Due March/April/May 2017 (3)

[purple]

It is always fun to get to see them Enjoy the scan Magical!

[Magical22]

Ps guys I'm still faking it till I make it. Had another PP birth announcement yesterday which set me back, it's always like a slap in the face watching couples have their boy then girl or vice versa.


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[Magical22]

Ps guys I'm still faking it till I make it. Had another PP birth announcement yesterday on Facebook which set me back, it's always like a slap in the face watching couples have their boy then girl or vice versa.

I feel like I'm such a good hard working person and the universe keeps slapping me in the face and trying to knock me down. I did HT which failed, worked so hard to save for that journey and came home empty handed. DH side of the family is all boys except for his 1 sister after 4 boys. I was the first serious partner and the expectations was for me to have the first granddaughter after years of being together, then DHs brother and his ice addict gf get pregnant after 3 weeks of meeting have a boy then a year later have the first girl pp bam just like that so easy. She also really wanted a girl and got it the whole family was thrilled to finally have a girl in the family and to make matters she was born the day of my d&c after a year ttc. Then DH next brother meets a girl and bam PP again. They all brag about their daughters and you can tell they favor them are all ex ice addicts, hardly work, I won't be able to be around them for ages. I feel like a joke and that gives my anxiety.




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[Girlieplease]

Anyone that can help...really struggling here.

I am really 'wired' right now. I dont know thats the proper term. Maybe anxious IS the right term its just when someone thinks about anxiety on a normal basis im not sure this is what they picture. But im very edgy, extremely irritated and frustrated and real fast to go from 0-100. i had a panic attack waiting for a prescription for DD3, hyperventilating and crying. I havent had this in any of my other pregnancies. My blood pressure is elevated but OB says textbooks say i am not far enough along for it to be pre eclampsia or anything like that. And its not sky high or anything like that to be fair. But i feel like i am totally losing my shit. I cant live like this and so i am desperate. ive tried meditation, calming music, "me time" (not sure i can really get that right now with a sick baby though) but i cant wipe stuff off my plate today to loosen the stress hold...I have got to get this bedroom cleaned and scrubbed down and then because DH is a slob i'll have a ton of pop cans and dishes to do in the kitchen.

I literally sat in the car at the pharmacy screaming and beating my steering wheel because the guy ahead of me was there in the pick up line for 30 FREAKING MINUTES. 30 MINUTES. 3 cars in the other lane (which i was too far pulled ahead to switch into) left before he left. Its like he waited in the drive through, meant for fast pick up, for them to FILL HIS PRESCRIPTION. HOLY. CRAP.

I feel like a tv or movie joke. I know this is the running joke of what pregnant women are always like but i have never had this pregnant or not. I genuinely feel so heavy in my chest i swear i am dying. And if i call my OB i only see negative outcomes coming from this...worst of which is i'll be committed because thats what i feel like at this moment is a crazy person.

help.

I agree with the other ladies that there seems to be anxiety but I also think there is other stuff maybe in the mix. I have felt like this during this pregnancy and at other times when I have not been pregnant. I am not saying this is in anyway what is going on for you, just thought it would be useful to know that others have experienced the same, so your not on your own but also my perspective and understanding of what it is about for me.

I have experienced this relatively recently and how I have understood it is that in general my anxiety levels are raised because am pregnant and I always worry in pregnancy but also because I have tried to sway so created an expectation of an outcome, which may not occur. I think my anxiety is that my sway has failed and that thought brings me in touch with some irrational, deeply held beliefs about myself specifically that I never get what I want, that I have to work for everything, while others get it handed to them on a plate. Additionally, a thought that am a failure and never good enough. These thoughts and feelings belong to my early experiences and have been long since dealt with, however, at anxious times they become re-activated so when I encounter daily every day situations that are similar, it if I think someone is getting their needs met to my detriment, or getting things easily, or am not getting what I want or I try to do something and fail, I reacte very intensely, overreaction because these thoughts and feelings belong to a different time when it made sense to feel like that.

For me trying to relax will help for the duration of the relaxation but until I understand and resolve the underlying issues it will continue to happen. Again not saying this is anything to do with your experience, which showing you how I understood a similar experience that happened to me. X o

[Girlieplease]

I have my rescan today at 4 :15 pm, am so nervous! Baby would be 12 weeks 2 days, totally going to be nub obsessing even though it is maybe too early. I feel physically sick! X

[Girlieplease]

Ps guys I'm still faking it till I make it. Had another PP birth announcement yesterday on Facebook which set me back, it's always like a slap in the face watching couples have their boy then girl or vice versa.

I feel like I'm such a good hard working person and the universe keeps slapping me in the face and trying to knock me down. I did HT which failed, worked so hard to save for that journey and came home empty handed. DH side of the family is all boys except for his 1 sister after 4 boys. I was the first serious partner and the expectations was for me to have the first granddaughter after years of being together, then DHs brother and his ice addict gf get pregnant after 3 weeks of meeting have a boy then a year later have the first girl pp bam just like that so easy. She also really wanted a girl and got it the whole family was thrilled to finally have a girl in the family and to make matters she was born the day of my d&c after a year ttc. Then DH next brother meets a girl and bam PP again. They all brag about their daughters and you can tell they favor them are all ex ice addicts, hardly work, I won't be able to be around them for ages. I feel like a joke and that gives my anxiety.




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I find this difficult as well, one of people in a past due date group I was on, unexpectedly got pregnant with a third and said she was going to abort it, because she did not want hassle of another, she has a boy and girl. Then she decided she was going to keep it and then started saying it better be another girl, of course it was! I felt so resentful and now her baby is born and she is sooooo cute and of course she has photos of her on everyday. I wish I did not give a hoot what gender people have, it has absolutely no connection to what I will or won't have but still I cannot help it! X

[Burakoam]

Girlie truth be told I am pretty much over the gender thing. I am probably depressed but it's other things that have me so worked up and not really the fact baby is a girl but struggling with how I ended up in this position because I really never wanted more than one baby. Now I have 4. It's less the fact they are all girls and more the fact of like a delay if "oh fuck what did I do" type thing

Some issues with DH and some issues with my mother and pregnancy hormones and I'm sure I have a good idea as to why I am so wired it's more that I can't fix it or slow it down like I want. I'm usually really good about holding stuff inside or at bay so when I lose control it's overwhelming for me

Btw I too have been very outspoken and down right rude to some people including DH... I hate it but I've literally been quite the bitch lately, no nicer term. But my feelings were the opposite lol.. Id swear still I'm having a boy because of the personality change cause I was never like this with any of my girls lol

[Burakoam]

In other news though baby picked her name. She nudged me when i asked if she liked Samantha, so Samantha she will be..she hasnt nudged to any other name haha.

[Serenity]

Burakoam my best friend's name is Samantha. She is the world's kindest, most loyal, protective, big hearted person. I love that name. Re: your mood changes - maybe Samantha is a fighter. :happy:

Back to where I belong now... :wink:

[Girlieplease]

Aaaaaahhhhhh no nub shot, baby was upside down, am gutted! Saw nada. Is it worth putting a scan photo up on here in case you guys seesomething I don't?