Which day is O day do you think???

[ME MOM]

Really sorry about your dog!
Just throwing my cents in, l get ewcm about until 2-3 dpo so it's a pattern that l wouldn't base things on.

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[1moregirl]

Atomic, Pbn3 and ME MOM - thanks soooo much for your sympathy regarding my fur baby. It's been very tough and I have to take my remaining dog, 15 yr old Maltese X Schitzu, to the vet this morning as I suspect he has Cushings Disease and has had the runs and losing weight....very stressful. I've also been riddled with guilt as I haven't been the dedicated doggy Mummy I used to be before I had my human babies. :,( Anyway, I'm doing my best to stay calm and happy so my kids don't get upset. It's been extra hard as my DH has been supportive of me about the loss of my dog...he isn't a pet or dog person so it hasn't affected him. On Saturday, I had to go back to the vet to collect my dog Toffee's frozen body in a bag and bring him home so my Dad could take him back down to their house to bury him there with our other pets and my DH avoided me the whole day. No kind words of support, no hug or any other affectionate form of comfort, no flowers or any other kind gestures. I said to him just yesterday, "if that is how you comfort me after the loss of my pet, what can I expect when I endure a more painful loss such as the loss of a human loved one?" I don't think our marriage would survive it. This morning FF marked a solid cross line on my chart, but I'm not sure if I agree with it. If it is accurate, I will be disappointed I didn't get t o complete the planned SMEP BD pattern. Have a look please and see what you think and I'm sorry for rambling on about my pet loss. At least my three beautiful children gave me lots of hugs and love.

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[1moregirl]

Also, in my previous charts, anything around 36.5- has been below the coverline and marked as pre-O, so this is quite confusing. I wonder what would happen to my FF chart if I removed the second positive OPK? I might try it and see what happens, just for curiousity sake. I still think O occurred on Cd 16 or 17.

[1moregirl]

Back again. Lol! So, I removed the second day of pos OPK and changed CD 17 and 18 from EWCM to creamy CM and the results were that the crossroad remained in the same place but went from a solid line to a broken line (which I think means FF is not completely sure that's the day of O). But then I changed it all back to the way it was originally. Will just keep BBTing (even though I said I sent going to after O) as am curious about how the rest of the luteal phase will look. It would be sooooo nice to get a sticky BFP this cycle after my recent loss. Xx

[Pbn3]

1moregirl I think ff looks pretty accurate. Either way I think its more likely than cd16 as you're more likely to o after rather than day of pos opk. I know its possible but combined with everything else cd17 or cd18 look more likely.

I get you on the guilt of feeling like less fur baby mummy too. I always think my poor cats especially the oldest who slept with me every night and was always my sitting companion prior to my human babies. I take some comfort that my oldest son has recently really taken to her and gives her pats and hugs all the time and always wants her to come and lay with him in bed when he watches his nighttime dvd. Its really lovely to see

I'm so sorry about your dog, it really is devasting to lose a beloved pet, and I hope you get good news about your maltese x, 15 years!! Wow, she's reached a milestone there!

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[atomic sagebrush]

No one can tell O day from charts anything better than 1/3 of the time so it just isn't possible for me to tell you what day you Oed on. It just isn't possible, I'm sorry. (((Hugs))) and I wish I could be of more help.

[1moregirl]

That's ok Atomic. Thanks anyway. At least it doesn't feel like the dreaded 2ww since I am busy with our sick dog and the kids as well. I think in lots of ways I've given up on it happening now anyway, plus the thought of pregnancy fills me more with anxiety than it does joy (after last year's miscarriage). I've pretty much lost hope and faith in one last baby happening for me now. I think my fear of it not happening again for me was my fear of change....going from being a SAHM to all my babies at school and the entire chapter of babies closed has been challenging and terrifying to me. I just don't even see how I would get through the first trimester or 20 weeks without having anxiety attacks each day about the possibility of miscarriage. I do intend to get counselling shortly, but just tending to my sick dog is enough for me to deal with right now. Thanks for listening. Xx

[atomic sagebrush]

Please keep us posted on how you're getting on.

[1moregirl]

Thanks Atomic. It's been a very difficult week for me this past week....like a week from hell really. Today a week ago I had to have my Toffee dog put to sleep (one of the hardest things I've ever had to do). This week has involved quite a few trips back to vet for my remaining dog Bindi. He has been on 4 different types of medications, one being to stop any sort of internal bleeding. So I've been spoiling him and nursing him and hand feeding him (had to syringe feed him at the start because he just wouldn't eat). Then went back to vet yesterday hopeful of good news, but it wasn't. He had lost a further 100gms (just since Monday) and his red blood count had dropped. He only had 1/7th of his blood volume in his little body. So yesterday after school pickup we had to take him back to the vet for a blood transfusion and saline drip and he stayed in overnight. You see, the vet is not sure if he has something sinister like a cancer (even though his blood tests have not indicated as such and body scans have not shown any suspicious lumps) or one or more stomach ulcers. This blood transfusion is our last hope and last treatment. I am hoping and praying it will work, but if not....at least I will have a bit of peace knowing I've done whatever I could to help him. It's been soooo heartbreaking...I had a really tough day yesterday and was in tears on and off all day about it all. I haven't been getting much support from DH as he never grew up with pets so he just doesn't seem to get it. He was a bit better last night but I've had no hugs from him, no kind words or gestures....nothing. I'm sure I would regret ever having married him, except for the three beautiful children we have had together. I have been feeling similar to last year when I had that horrendous miscarriage. It all just sucks! And all in the 2ww! I have been trying to keep it together and keep myself as calm as I can 'just in case'. My biggest regret of all right now, and the thing that weighs heavily on my heart, mind and soul, is that I didn't spend the time that I should have with my fur babies in the last 8 years I was busily having and raising 2-legged human babies. This fact breaks my heart. I lost my first dog, little white poodle, back in 2011, whilst he was holidaying with my parents...I wasn't there, but it hit me extremely hard. Since then, I think I had been scared to get too close to my other 2 dogs, because of that fear dread and grief you have to endure when you lose them. Does this make sense? Well, it does to me, and now I am paying for it. Sorry for rambling on and on...this is just what has been happening for me lately. I just thank God that I have our three beautiful children who have been sooo helpful in cheering me up and giving me lots of cuddles. Anyway, here is a pic of my chart. I could be on 7DPO, but for some reason FF hasn't been marking this down. Does this mean FF is not completely sure of O day? I don't know. At least if I did get a sticky BFP I can be happy that I have done a girl sway unintentionally - not eating much of anything and plenty of stress.

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[1moregirl]

And here's a pic of my fur baby Toffee whom we said goodbye to a week ago. He was such a beautiful dog. xxxx

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