November TTC & 2ww

[Georgia_Peach]

15dpo so ya it's very low

[XXforhubby]

15dpo so ya it's very low

I’m holding out hope for you Robin! My DS2 is proof that it is possible 🤞🏻[emoji1317]!


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[emoji254]Thank you Gender Dreaming for our precious little girl![emoji254]

[ABC.2606]

Sigh. So I've had a little wine tonight (after 10+ days without it during tww!) and I'm feeling so sad. I want to be pregnant again. I want the baby girl I've dreamed of for soooo long. Just feels like it's never going to happen. I just want one sweet little girl. I've dreamt and worked so hard.

And I found out my best friend - who has wanted to be a mama forever & started IVF in October for infertility issues - isn't pregnant after the first embryo transfer didn't take. Which just breaks my heart. I was so feeling like it was going to stick.

Why can't baby making just be easier for those great mamas out there who want it so much???

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[Pbn3]

Big hugs Abc xxoo Try and not dwell on it too much as it will never make sense how some people who don't even deserve children can have them so easily yet those that want them so much have such trouble. It simply is what it is as cold as that sounds. With my second mc I discovered a week before our family reunion that I was going to lose the pregnancy. I had a brother and sister flying in from other cities and didn't feel I could back out of it as it cost them so much to fly their families there. So everybody knew I was going to miscarry and likely during the 4/5 days we were all there. On the seond night/first family dinner my brother and his girlfriend announced. They didn't even bother giving me a heads up which was really upsetting after the fact. I behaved appropriately of course and was very excited for them but it was a huge kick in the guts. I started bleeding the next day and already had a scan booked at a diagnostic place in the city to confirm bub was deceased. I seen an ob I'd never met to medicate the mc in order to quicken things up so the 8 hour drive home would be more bearable. It didnt go to plan, I went through an awful procedure in his office to try and remove retained tissue in the cervix two days later and then once home tried more medication then eventually had to have a d&c. When my brothers girlfriend was 19 weeks pregnant she terminated her perfectly healthy pregnancy against my brothers wishes and I basically had a break down. I spiralled into depression and drinking alcohol and lost all faith in the whole good things happen to good people, karma etc etc I climbed my way back slowly and I never ever want to go there again. I experienced my third loss a couple months later but strangely enough I dealt with it the easiest..... I think because I accepted it was out of my control. I was either going to fall pregnant with a sticky bean or I wasn't. Gave myself 3 more cycles and was at complete peace when I gave up. Then I fell pregnant somehow ([emoji23]) and low and behold I'm now 30 weeks. I guess what I'm trying to say is don't dwell on things you cant control, try and stay positive for both you and your friend. Very importantly, try and not be angry. Its an exhausting destructive emotion that saps the life out of you. And keep talking, always keep talking and sharing xxoo


Sorry everyone for bombarding the thread with all that but I feel its important to know we are not alone in thoughts or emotions and this is never a walk you need do alone. Someone here will always have your back [emoji173]

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[ABC.2606]

Pbn - ok I'm in tears. Your story is amazing. You've been through so much. And the love and support you pour onto the ladies here on GD is just so incredible. You truly are an amazing, beautiful woman. I wish I could meet you in person. If you ever come anywhere on this side of the world (the US), please let me know.
Yea I will try to stay positive. My friend is a very positive person. She's sad but remains optimistic. She has more chances still ahead with the IVF. I just want this to happen for her so bad. And I just want that little girl I've been waiting for. Hopefully both will come in time. For now I hope I can be as positive a light as you are Pbn!! So many things to be joyful and thankful for this time of year. We're traveling after Christmas to see my DH's family. His sister has 3 kids - 1 boy and 2 girls - and his brother has 2 kids - 1 boy, 1 girl - and they are pregnant with their 3rd which we don't know the gender of yet. It's another reason I'm hoping we're pregnant by Christmas so I can mitigate the feelings of jealousy I know I'm going to have to deal with being around their mixed gender families. At least I'll have 45 lbs of weight loss to show off & brag about haha! I'm kidding, but they haven't seen me since I lost all this weight so that will be a surprise.

Anyways - thanks for as always lifting my spirits Pbn!!! I CANNOT wait to see a pic of that little bub of yours!!!!! So soon now!!!!!!!

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[ABC.2606]

Oh and Pbn, with my brother-in-law, they called to tell us they are pregnant with their 3rd on the DAY I miscarried in August, so I feel ya on that - it was a little rough!!!!

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[Pbn3]

Thank you Abc [emoji173] I found for me turning anger and bitterness into empathy and compassion really healed me in a way nothing else did. Of course the anti depressants helped too [emoji6][emoji23] I feel like its my mission in life to see as many rainbow babies brought into this world as possible which is why I cant bring myself to leave these threads. I love sharing your ladies journeys and so many here have inspired me and were crucial in helping me when I was at my worst, for which I'll be forever thankful. So lets try and get you pregnant this cycle with your sticky pink bean! That truly would be the icing on the 'Christmas' cake [emoji3]

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[Pbn3]

Oh and Pbn, with my brother-in-law, they called to tell us they are pregnant with their 3rd on the DAY I miscarried in August, so I feel ya on that - it was a little rough!!!!

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Yep! I was in my second hour of bleeding with my first loss when my close friend messaged me a pic of her with her newborn baby girl just born that morning. Its like really!!!????!! Aren't we going through enough already without having our faces (unknowingly by others) rubbed in it!!!??? Screw you universe!!!!

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[Pbn3]

At least the last one was uneventful....... gotta look on the bright side [emoji6]

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[ABC.2606]

Thank you Abc [emoji173] I found for me turning anger and bitterness into empathy and compassion really healed me in a way nothing else did. Of course the anti depressants helped too [emoji6][emoji23] I feel like its my mission in life to see as many rainbow babies brought into this world as possible which is why I cant bring myself to leave these threads. I love sharing your ladies journeys and so many here have inspired me and were crucial in helping me when I was at my worst, for which I'll be forever thankful. So lets try and get you pregnant this cycle with your sticky pink bean! That truly would be the icing on the 'Christmas' cake [emoji3]

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Pbn please never leave us on these forums! Your support and advice are invaluable!! And yea I'm really hoping this is our cycle!! I start round 2 of Clomid tomorrow!!!!

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