Not so lucky this time, my third sway (for a boy) has not worked :-(

[SpottyBear]

Traci 25 thinking of you too and so hoping you are doing ok xx

[Throwaway_panther]

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Thanks very much for your post, I'm very sorry only replying now, I've been keeping away for a while.
I'm very happy to say that I am feeling so so much better and really have totally accepted our 3rd dd to be! I'm still being careful not to dwell on some things but have definitely moved on a huge amount :-)

I so understand your feelings about worrying that you will never have a boy. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever have not 1 but 3 girls!! I worried so much in my first pregnancy that I would never have a girl and indeed I did have a boy first (whom of course once he arrived I loved very much!) Its surreal now that it has flipped and I suffered gd over now having a girl and not a boy!! So you really never know whats going to come down the line! And you could easily end up like me!!
And if I can reassure you at all when you have your own baby in your arms it will feel so different than what for now you can only imagine. It so hard to imagine what it will all feel like when its your first. And the love for your baby will be your most overwhelming feelings! Well there are lots of other less pleasant overwhelming feelings like exhaustion and what do I do now etc etc! But I hope you feel a lot better with your gd when your own special baby is in your arms and you are a mom :-) And if you don't you know you'll get lots of support here :-) Best wishes for the rest of your pregnancy!!

Oh just seen you are due in June, maybe she has already arrived!!!! Hope all went/goes well :-)

She did and you were very right!

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[Traci25]

That was so sweet of you thinking of me. I'm struggling so much. I have so much guilt. I hate myself for not wanting to be pregnant, I hide it so I don't have to talk about it in fear of breaking down. I hate hearing "another boy! You poor thing!" I find raising a son really tough. They are obsessed with their dad which is lovely but I'm always the outcast. He is innocent and I do love him, but not wanting it, it's so difficult. It's not the baby part it's he raising another boy. I want to wake up and it all be a bad dream. I'm afraid he's going to have something wrong like autism bc my struggles while pregnant.

[SpottyBear]

She did and you were very right!

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Oh wonderful!!!!! So so thrilled to hear this! Congratulations! Enjoy this very special time with your new little baby :-)

[SpottyBear]

That was so sweet of you thinking of me. I'm struggling so much. I have so much guilt. I hate myself for not wanting to be pregnant, I hide it so I don't have to talk about it in fear of breaking down. I hate hearing "another boy! You poor thing!" I find raising a son really tough. They are obsessed with their dad which is lovely but I'm always the outcast. He is innocent and I do love him, but not wanting it, it's so difficult. It's not the baby part it's he raising another boy. I want to wake up and it all be a bad dream. I'm afraid he's going to have something wrong like autism bc my struggles while pregnant.

Oh Traci so so sorry to hear of your continuing struggles, so very difficult for you. I think without your beautiful newborn to snuggle and hold and smell(!) gender is so overwhelming. I think allow yourself to feel rubbish about this. Thats ok. Thats the way you feel and its ok to feel like that. Adding guilt to the mix is an extra hardship you don't need. You wish things were different and its crap that they aren't. Hopefully with time these feelings will ease and go away soon for you.

I really do hope that once baby arrives and becomes your own special little baby that that will help you. I know unlike with your first you do know what to expect but still I hope this comes true for you too. And all babies looking different and having different personalities and traits and talents etc is something I'm holding onto too. I understand your fears about something being wrong but really feel that your emotional feelings will have no impact on your unborn baby. Maybe this little man will be a real mammy's boy!


Will be thinking of you, hang in there xx

[Traci25]

I'm sorry your struggling as well. It's crazy to think when I started having children I would ever be in this position. I assumed I would have girls bc I'm from a family of 3 girls. We are so close as well as my mom. I just wanted that as well. All around they are all girl pregnancies I'm one of the only ones having a ds. He's sweet and innocent yet I can't find any bond like I did with the others. I feel like the worst mother. I'm just praying like you said when I hold him it will happen. I just worry about raising another one, it's hard and my boys are daddy's boys.no matter how much fun we are having they still want him. It's crazy! I'm hAppy though I married an amazing man That is an amazing daddy. I'm thinking of you and praying that you will continue to keep doing so well!

Thank you for such kind words and thinking of me. I can't express how that makes me feel so not alone and not a mad woman!!

[familymatters]

Traci25, my DS1 is the biggest mummies boy, he adores me and is always seeking me out for kisses and cuddles. He tells me he loves me at least 5x a day You just dont know what this little guys personality will be like. As we speak DS1 is lying on me watching TV telling me all about his plans for the day...he's such a sweet boy. I look at DHs relationship with his mum and I pray that I have the same relationship with my boys. They chat on the phone several times a week, we have his parents over for dinner regularly, they socialize together, they are just very close. I know it's not the same as having a DD but there is no reason why this little guy won't be a total mummies boy!

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