June 2WW

[purplepoet20]

TTC5 - so excited for you... sending a blue rainbow!

[DoulaMama]

It is now 30th June lol 12.41am hehe

Yippee!!!! Good luck with your "attempt" soon
xoxo Blue dust coming your way!

[TTC5]

Thanks for the blue dust gals!

[begonia]

Ooooo Pinkin I know you're not feeling it but your symptoms are certainly strong. I was kinda the same way, bc I was hoping for BFN ... but the symptoms were definitely there and they were on the money. FX for you!

Welcome shouldihope!

Mocha that is crazy! You need to EAT! Esp if you are pg with a little bean in there ... oooo how exciting!!! When will you test?

Pink dust to all you blue mamas :-) We have a lot of y'all in the 2WW right now!!

[purplepoet20]

So we decided to do two donations a day, 4 and 3 days before O, and now we wait for O to come. I always have really bad O pains in the afternoon-dinnertime so this weekend will be so much fun at my MIL house for the NV 4th of July firework. If no BFP on the next cycle we are going to do 2 donations 3 days before O, hubby freq release, and then O+12.

4th of July is normally a bad day for me so I hope the sadness isn't bad this year... It would have been my oldest sisters 33rd birthday but she passed away at 1mth old because of SIDs. One of the things my mom blamed me for was my sisters death. I was born 3 years and 1mth after she died and my older bro was born 16mths after she died. I got blamed because I was a girl.

I plan to focus on trying to make the 4th of july weekend a fun time for my boys so they never know the sadness or the blame that my mom forced on me.

[DoulaMama]

Sorry about the AF! That is a bummer.

And WHOA about the dreams. The dream I had at 9 dpo was just like what you described; I don't normally remember them, but this one was vivid and woke me up, so much so that I swore it was real... and it totally was dead on. I dreamed I POAS and got a BFP and was upset about it ... and that pretty much came true the next day.

I am a total ball of nerves right now hoping for a healthy baby It just hit me really hard today how desperately I want this LO to be healthy; one of my BFFs had a heartbreaking experience and it is just haunting me.

Have to go read everyone else ... just saw this and knew exactly what you meant re: the dreams. I would give it some weight but like you said, hard to know what she was referring to...

Thanks B I've thought about it a lot and I wonder if she thought it was her turn to come down and didn't want me to go? I believe that our kiddos know who mommy and daddy is before pregnancy....just waiting for their turn to come Who knows. Anyway, after much thought I'm going to go to the conference, lose some more weight, start running again, and try late Aug/Sept. My hubby has even said yes to a complete diet change I him
And I'm so sorry you're worried about your little one I was like that with DS2. I was sure that I was going to miscarry and then after that I thought about stillbirth, and after his birth I was terrified of SIDS. I've never had that much fear surrounding my child before or after. He's a healthy 3yo Big hugs to you, Mama.
Anyway, I hope everyone on here gets 2 beautiful lines soon!!!
Xoxo

[DoulaMama]

So we decided to do two donations a day, 4 and 3 days before O, and now we wait for O to come. I always have really bad O pains in the afternoon-dinnertime so this weekend will be so much fun at my MIL house for the NV 4th of July firework. If no BFP on the next cycle we are going to do 2 donations 3 days before O, hubby freq release, and then O+12.

4th of July is normally a bad day for me so I hope the sadness isn't bad this year... It would have been my oldest sisters 33rd birthday but she passed away at 1mth old because of SIDs. One of the things my mom blamed me for was my sisters death. I was born 3 years and 1mth after she died and my older bro was born 16mths after she died. I got blamed because I was a girl.

I plan to focus on trying to make the 4th of july weekend a fun time for my boys so they never know the sadness or the blame that my mom forced on me.

Your plan sounds great, Purple! Fingers crossed!!!

And I'm so sorry about the pain in your life surrounding your sisters death. I can't imagine being blamed for that just because you were a girl Big hugs to you. I hope this coming holiday holds many special moments and happy times with your family xoxo

[begonia]

Thank you for sharing that re: DS2 DM! That makes me feel better to know I'm not the only crazy one. And I'm really such an optimistic, happy person ... I think I'm still just grieving so much for my friend's loss; I thought I was handling it better but within a day of the BFP all I could think of was her. Sorry to be such a downer!!! I know the odds are overwhelmingly in favor of me having another healthy little one. And I love the idea of our kids "waiting for their turn to come" ... pretty precious concept. It's funny b/c I always KNEW I'd have three kids so I'm super excited to meet this next one!

[Mochagirl]

I'm sorry you've had to live with that blame, purplepoet - how unfair for you!

I'm going to test on Friday - it's Canada Day (our equivalent to July 4th), so it might be my lucky day. However, I'll only be 8dpo, so I won't get my hopes up too much. I did get a BFP at 8dpo with my twins, so if I get one that early again this time I'll worry it's twins again!

[purplepoet20]

I'm sorry you've had to live with that blame, purplepoet - how unfair for you!

I'm going to test on Friday - it's Canada Day (our equivalent to July 4th), so it might be my lucky day. However, I'll only be 8dpo, so I won't get my hopes up too much. I did get a BFP at 8dpo with my twins, so if I get one that early again this time I'll worry it's twins again!

I am going to test July 15th because it is my little sisters birthday and she knows I want another baby so I will tell her it her birthday gift... it is a few days before AF is due! I would love twins... and twin girls would be even better.

I have learned to live with a lot of blame and I know I couldn't do that to my kids.