Didnt think I'd ever post here

[Peebell85]

Hotdogz- you got those feelings exactly in 1! Its losing something you never had. Weird but exactly what it is.

I'm starting to lose the sadness now, still feel a but disappointed, but starting to feel excited again for this baby boy.

[Kittybear]

It's a big risk isnt it. I think my disappointment is greater because I swayed, if I was ignorant about swaying I wonder if I would feel this sad.

I stupidly thought I had a good chance at this being a girl and told myself it probably is.

Oh Hun, you basically took the words out of my mouth with this statement... I really understand what you are going through as I'm right there with you! I do think our boys will love having baby brothers and they will play so nicely together in a year or two and they will be friends for life! I have no advice but to be kind to yourself and to give yourself time... It is so hard when our life 'story' in actuality doesn't match the story in our heads (often that we have carried with us from tiny girls) but that doesn't mean it can't also be wonderful. Send many hugs (((()))) xxx

[coocoobananas]

At the end of this it should have said NO number 5!!! Lol

I cried after I found out my 2nd was a boy. I didn't realize I would be sad but I was like you and was just planning on 2! I didn't want to do pregnancy again, I get sooo sick. So I just had to think I'll never have a girl and I never thought I wouldn't have one!
I ended up being so sad I did try for number 3 and man did I cry when he was a boy because I swayed too and felt the same, that it wasn't fair. However, I did start to come to terms with it after he was here. When he did arrive I didn't care at all!! But feelings crept back but not nearly as strong mostly because 4 was just out of the question lol! But here I am!!! And yah it will sting if it's a boy but I'll be ok and there will be no 5!

[Peebell85]

Well just an update.... A few days have past and I feel no sadness whatsoever. A tiny part of me still thinks tgere might be a small chance of it being a girl, but no hopes are being hung on that whatsoever.

I'm now feeling really excited (genuinely) to meet my baby boy.

[Mums]

I am soooooo happy for you and how you have overcome GD!!!!!!

I would LOVE another boy and really hope if I hear girl, I can rise above just like you! You are an inspiration!

Not to mention....suuuuper lucky!

[Peebell85]

Naww thanks Mums.... I think for me it was a case of wanting what I don't have. I'm no inspiration though, I just realised that I'm in control of my happiness and I should not let this amazing time be dampened by what I thought I wanted. My little Sonny boy is going to be loved and adored like mad!

[moof4]

I don't think any of us thought we would post here. it's not about thinking we want to have the other gender its about thinking we wouldn't ever have them. you will love your baby they are yours....just look after yourself

[Peebell85]

I agree moof4. As a child I saw myself as a mother of girls... Maybe because that is how I grew up. But I am a mum of boys and am so happy with that now.

[Mrs_Incredible]

Hugs. So glad you've bounced back so quickly. I'm going to be a mum of 4 boys, quite an obvious turtle at 12+4, and am struggling with losing the dream forever. It hurts but it's not about not loving another son, just grieving what I thought was an achievable dream for the past 20 years! X

[Peebell85]

I know exactly what you means Mrs Incredible - you know you will love your kid to death, its not about that, its knowing your last shot wasnt what you thought/wanted/dreamed and so its the end of an era and that can be devastating. When they said boy this time my mind instantly thought 'number 3' I'll sway harder, but I'm not going down that path, constantly aiming for something that really we have no control over whatsoever. Even swaying doesnt up your chances that much when you think about it, its still always 50/50 no matter how much you eat and how longbetween servings... Its a big stab at the dark at the end of the day. I'm glad I swayed loosely and not hardcore because I know my heart would be broken, but its not.... I'm looking forward to welcoming my CHILD into the world, no matter what he or she was destined to be.