Yeh I definitely don’t feel like I need to be doing everything, maybe I’m just lazy lol, but no I just can’t bare to do it all and stress about whether I’ve done it all right! and especially as most of it probably doesn’t make a difference anyway. I tried that and failed and I can’t do it all again. I’m definitely going to purchase the diet plan, I trust you know what your talking about by now so I would want to be told and just follow it. I want to drop some weight first though and try to live a bit without this all over my head. The thought starting it now just makes my stomach drop. Like I know I’m going to end up disappointed so why rush it. So I certainly get what you say feeling like you were stepping off a plank, leaving it to fate as it were. I’ve done the whole what can I do this time and I felt really determined then, but now I’ve been knocked back a bit with the realisation of I can’t just make everything happen. I wanted to research and ask my questions now so I’m not doing it all later on when I’m thinking of swaying, if that makes sense. Thanks so much for all you do, some of these threads are lovely and like a bit of therapy lol