Awesome April 2ww & TTC thread [emoji120]

[Pbn3]

Mummy2boys even though it's still early days temp wise when I look at your chart I straight away think 'pregnant!' Gosh I hope it's true fx fx fx!!!

Noemi that's alot of spotting... has it completely stopped now? Have you had an extended period like that before?

Emshe that spotting cd24!! Could easily be implantation related fx fx fx!!! I noticed you didn't have any spotting post o last cycle [emoji6]

Gafan I think its possible you may be 1 or 2dpo?? Sundays temp is an open circle, did you take it earlier than usual?



DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

[ABC.2606]

Wow that's getting close Abc...



DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

LOL uh oh - am I stressing you out too Pbn? I don't want to rub my stress off on to others!

I know - it's close. But if I don't O until 36+ hours past the first +OPK (which is normal for me) there probably wont be much left, yea? At the earliest it should be a 3-O attempt. I J&D and DH had abstained so the amount of sperm in there probably isn't that high.

[mummy2boys]

That opk looks pretty close abc! Try not to worry about it, like you say only a low chance but I have everything crossed for you that if it did happen, it's your sticky baby girl 🤞
Haha thanks pbn, I've not got my hopes up as feeling really crampy (like period type dragging sensations) that I usually get around this time in my cycle. Still in with a chance though I guess. I actually don't mind so much if it's not my month as I've put so much weight on since giving up the diet! I need to get back on it, just got no willpower [emoji23]
Emshe, you and me are very close on our dpo! I imagine we'll be testing at the same time! Exciting 🤞


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[Parying4agirl]

Thanks u so so much for your messge Mommy2apples, actually touched me deeply and meant alot. I understand not everyone has a faith or belief but especially after losing my dS1 the Lord has got me where I am today.i have family and friends around me but it is Him that i can talk to and open my heart to, lighten the heavy burdern i feel at times, missing my baby so much.
All of us here are on a similar journey, yearning for a child (whichever way that may be) and i know most of us have had great losses on the way, i just believe if A life is meant to come into this world, then it will no matter what we may plan in our heads.

Agree Parying4agirl. I know you wasn’t being insensitive as I know abc knows that as well. As we all have been through losses. I do believe in the good lord above and turn to him for all my troubles. He’s always answered my prayers even if it wasn’t the way I wanted, he always knows what is best for me. I will never deny him for anyone. People either accept that of me
Or they don’t. I’m not here to please people, I’m here to please the lord. ABC knows we care about her and would never be insensitive toward her. Nor would I anyone else.


6/2003 [emoji1349]2/2009 [emoji1407] 12/2012 [emoji1349]4/2015 [emoji1406] 2015 [emoji1356] 2016 [emoji1413] The Lord Answered my [emoji1317] 2017🤰due June 2018, with a healthy [emoji1405][emoji166]to fit into our crazy bunch, and Complete our Family![emoji7][emoji8]

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[emshe]

Mummy2boys even though it's still early days temp wise when I look at your chart I straight away think 'pregnant!' Gosh I hope it's true fx fx fx!!!

Noemi that's alot of spotting... has it completely stopped now? Have you had an extended period like that before?

Emshe that spotting cd24!! Could easily be implantation related fx fx fx!!! I noticed you didn't have any spotting post o last cycle [emoji6]

Gafan I think its possible you may be 1 or 2dpo?? Sundays temp is an open circle, did you take it earlier than usual?



DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

Unfortunately Pbn it’s like clockwork the same as last month despite trying clomid later (5-9) to give my estrogen a chance to get going. I have got up to see more AF like bleeding. I was so hopeful.

I think maybe it’s time for me to realise that my boys are my happy ever after & start living. I am so tired, tired physically & emotionally, tired of being scared of getting sick from my kids germs, tired of living daily for the future instead of being in the now. I don’t know if I can ever find a balance whilst I keep on this journey I’ve been on for years.

Our 2015 angel [emoji72] birthday should be next month, and then our recent successful baby girl HT loss [emoji72] should be due in July. Plus the transfers that didn’t take, they all carry heartache all the time, but dates on a calendar really make their mark.

Is it time to concede defeat, to give up in clomid, just let go of swaying?
Is my body even capable anymore?
Life isn’t real happy around here and I know that weighs heavily on me & I suffer from anxiety and depression somewhat now. Maybe it’s time to get on top of that so I can be more the mum my boys deserve & get the happy back in all our relationships, not just the clinging to it will all be great once we have our girl. A notion that seems it may never come.

I’m sorry to burden you all with such heaviness but please know if I do disappear I am doing some soul searching, lots of crying & perhaps smashing a bag of crisps, some ice cream &/or chocolate for a day or 2, & then torturing myself with guilt [emoji51].

But if I’m not here, please know that I am still 100% thinking of you ladies fighting for your dreams & hoping beyond hope that you indeed get your happily ever after, you all deserve that xoxo thank you for hoping the same for me the last 2 months, it has meant the world [emoji847]

I may try in June, but I don’t know what I should do regarding the clomid, maybe 25mg would be more successful?


https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/35220b

[Mommy2apples]

Thanks u so so much for your messge Mommy2apples, actually touched me deeply and meant alot. I understand not everyone has a faith or belief but especially after losing my dS1 the Lord has got me where I am today.i have family and friends around me but it is Him that i can talk to and open my heart to, lighten the heavy burdern i feel at times, missing my baby so much.
All of us here are on a similar journey, yearning for a child (whichever way that may be) and i know most of us have had great losses on the way, i just believe if A life is meant to come into this world, then it will no matter what we may plan in our heads.

So sorry for your loss momma. You will get your precious baby! ❤️


6/2003 [emoji1349]2/2009 [emoji1407] 12/2012 [emoji1349]4/2015 [emoji1406] 2015 [emoji1356] 2016 [emoji1413] The Lord Answered my [emoji1317] 2017🤰due June 2018, with a healthy [emoji1405][emoji166]to fit into our crazy bunch, and Complete our Family![emoji7][emoji8]

https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/50268a

[Mommy2apples]

Cheering all of you on to get your precious babies! That’s why I keep hanging out here to see it happen as does PBN! ❤️


6/2003 [emoji1349]2/2009 [emoji1407] 12/2012 [emoji1349]4/2015 [emoji1406] 2015 [emoji1356] 2016 [emoji1413] The Lord Answered my [emoji1317] 2017🤰due June 2018, with a healthy [emoji1405][emoji166]to fit into our crazy bunch, and Complete our Family![emoji7][emoji8]

https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/50268a

[Throwaway_panther]

Unfortunately Pbn it’s like clockwork the same as last month despite trying clomid later (5-9) to give my estrogen a chance to get going. I have got up to see more AF like bleeding. I was so hopeful.

I think maybe it’s time for me to realise that my boys are my happy ever after & start living. I am so tired, tired physically & emotionally, tired of being scared of getting sick from my kids germs, tired of living daily for the future instead of being in the now. I don’t know if I can ever find a balance whilst I keep on this journey I’ve been on for years.

Our 2015 angel [emoji72] birthday should be next month, and then our recent successful baby girl HT loss [emoji72] should be due in July. Plus the transfers that didn’t take, they all carry heartache all the time, but dates on a calendar really make their mark.

Is it time to concede defeat, to give up in clomid, just let go of swaying?
Is my body even capable anymore?
Life isn’t real happy around here and I know that weighs heavily on me & I suffer from anxiety and depression somewhat now. Maybe it’s time to get on top of that so I can be more the mum my boys deserve & get the happy back in all our relationships, not just the clinging to it will all be great once we have our girl. A notion that seems it may never come.

I’m sorry to burden you all with such heaviness but please know if I do disappear I am doing some soul searching, lots of crying & perhaps smashing a bag of crisps, some ice cream &/or chocolate for a day or 2, & then torturing myself with guilt [emoji51].

But if I’m not here, please know that I am still 100% thinking of you ladies fighting for your dreams & hoping beyond hope that you indeed get your happily ever after, you all deserve that xoxo thank you for hoping the same for me the last 2 months, it has meant the world [emoji847]

I may try in June, but I don’t know what I should do regarding the clomid, maybe 25mg would be more successful?


https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/35220b

Oh honey, I am so sorry you're feeling all of that. I definitely understand completely and have thought this so many times. Please feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk. I know the "ghost" birthdays really weight heavy. Our next missed EDD is our wedding anniversary next month (and the last one was my birthday in February), and then literally it's almost nonstop loss due dates until 2019, including of our two XYs we transferred and lost. It's all so hard when even those days get bogged down in grief.

I have seen so many women "give up" on swaying or trying and falling pregnant with their DG. So you could try that? Maybe a break is what your body and mind need? But I also know there's the women who were "just about to give up" then fell pregnant with their DG.

It's so hard to know, and obviously we can't base our decisions off of what happened with other people. It's just so hard when we want something so bad and don't know if it's our own selves getting in our way of happiness

I'm here for you <3

[gafan]

Unfortunately Pbn it’s like clockwork the same as last month despite trying clomid later (5-9) to give my estrogen a chance to get going. I have got up to see more AF like bleeding. I was so hopeful.

I think maybe it’s time for me to realise that my boys are my happy ever after & start living. I am so tired, tired physically & emotionally, tired of being scared of getting sick from my kids germs, tired of living daily for the future instead of being in the now. I don’t know if I can ever find a balance whilst I keep on this journey I’ve been on for years.

Our 2015 angel [emoji72] birthday should be next month, and then our recent successful baby girl HT loss [emoji72] should be due in July. Plus the transfers that didn’t take, they all carry heartache all the time, but dates on a calendar really make their mark.

Is it time to concede defeat, to give up in clomid, just let go of swaying?
Is my body even capable anymore?
Life isn’t real happy around here and I know that weighs heavily on me & I suffer from anxiety and depression somewhat now. Maybe it’s time to get on top of that so I can be more the mum my boys deserve & get the happy back in all our relationships, not just the clinging to it will all be great once we have our girl. A notion that seems it may never come.

I’m sorry to burden you all with such heaviness but please know if I do disappear I am doing some soul searching, lots of crying & perhaps smashing a bag of crisps, some ice cream &/or chocolate for a day or 2, & then torturing myself with guilt [emoji51].

But if I’m not here, please know that I am still 100% thinking of you ladies fighting for your dreams & hoping beyond hope that you indeed get your happily ever after, you all deserve that xoxo thank you for hoping the same for me the last 2 months, it has meant the world [emoji847]

I may try in June, but I don’t know what I should do regarding the clomid, maybe 25mg would be more successful?


https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/35220b

Hugs to you, emshe. And try to skip the self torture after chocolate and chips. Be kind to yourself as you make these difficult decisions.

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[Parying4agirl]

Emshe it must be so difficult for what your going through and i wish u all the comfort. Have some time to yourself, stuff yourself and enjoy every min of it ☺️
Making these decisions are so so difficult but take each day as it comes and see how you feel. Like PP said maybe some time away for your mind/body to relax is what may help get your happy ending as i too have heard people get pregnant once they have ‘given up’ . Its an exhausting process, wishing you the best of health xx