Adoption is not for me.

I went for a 3D fun ultrasound last week and feel like I met my baby, it was the most amazing experience and I fell in love... All this time I have been so worried about how I would cope with my 3rd DS being born, but I now know I will be ok with him as he is beautiful and I cant wait to hold him in my arms. It was amazing how the ultrasound flipped my emotions and I know how relieved my husband is too.

In saying all of that my dreams of a DD will forever be ongoing, I feel more at peace with this pregnancy now which I felt was extremely important, and I will review our situation in a year or so and decide if IVF is an option for us or not, but I almost feel like time may truly heal this feeling and help my decisions. If someone had said to me 12 weeks ago that I would be ok, and come to terms with all of this I would not of believed them, but hear I am.