

Shining star poor you I know how hard it is I thought I was doing quiet well getting over loosing our twin but this weeks just been crap I can't motivate myself to do anything, I cry when I see twins I'm obsessing about having another baby (I only ever wanted 2!) these things take time hun we have another twenty weeks to try and move on for our dreams an enjoy what we have been blessed with I know I've been lucky with this being a dd but sadly once we knew it was twins the dreamed changed I know I should be happy a i have got what I originally wanted but now I just want my baby back and my dream of twin girls to be alive.

Loosing a dream is hard especially if this is last time take care were here for you xx