No heartbeat at 19 weeks

[onlythelonely]

Feeling very up and down and like the pain will never go away. I am trying to stay busy and move forward.

[Wanting a daughter]

In my experience of grief the pain doesn't ever go away. It's just the intensity and frequency that drops over time. It's been 18 years since my Dad passed and I can still be suddenly overwhelmed with sadness and find my eyes suddenly welling with tears. I am able to recover far more quickly now though. Allow yourself to feel this when it comes and indulge in the need to fall apart. You need to in order to be able to build yourself back up again.
You're in my thoughts.

[onlythelonely]

Have just found out I have very low Iron levels. So will have to get them under control before my FET. Still waiting on results from tests on Baby and placenta.

[Rainbow baby]

Have just found out I have very low Iron levels. So will have to get them under control before my FET. Still waiting on results from tests on Baby and placenta.

Stay strong hun, when I had to go back for the results it was one of the hardest days of my life. They found nothing with my angel and even though it means a green light to ttc again it definitely was very bitter sweet. Its a mad rollercoaster ride in the first few months especially hormonally and it took my body I think around 3 cycles for me to ovulate again and settle down into my normal cycles around 4... but emotionally I will never be the same person again. It doesn't go away 19 months on and I am still getting my head around ttc again. I don't have Bad days regarding it any more I have bad moments where something will remind me of it all and I will have a cry for 5 mins and then be ok and honestly not think about it the rest of the day.
It takes time..be gentle and concentrate on being a healthy mum for now and good luck with your FET...

[hoping4agirl2014]

I just want to say my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[Tickled Pink!]

I just now read this thread and cannot stop crying for you. This is just so emotional and I am so very sorry. I love all of the kind words and advice from others who have been in your shoes, so nice to have this forum for support.


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[maria02]

I'm so sorry, thoughts & prayers with you xx


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[onlythelonely]

Had my follow up appointment and tests on Bub and placenta showed not abnormalities to bub but the placenta had several blood clots.

Dr said he was not certain that was the caused as there they may have formed after bub had stopped growing.

I have got the all clear to go ahead with transfer when I want to but to add low dose Asprin. Transfer will be in August.

Is there anything I should be doing before hand?

[Wanting a daughter]

So sorry you didn't get a clear answer. Sometimes, whatever it is, an answer helps us to heal.

The only thing I would suggest to ask about would be clexane.

Wishing you all the very best luck for August.

[Dana-Alicia]

So sorry for your loss. I'm only reading this now but with bloodclots I would insist on using bloodthinners. I use fraxiparin myself and there are no real side effects other than some bruising in the spot where you inject it, but that's totally worth it if that means you have more chance of a healthy baby. Did you get tested for any blood clot issues?