It's one of those days...

[Mrs_P]

You know - it helps just knowing that i'm normal and not the only one in the world to feel like this.

I grieve for the daughter I will never have too. I want a daugther, but I don't even dare to imagine i will have it. I can sit and picture the delivery room as they announce "its a girl!" but as soon as that image is in my head I hurry to brush it away and think its better not to, because when time comes I know it will be a boy. And I am happy to have another boy, but darn it I just want ONE girl - is that so much to ask for!?

I'm afraid of the pregnancy as well. Especially the do i/dont i go team green (my OH doesn't mind either way, says its my call). On one hand I'm afraid of being miserable all the way if I'm told boy, but I'm afraid of being miserable all the way if I go team green too because i'll convince myself its a boy. And If I convince myself its a girl and its a boy, how will I cope!? I can't know any of it... And being a typical control-freak boy mum, I suppose that sort of scares the living fluff bunnies out of me!

I don't really want to hope for a girl.. I sort of fell its best not to and just be extra surprised if it is a girl. I wish I had a looking glass though! Just one peep into the future to see if I actually will have a little girl. If not, then, well I don't think I'd ever fully accept it - I think I'd always yearn for a daughter, but at least I'd know. Instead, if the next is a boy I think I'd want to continue, but there's only so many children we can afford and I do think 3 is our limit.

Oh darn this GD business.. but thank heavens for you girls. I wish I had, had all of you when I was TTC DS2!

I totally get this, its exactly how i feel. I would happily wait with all the patience in the world if i knew my daughter was coming to me. Is not having another boy that scares me, its never having a daughter and having to grow old sad.

[Yoga lover]

Lace princess. Just had to say how gorgeous your boys are!

[mydream]

The best advice I can give you is to not give up on your dream! I know how hard it is and believe me I have been there many times with the same feelings as you, but I am proof that swaying can work. After 3 failed rounds of HT it was swaying that finally gave me "my dream "...Good Luck

[Tiggerian]

I know - there's no reason I shouldn't have a daughter next time. And I know I shouldn't give up, but sometimes despair just takes me. Especially when I see how 'easy' it is for everyone else to get their mixed gender family! I always said I didn't want more than two children, but that was when I assumed I would have a mixed family... then when DS2 came around I was like Ok one more and even tho we haven't had another I'm still like "ok so.. mb two more?" simply because I'm assumin next one will be a boy. But like my OH says; when do you stop? After the 8th? 9th? What if they are all boys? When do you pull the break!? Especially when HT/adoption isn't an option!

[LacePrincess]

Lace princess. Just had to say how gorgeous your boys are!

Aw, thanks. It's so hard to find a picture with all 3 without ONE of them looking like a goofball or really crabby, lol. Those are really old pics, gosh.....DS3 is just about 3yo now, hard to believe those pics are 2 years old already! Goodness.

[Tiggerian]

You should see the last two pics I took of the boys together... It was for PJ day at the nursery and the best I could get was with my eldest looking drunk and my youngest looking stoned.. awesome! Just a normal day at home.. lol

[My Three Sons]

I can totally understand how you feel. I think that is why I haven't been all gung ho on the diet like I should, because deep down I feel like it won't work for me anyway. Of course that is more like a self fulfilling prophecy too.... It's just so hard. I love my boys with all my heart, but if this next one is not a girl I know we are done and I will have to give up my dream.

[Tiggerian]

Those self fulfilling prophecies, eh!? I truly am my own worst enemy - I know that logically I have no worst chance than anyone else, but my heart is like "WHY do you even set yourself up for heartbreak!?"

One of my closest friends had a little girl 10 weeks ago - she is the most adorable little thing! She was lying sleeping on my chest the other day and I was like "Dude you gotta take your baby or you won't ever see her again because I'm seriously going to kidnap her in a minute!"... She's just SO cute! She shares a lot of features with my DS2 at that age (funny thing - DS1 is the spitting image of me. You can't see dad AT ALL in him. DS2 is the opposite!) which doesn't help my imagination at all.. walked around sighing the rest of the day! Urgh.. ><

[My Three Sons]

I totally get it. It seems like everywhere I look I see people with girls and wonder what she would look like if we had one. It seems like it is so easy for some to get both genders without even trying or sometimes even caring if it were one or the other. My SIL has a girl and they were going to have one more baby. She wanted a boy and was planning on some sort of sway although I am not sure what. Well, they had an oops before she started to research swaying, so she jumped and did J&D. She's having a boy. Hmph. So now she has her girl and boy without giving it a second thought.