This whole cycle is a mess and I WAY messed up my sway...wanna cry...

[atomic sagebrush]

Looking back at past cycles (since supps even) I O on day 13. Well this cycle I did'tn want to buy the expensive digital O tests again so I only had a few left from the month prior. I took one Friday Day 10, got a negative and saturday night day 11 and got a negative. We DTD night of day 11 and am of day 12. On day 13 when I thought I would have O'd I had a big temp spike. I figured I must have O'd early due to supps maybe. Temp went back down the next day but still kinda high. Everyone I asked figured I must have O'd so I went back on my chart a but watery cm so it would give me my crosshairs. After O I am usually terrible on my diet, I do over strict before O and then relax. I stop saw palmetto and I even stop all my rock salt lamps.
Fast forward to now...late on my period, when I take away my "fake" watery cm on Day 12, it now has my Ovulating day 19. We did bd around that time, I know I o'd cause I thought we were done trying and in the TWW, no hot bath, no douche, no reprheash...nothing!!! No rock salt lamps, no hubby on licorce root...all of that out the window since I thought I was in the TWW. I know feel totally screwed! I could be pregnant...most likley with boy #5, or even if I am not it is now even longer till I get to try again and who knows what next cycle will look like. I have never had a long cycle...EVER! Sorry for all the missed spellings I just feel totally bummed, scared and freaking out now!!

I don't think that's a bad attempt at all even if you did O on the 19th. Personally, I don't think the rock salt lamps do a darn thing, you were still taking vitex (and my good friend Eden also took vitex all the way through her cycle and conceived her daughter doing that after 3 boys), you had taken at least SOME saw palmetto and your husband, licorice root.

Plus, the long cycle ~may~ mean that your estrogen was lower than it normally is.

[atomic sagebrush]

Thanks Ladies. I do take the vitex all the way through. Everyone you talk to says different things about vitex, some say take it only af to o, some take till the end of the frist trimester and swear it helps avoid miscarriage. My midwife said she thought I would be fine with either, she has had clients take it both ways, so I chose the later. Just my personal choice. I have a history of miscarriage so I thought it might help. I really doubt now that I ovulated day 12, that would put me 16 dpo now and I ave never had an lp that long. I must have O'd late around Day 19, going by temps which is really i got now, I am terrible at CM and I was not taking opks cause I thought I already O'd. It is in god's hands now and if I am so be it and if not..on to next month I guess. I guess this teaches me a lessen on lightening up on my diet in the TWW!

You prob. already know this, but in terms of blood glucose, the 2WW may be the most important time to stick to the diet.

[atomic sagebrush]

No advice just wanted to give you a hug because I know how badly you must be feeling. Swaying can be so stressful!! I hope that the others are right and you did O on day 12, if not I still think you are in with a better chance than the rest of the population (who conceive 50% girls without trying every day) due to the effects of months of dieting and supps etc. Good luck!

I totally agree, even if it's not "perfect" I do still think you did A LOT to sway and I would keep my chin up!!!