Dreaming Pink Due Date Group: TTC and Beyond

[meeks32]

I just found this thread, can I join you?

I am trying to distract myself from the fact my NT scan is on Tuesday, and I may get a nub shot, which will probably show boy, but there may be a teeny but of hope it shows girl (I like to kid myself) so I'm going mad. I'm basically terrified of what it will show. So much that I've barely thought about the potential for the baby to have health issues. I feel horrible for this. Obviously it should be my first concern but I'm completely overwhelmed with gender desire right now, after my ob thought he saw a penis when he did a potty shot at 11 weeks. I can't think about anything else.

Did anyone else feel this way?

[meeks32]

Charlee and ladybugs I have commented on the due date thread about how sorry I am this happened to both of you, but I'll say it again now.

I hope the pain is settling down now Charlee and that you are feeling less shaken and more positive and able to direct those emotions into some positive life changes. It will happen, even if you aren't there yet.

Ladybugs it seems like forever waiting to find out news, I'm sure it will be feeling even longer for you. Fx

[meeks32]

Also... I. Can't. Stop. Eating.

Why can't I stop eating?

Do you think I can still blame over a year on LE? ;-)

Lol no probably not.

[thehappypixi]

Hey Meeks! Nice to 'see' you here
I'm in and out of stressing about sex, worst of all is I can't stop imagine a girl as part of our family, I almost feel (and have done for years truthfully) that I have a daughter that I've not met yet, and I miss her like she already exists I know my heart will break for her if I hear boy, so I can't decide whether to stay team green til the end, so I can just hold onto the dream as long as I can. I'm going to close my eyes at my NT scan!

[meeks32]

Hi pixi. I know what you mean, completely. I want to know now though because I know I need time to adjust and grieve without feeling guilty and then move past it and get excited before baby is born. I can't imagine trying to do that while sleep deprived, while baby is there, feeling guilty because I have met baby yet still feel sad. My tactic is to find out and have a few weeks to wallow, then lots of weeks to get positive about it before the birth. I get quite emotional anyway while breastfeeding so I don't want anything tipping me over the edge.

But agree with the thought of closing my eyes. I just know its for the best I take the bull by the horns and deal with it sooner rather than later. For me, anyway.

[thehappypixi]

In the past I've had lovely births and find feeding really nice, so I'm thinking the oxytocin loved up feeling for the new baby might be the better choice for me, coz I know I'll love it whatever it is, and my GD probably won't hit me properly for a while as a new baby is fairly gender-less really. I don't know, might be kidding myself, it's just all a big bag of emotional meh right now!

[I Love Ladybugs]

Welcome Meeks!!!!!!!!!!!! I hold out hope that you will have your daughter....you have been so supportive of both your longtimer pals, the winter due date women and even your boo into the opposites thread has been most appreciated!!

Happypixi.....I am more like a hybrid of you and Meeks with the gender acceptance portion. I did struggle with DS2 being a non pink, weanie bearing member when he was in the womb, but the urgent C-section and his subsequent lack of growth could have been so much more of a trigger if I had not resolved my emotions about him not being a girl. I wish you the happy in whatever route you choose!!!

AFM....right now, I choose to make the best of waiting....I have a list of what I want to do today and I refuse to let worry ruin my time. Tuesday is forever away, but it will come and with it the worries of that day. Today is about what is in front of me....my boys, my family, my time.

[Sunflower3]

Just an update in me.

Appears I had a chemical this month. Af started on Thursday. I'm sad but going to ttc this cycle as my blood test showed no traces of hcg left in my system. Fx for this cycle!

[I Love Ladybugs]

Sunflower....I had hoped it was not a chemical for you, so sorry (((hugs))) Wishing a nice sticky BFP for this up coming cycle!!

[Mathilde]

Back from holidays, everydays begin again on Monday so much to catch up on!
Charlee: so glad you were kept safe.. understand that it is priority changing.
Ladybird: good luck! Keeping your little one in my prayers
Other Future-boy mamas: congratulations on healthy blue bundles, in a couple of months they will be exactly what we want, and our all blue families will be so happy with baby brothers
AFM, holiday has worked it's charm, tired as anything, and it rubs off on DH enjoying reading books, can really recommend "the German boy" by Wolfgang Samuel, a real page turner among my top five!! Am not looking forward to finding out and having my dreams crushed, but glad I will in any case have so good company here! Eat a little more than usual and have lots of gas, sorry, and have felt stretching lately, pee all the time seem like I am on Valium all the time. Have a nice evening where ever you are! Hugs Mathilde