Hey girls! Re: the comments, I guess the fact is I will probably just say "I love my girls" and leave it at that. After all, no one will be wrong when they say "Wouldn't you have loved a son?" So I'll probably just say "I love my girls. If I had a son I would have loved him too." And leave it at that. Because it's the truth right? I did TRY to have a son. I wanted a son. Heck, in my dream world, I would have had 3 sons. But I have GOT to leave that want behind now because I don't want a 4th child, and I don't want to spend the rest of my life (or really, more of my time, at all) wanting something I'm not going to have, and God forbid, leaving my girls EVER feeling that they are less than perfect to me. I'm glad I found this board and glad I swayed, if I had girl #3 w/o swaying I always would have wondered IF I had swayed ... would I have had him. But now I know. For reasons I don't know, DH and I weren't meant to have a son.
I posted this on the pg thread and am just going to copy it here ...
I'm torn as to whether it is good for me personally to be here anymore. I feel so tied to so many of you that I want to know what happens, I want you all to get your DG, but for me right now this feels like a place where I came when I had hope, and not to be all Debbie Downer but I don't have that hope anymore. I have my reality, and my reality is I'm never going to have the son I wanted for all of my life, my DH is never going to have a boy to raise. And that's hard, and while this is a place where I get support on those feelings, I also feel like it might be healthier for me to get on with my life offline and move forward. I never ever saw myself with 3 daughters. Even though I knew for sure it was a possibility and a strong one that our third would also be a girl, I just had that hope. I'm still really glad that I found out because not knowing was worse for sure. But now that my hope is gone, and I'm not having any more kids, I think I need to move on for my own mental health. I'll no doubt lurk here and there to check on everyone and maybe one day (especially once she's here) I'll be able to come back fully to catch up, but right now, I need to focus on what I have, 3 healthy girls, and coming here reminds me of what I don't, and that's not healthy for me. Like I said, I'm sure I'll pop on, but it's not going to be daily or anywhere close to it. All that to say, I'm out for awhile. I love this place, and love y'all, and wish everyone the best!
