how can I deal?!

[atomic sagebrush]

Huge congrats!

The "odds" are completely individual and really don't tell you a lot in this type of scenario. Later losses take more of a toll and while it was a quick turnaround, I would have gone for it after a natural loss at 5 weeks. It's much easier to come back from physically and many people think that your body would not have been able to ovulate and conceive that quickly if you weren't recovered enough to sustain a pregnancy.

It's totally normal to have fears - I think that once you have had a loss it's never quite the "ignorance is bliss" that it was prior. Huge (((hugs))) and sending you a ton of sticky pink dust.

[The Anchor]

I'm so sorry again Rosie, m/c is one of the hardest things to go through. I think it's because you feel so alone and no one understands, but I also believe that many women don't tell ANYONE about their experiences - you know, the 3-month rule. So it's really nice to have your "faceless" friends on this site . Although I desperately want another baby after 3 OHWs (the third ending in m/c) I am, like you, TERRIFIED of my next pregnancy. All I can offer is huge virtual HUGS and know that you are not alone.

[hotdogz&boyz]

I'm gonna be honest and say that you will probably have more fears and reservations in this pregnancy than you did with your previous ones. Loss just does that to people. You realize how delicate life really is and it can mess with your mind. HOWEVER, I agree that your chances of having another loss in a row are fairly low, considering your three healthy pregnancies and the fact that statistically, most women experience a loss at some point in their reproductive lives. Not saying its easy, but it is a fairly common occurrence and one that does affect things afterward.

Try not to focus on all the twinges and obsess about the darkness of lines. It will only drive you nuts. You might think it will help, but it really will only increase your anxiety.

I've had five losses total now. Four between my 1st and 2nd child and then the chemical pregnancy we just had (4.2w) and it does color your outlook for future pregnancies (my "serial losses" were explained, please don't be scared by that). I never quite relax and I never quite feel as confident as I did in my first pregnancy. But, the good news is that I also tended to enjoy the little things (heartbeat sonograms, anatomy scan, movement) just a tad bit more because of those losses, just relishing a little in knowing what a miracle it was that things were going well. Not saying that moms who haven't experienced loss don't relish those things, but I did have a bit more appreciation than I did with my "innocent" pregnancy.

I wish you the best in your pregnancy and I hope to join you in the rainbow team soon (ish). Hugs. And big congrats!

[unwirklich]

Having just had 2 back to back losses after 3 healthy boys, I really looked into this (I'm a writer) and wrote a full article on this very topic lol

Chances of multiple miscarriages
Multiple Miscarriages: A Look at Recurrent Miscarriage Statistics - Yahoo Voices - voices.yahoo.com

another from before my second loss about what helped dealing with the anxiety
Pregnancy After Miscarriage: FAQ and Tips - Yahoo Voices - voices.yahoo.com

I sincerely hope things turn out better for you this round.

[mommymachine]

My story will start off sad but then be happy

I had my first loss after 4 normal healthy pregnancies. The loss happened at 7 weeks but the baby stopped growing at 5 weeks. I got pregnant immediately and lost that one as well at 5 weeks...but then I got pregnant immediately AGAIN and THAT baby is now my beautiful, happy, healthy 7 month old daughter who is just cutting her very first tooth