Nervous...??

[Mochagirl]

I think that's a really nice idea, dramabird! I had the same regret with my twins - we decided to wait until the birth, and so my first memory of ds1 is of me thinking "A boy? I really wanted them to be girls...". Of course I fell in love with he and his brother quickly afterwards, but I'll always have the guilt of the brief moment of sadness when I should have been nothing but happy. We found out the gender with ds3, and I'm fairly sure I will this time around too.

[pinkdreams]

I am right there with you too! One moment I feel great about the sway and feeling like I am trying to do something about it and then the next moment I am so afraid to find out (after a BFP that is if I am having another boy and this is my last one too! I just try to be optimistic and rely on the faith that what is meant to be will be and I remember how devastated I was when my ultrasound with DS 2 revealed another boy, but now that he is 2 and his little personality is really starting to come out I couldn't love him more. He is an absolute sweetheart and I am so glad he is who he is. I feel like this next one will be a girl because as corny as it sounds I see her in my dreams and I can't wait to meet her but if I do have another son I will hopefully rest assured in the thought that I gave my sway 110% and it just wasn't meant to be. Best of luck to you!!

[atomic sagebrush]

The funny thing that many of us realize is that it's the possibility and the hope that makes the GD so bad. The reality is never as bad as the fear. When we finally decide to be done and accept the all-boy family as our own, the GD really lifts. Buddhists say, "Desire is the root of all unhappiness" and it does seem to be true where GD is concerned.