Nearly 44 and hoping for one last girl

[1moregirl]

I don't think a letter or anything will make him come round. He is very adamant so I will probably just have to pray for another accidental pregnancy to occur. Part of me feels like being equally stubborn and saying to him 'no more babies, no more sex.' It makes me angry that he is sooo selfishly saying no as well. When I asked him why no he just says he already has no patience with the 3 we already have. Not even because of my health after the last miscarriage. He is just purely thinking of himself not being able to cope with a 4th. Things either have to be his way or no way so I have to play my cards well because this sort of thing can easily become a relationship deal-breaker. Yes I was a bit sneaky last time in getting pregnant but I didn't force him to not wear a condom. Our 3rd was accidental as well and I said it was safe to not are a condom even though I had an inkling I might've Oed somewhere around that occasion. And with both last pregnancies he was really excited about it so I find it selfish that he is just thinking of himself when he is saying no.

[1moregirl]

I have even told him that I would fully consent to him getting a vasectomy if he agrees to trying for one last baby and trying to compromise but he won't even try to meet me half-way. Sometimes I even think he enjoys having this piece of control over me. One time when we were discussing it before the last time I became pregnant he jokingly said, "ok, let's go", meaning lets go straight to the bedroom now and try. And I replied "it's not the right time just right now.' And so he answered with "ok. The moments gone. Bad luck." And laughed a bit about it. That was the attitude that made me take the sneaky option to start off with.