August Thread for TTC Blue - Chit Chat!

[iluvmyman]

Nope. The Bradley method is husband/partner coached childbirth. They teach ways to cope with the pain. Hypnobabies, and also Hypnobirthing (different method) teach you to interpret the pain differently so as not to feel it. A lot of the pain you feel is fear of the process itself. Getting yourself into a deep relaxation allows you to simply feel waves of pressure. I didn't think it would work at all and would always fall asleep to the cd's. But when the time came, I was up and talking, getting my hair braided, giving DD a bath all while my water had broken and I was contracting regularly. Contrasting with my first birth where I didn't make it to 2 cm before I screamed I couldn't take the pain.

I was wanting to do the hypnobirth w/ DS2 but it was just too expensive and I was saving to pay for the midwife. With all the expensive supps I want to take this time I don't think I can do it either. Sounded great though.

[iluvmyman]

I totally get that too. I actually might have a hospital birth this go round as we're in a sort of flux where I'm not totally comfortable here. We're staying in my family's 100 year old house while ours in on the market 3 hours away. It needs an insane amount of work and I just don't really want to live here, much less birth here! There's a birth center about 45 mins away that might be a good compromise but I have no problem just showing up the hossy near pushing and calling it done. I'm so very sorry to read of your loss and that you're going through so much right now with your family. I hope things calm soon.

Thanks. I think laboring as much at home is a good compromise. My labors are about 4 hours so I don't have too much messin around time. I really don't want to down home birth and there are sooo many great things about it. I so wish it would've been a different experience obviously. Mostly CNMW do the births at our hospital but there is still so much red tape and things I don't like about hospital births for sure. I would love but obviously wouldn't do a HB again.

I'm fine mostly, just depends on the day and the hormones. I have gone through some crap in my life for sure but so has everyone else. I don't like to bring it up too much and have people feel bad for me. Crap just happens. You women are all so sweet to me.

[iluvmyman]

iluv, I hope you feeling ok. You sound like your in a reel rotten place in your life atm, you need some luck to come your way don't you How long will it be before you can get back into your house? That will help 1000% won't it Your space, your home and rules.

Me, my own place? HA! I guess when I quit homeschooling a get a job. I would love to move out I just don't know how we could afford it. 1/2 of DH's salary goes to rent now and then 100% living on our own again. It's a pipedream at this point. My parents rely on us to make their mortgage so it's a bit tricky. I'm looking but half-heartedly, I just don't see how we could make it. I really want to though, it's so hard here and I can't raise my family like I should. We're praying about it.

The hospital does have some benny's, ELP.

[iluvmyman]

iluv: we have added your family to our prayer list. Try not to feel guilty, I know easier said than done. No one deserves the pain you went threw.

b3: I may have to look into hypnobirthing. I have heard of it, but never researched.

Yes, I did the Bradley method with the last 2 births.....sooooo much better than the other 4.

Funny story.....

I woke up this morning at 5am to go potty and was not hungry. Of course, I thought to my self.....well AF must be coming and the symptoms are gone . Well as soon as I got back into bed my stomach started growling like it was eating itself and DH even asked me if I was going to get up and feed my "black hole". So, no AF and an over active stomach. What a weird cycle!?!? I just wish this cycle would end, so I could start the next one or get a BFP. This is so weird considering I always have a 28 day cyle if not BFing.

How you doing Lola?

Awww, thanks WP! Prayer are always needed.

[begonia]

Iluv! HI! I was just thinking about you and wondering if you had popped on today. How are you feeling? 7.5 weeks already! When do you go to your doc again? And when is your next thyroid test?

[iluvmyman]

Well, after reading this, I TOTALLY see where you are coming from. You have a good peaceful attitude about it, Iluv...although I am sure you had your moments of being VERY VERY angry with God and a lot else. I would. It just sucks that you had to be one of the ones that had something go wrong with a homebirth. I know I've told you how my heart breaks for what happened, but I also want to tell you that even though I don't know you IRL, I have a tremendous respect for you for all you have been through and how strong you seem to remain. God will give you this next one, I just know it. xxoo

I don't deserve this outpouring of love you guys, I feel silly. I have times not of being angry at God so much just deeply sad sometimes. I wonder why me? but there's no answer to that. Crappy things happen all the time in this sinful world and people have been through so much worse than me. It's hard cuz it's just such a horrible things to happen. The what if's and guilt are really hard and for the most part I try not to think that way, but I have my moments. I just long for him mostly right now, like he would be pulling up and walking around furniture right now, stuff like that. I'm sure you ladies who have experienced the loss of your children earlier in your pregnancies KWIM. Losing children is so foreign it's just a tough one. Just hope this baby is perfectly healthy. Good will come from my son's death somehow. I so appreciate you Lola!!

[iluvmyman]

WP, no AF still? Aren't you 15dpo now? OMG. You must test tomorrow morning. Is this really unusual for you?

I am 11dpo today, and this morning, I stared at the FRER as I did the peepee dance for a minute when I woke up and decided to give poas a miss today. I will try it again tomorrow. I just chickened out, to be honest. I needed a day of not being upset about it if another bfn. With ttc for so long, I've just seen too many bfns, and they still bum me out! I am really a better candidate for waiting till AF is due and then testing, but I just can't help myself since I got 2 bfps at 10dpo with my m/cs this year.

Plus, I needed a day of just being happy that my a$$ho!e ex and his wife found out they are having a GIRL yesterday, HAHAHAHA! My oldest talked on the phone to him and said he did not sound happy about it! And, how ridiculous is this, he has apparently been going on and on about how he hopes it is a boy, etc, all summer. I am sure it made my girls feel just wonderful about themselves. But, God has a great sense of humor. Give the misogynists all girls. I love it.

This is so mean of me, but YAY!!!!!!

[iluvmyman]

I'm pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Took a clearblue digital as af hadn't come! Wow,I'm shaking,I'm soooooo happy,thanks for all the help and encouragement,hope it goes ok now,will post this on 2ww too.:-)

YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats jane!!!!!

[Kris217]

Kris how are you feeling these days? And did Sarah end up getting to use the same donor? That would be super cool for the babies!

Oh I am feeling horrible! Day 13 of me being sick with flu like symptoms. I ended up seeing a different Dr and he thinks I could have Swine Flu as it's going around this area. So I had some blood taken and a throat swab done and should get the results back today. I hope they find something, I will be so frustrated if they say they don't know what's wrong with me!
Sarah will be trying in a few weeks, she skipped last cycle as it was too soon and she wants to wait til my scan to make sure I'm having just 1 baby lol.

[iluvmyman]

No...Im thinking to wait till Oct. ? Oh idk...so scared .Im sure Im not doing this thing good !
Confused about the diet too...just not sure anymore what can we eat and what not . I guess there is to many version of it now!

If I have a boy, I'm chalking it up to shear luck. That's how good I feel about my sway. If i got prego on month one or two I would've felt pretty stinking good. Oh well, plz God!