March 2018 TTC & 2ww thread

[emshe]

Spot on Pbn


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I actually just looked at the temp I wrote down for Wednesday morning, I took it at 3am which read 35.94.
Then at 5 it was 36.23.
The 3am maybe more accurate because sleep would have been longer...
I don’t know clutching at straws, but then temp rise would seem more dramatic!?!


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[Pbn3]

Yes it would seem a big jump but your sustained high temps post o last cycle appear to be around the 36.60 [emoji848] guess we'll have to se ehat the next couple days brings. Hopefully some clarity [emoji12]

DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

[Verena]

I'm so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I can only imagine how terrible it has to be to have a later miscarriage as mine came only some days after AF was due. But I already had real problems with functioning in everyday life. The worst part was that I couldn't hide being sad from my DSs and they didn't know what's going on at all. The only thing that helps me a bit is starting again directly. I'm not an esoteric person at all but I promised that little bean that I will try my best so that it can come back to us eventually.

But I know everyone is different and I can imagine that there can be a point where it's better to stop trying (at least for a while) because everything else would be too self distructing. I'm glad anyway that your appointment is on monday already. Hopefully they find something that can be fixed easily so that they can take you at least a part of the fear of trying again. I would really like to see you here in the tww with us again soon [emoji4][emoji173]️

Hi Verena - I don't know actually, not sure if we will try again or not. I've become very depressed since the D&C last Friday (I wrote that post on here last night stone cold drunk - barely remember posting it). I'm not handling anything well and I don't know if I can take any more loss. I have an appointment with a RE this coming Monday - it wasn't supposed to be until mid-April but they bumped it up due to a cancellation. So I'll go and see what she says - but I'm feeling that this just isn't meant to be. My heart is pretty broken right now.

I hope you are doing well - I know you had disappointment last cycle too and I hope things go better this time. I do really hope everything works out for all of you on here and that you all get your BFPs, healthy babes and desired genders!

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[emshe]

Yes it would seem a big jump but your sustained high temps post o last cycle appear to be around the 36.60 [emoji848] guess we'll have to se ehat the next couple days brings. Hopefully some clarity [emoji12]

DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

We got the 36.60, exactly, how funny!
BD again last night. Have a fabulous weekend ladies





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[Pbn3]

Seen that emshe! Like clockwork [emoji6]

DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

[Girl Dreaming 55]

Look at that rise emshe!! Great time to BD too!
Loving reading all your updates ladies!

[ABC.2606]

Thank you, Pbn, emshe, Verena - I've tried this past week to stay away from this website because I think it will cause me more pain but then I realize you ladies are about the only ones in my life who can actually understand my pain - through your own experiences with loss, gender disappointment, etc. In real life, I feel completely alone - no one close to me has any clue what I'm going through. I've felt a little better the past day and a half but still have a lot of moments during the day where I become horribly sad. I'm dealing with it in some healthy, some unhealthy ways. I really have low expectations for my appointment on Monday. I feel like this is all happening b/c of underlying autoimmune issues I have (which I had before I conceived my two boys - but maybe the issues are worse now, I don't know). Anyways - will try to follow and keep up with this board again. I've watched SO many ladies here on the TWW board go on to conceive their rainbow babies - often the gender they desire as well. It makes me happy, and to some extent gives me hope for my own situation. I think I fear that I will just be the only one forever destined to be on the TWW and never to have a rainbow baby. Yea, I'm throwing myself lots of internal pity parties lately

FX for all of you - emshe, looks like you're now in the TWW.. GL!!!! Verena - You will get that little bean back. Pbn, hearing about your little Mara being born is still one of my happiest moments of my year so far!

[emshe]

Thank you, Pbn, emshe, Verena - I've tried this past week to stay away from this website because I think it will cause me more pain but then I realize you ladies are about the only ones in my life who can actually understand my pain - through your own experiences with loss, gender disappointment, etc. In real life, I feel completely alone - no one close to me has any clue what I'm going through. I've felt a little better the past day and a half but still have a lot of moments during the day where I become horribly sad. I'm dealing with it in some healthy, some unhealthy ways. I really have low expectations for my appointment on Monday. I feel like this is all happening b/c of underlying autoimmune issues I have (which I had before I conceived my two boys - but maybe the issues are worse now, I don't know). Anyways - will try to follow and keep up with this board again. I've watched SO many ladies here on the TWW board go on to conceive their rainbow babies - often the gender they desire as well. It makes me happy, and to some extent gives me hope for my own situation. I think I fear that I will just be the only one forever destined to be on the TWW and never to have a rainbow baby. Yea, I'm throwing myself lots of internal pity parties lately

FX for all of you - emshe, looks like you're now in the TWW.. GL!!!! Verena - You will get that little bean back. Pbn, hearing about your little Mara being born is still one of my happiest moments of my year so far!

Oh ABC, it is the hardest place to be. Vent to us, we are all here for you. The struggle is real, let it out xoxo


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[Pbn3]

Abc I think its that feeling of feeling so alone in the real world that makes it sooo hard. I would have good days and bad days. The bad days slowly got less and less but only after I'd hit rock bottom. I'm so glad my journey has given you hope and I know, with 100% certainty, that your journey can end the same way [emoji173] I do remember feeling very lost in those few weeks immediately after my losses so I say get through each day however you can and do whatever makes you feel better, whether its good for you or not. I know for a fact I did some not so smart things but hey, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? Big hugs and we will always be here for each other xo

DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]

[Pbn3]

Mummy2boys I'm getting in early and I'm gonna say you're pregnant. Just looked at your chart and that thought immediately jumped into my head even though you're only 5dpo [emoji23]

DS 2012 [emoji170] DS 2014 [emoji170]
After 3 losses had DD 2018 [emoji178]