Does anyone have GD so bad that they can hardly bear to go on?

[OneLastDream]

I'm so so sorry you are feeling this way. It completely mirrors my thoughts and I wouldn't wish these feelings on anyone. I now have less than 3 weeks to go and hoping that holding my baby in my arms will erase the worse feelings of despair. I know this is something I need to live with for the rest of my life but I also know I had bad gd with ds3 and he is just the best thing ever. I wouldn't swap him for all the girls in the world. How many weeks are you ? Sending you lots of hugs. The feelings you have now may never entirely disappear but I do promise they will fade xx

[Yuzu]

TRIGGER

More than two years ago, when I found out I was expecting DS3, I felt this way. During the ultrasound I yelled, "It's a boy????" and I immediately started crying. I was so sure that after all of the years of waiting and wanting I was finally getting my girl. When that tech said 'boy' it was like a dark cloud rolled over my life.

I've never been the kind of person to think about hurting myself, but on the way home from the appointment I thought, "what if I were to run off the highway and into a tree?" I really thought about it. Everyone would think it was a tragic accident. They would think I swerved to miss a raccoon or a deer and I hit a tree. I could even see the news headlines, 'Mother to be in Tragic Accident.'

But I only thought of it for a microsecond. I couldn't do that. But I was still horribly, terribly saddened. When I got home I had to delete all the bookmarks of girl's clothing that I had saved, and I just thought I would cry until my heart broke.

You're not alone. GD is terrible. What helped me was to start talking to my baby: telling him stories, singing to him, really having conversations with him. And my GD eased somewhat. When DS3 was born, he was crying (like newborns do) and I said something to a nurse and he immediately stopped crying! He recognized my voice. It was one of the most glorious moments of my life. And even today, now that he is 2 1/2, we are just so close as mommy and son. We have a special bond. It was worth the pain of GD to have this awesome guy in my life.

I have a fourth (!!!!) son now, and even though I had GD it wasn't nearly as bad. I hope you can get past this dark point, and that my story helped a little bit. You can always come here to vent, if you need to.

Hugs.

[Starr]

It does get better, in time. I've been blessed to have 4 Boys...I sunk into the lowest of lows of a depression after the U/S for DS #3- I went in the woods and screamed and cried inconsolably. The depression continued for sometime. Of course, the moment he was in my arms I fell in love, just as I had 2 times before- I wouldn't trade one of my precious boys for any girl in the world...but, boy would I do anything else to have my daughter! Surprisingly when I found out DS #4 was a boy I did much better, it was almost expected I guess. I certainly have my moments & days of strong GD, but I've really come to a better place. Best wishes Hun!

[Adia]

It does get better, in time. I've been blessed to have 4 Boys...I sunk into the lowest of lows of a depression after the U/S for DS #3- I went in the woods and screamed and cried inconsolably. The depression continued for sometime. Of course, the moment he was in my arms I fell in love, just as I had 2 times before- I wouldn't trade one of my precious boys for any girl in the world...but, boy would I do anything else to have my daughter! Surprisingly when I found out DS #4 was a boy I did much better, it was almost expected I guess. I certainly have my moments & days of strong GD, but I've really come to a better place. Best wishes Hun!

I'm telling you their is something raw, real and gutting about the 3rd one of the same gender. I have seen it time and time again....and I have seen them usually turn out to be our favorites too, I think becasue we had so many deep emotions about them they win our hearts over even when they aren't our DG!!

I am the same I know I'll cope much better if DC4 is a girl, but I still hope for a boy in the mean time!!!