Depression?

[amo]

I'm wondering how you are now Tania? I know this is a month old post but I've just today found myself in the same situation as you and I'm not coping very well. So I'm just wondering if it gets better?
Thanks.

[nickie]

I think I have moved on from sad to mad. I am still sad and think about it all the time, I am just still avoiding the subject and not excited about this pregnancy at all. I do feel guilty, but I do not feel any attachment right now. I see everybody having little girls and just wonder why I couldn't have one. I tried so hard, I tried IVF with PGD, I'm healthy, and it didn't work. I tried swaying, and nothing...
Some people get what they want without even trying. I have a baby shower for my friend who is having a girl coming up and a bday party for a 1 year old girl coming up and i really don't want to go.

I feel like I'm taking it out on my DH and DS too, I have no patience and just mad all the time. I really don't know how to cope anymore.

I feel the same tania. Everything you ve said, everything you described... i m reliving it in my own perception.
My dreams smeared against the wall. My chances of any possible happines is just not anymore possible.
I think i m worse... i might be falling into depression... we all have our luggage, the one that brought us to these feelings. Mine is heavy and i just cant get over my saddness. And what is weird i dont even feel guilty. I just wanted once in my life a small favour of luck.... but of course noooooooooo..... as if a little girl is not a baby.... everybody keep saying i should be grateful for having a baby.... of course i m.... but a girl is still a baby... its not gold.
I so much wanted to enjoy this pregnancy.... i just want it to finish now... and then i ll miss it but i cant change how i feel.
Life is short. Exactly... that is why sometimes its nice to enjoy what the heart wants.... not always but once in a million stars, its nice to have one that shines on you....