Pink sway graduates - how are you all?!

[Mochagirl]

I think I should qualify that knowing my baby's gender would not have made me love it more or less. Of course I would have loved a baby boy just as much as a girl, and I mourned that lost baby very heavily even though I had a gut feeling the whole pregnancy it was a boy. It's just that for me, perhaps because there was no actual baby when I m/c, finding out the gender wasn't something I needed to do. I mourned the loss of a sibling for my sons, and the loss of all the dreams and hopes for that baby I'd built up over 3 months of pregnancy.

[fresas]

Ladies, thank you so much for sharing such personal stories. I wish you could all feel closure the way you need to. I don't know how to feel yet.

I'm still having light spotting. My next appointment is tomorrow. I will keep you ladies updated. I hope I didn't put a sad mood in this thread. There is a lot to celebrate, but I also appreciate you ladies being so candid and honest. <3

[atomic sagebrush]

Ack I'm sorry Mocha, if my words came out wrong...in my case I was more feeling like if it WAS a boy, I wanted it to know that I still wanted and loved him as much as I could ever love a girl and that I was not happy to have lost him - since I had actually been happy to get what I thought was AF but was actually my loss. It made me really sad to think that there was this baby in heaven looking down and thinking I was glad about it. That was why the gender was important to me personally and all of us have our own different takes on that, no right or wrong at all and I am sorry if my words were at all insensitive to you in any way..

[Mochagirl]

Not in the least, atomic . I just realised my words might be interpreted the wrong way and wanted to clarify. Everyone mourns in their own way, and for me not knowing the gender wasn't an issue.

fresas - good luck at your appointment tomorrow, and if the news isn't good know we're all here to support you.

[zanacal]

I'll think of you tomorrow fresas x

Good luck for Wednesday Mocha - are you excited, nervous, all of the above?! I can't wait to see that perfect little baby you're growing!

[Mochagirl]

Good luck for Wednesday Mocha - are you excited, nervous, all of the above?! I can't wait to see that perfect little baby you're growing!

All of the above. I'm excited to see my baby, and nervous both about bad NT results, and also (but less importantly) that I'm going to see a big, boy nub sticking straight in the air!

[zanacal]

I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you, good luck!

[atomic sagebrush]

Me too!

[mandicane]

Hey Ladies. Its been a while since i've posted but i've been trying to get on here every now and then when I have a moment. I'm 16 weeks now and can feel the baby move which is nice. I go for my gender scan at the end of the month and I'm so nervous about it! Almost everyone I know thinks I'm having a little girl but i'm still not so sure. This pregnancy has been slightly different from my last with first trimester spotting, constant headaches, sore boobs, lack of appitate, lack of real weight gain, crazy-ass fatigue, and irritability! I fully aware that these are typical pregnancy symptoms regardless of gender so I try not to get my hopes up. My guts tells me its a girl but its hard to trust that feeling because I want a girl so badly.

Over the past few weeks I've really come to terms with the strong possibility that this baby could be a boy and I'm ok with it. I love my little guys so much that another little boy would be a blessing as well. Its funny, cause I feel like I'm going to let everyone down if its not a girl YKWIM?

Its going to be busy here for the new few months as we are selling our home, buying a new one (with plans to move in the summer before the baby comes) and I'm the maid of honour in my best friends wedding! So much going on its stressful but exciting at the same time.

So glad to hear that things are going well with everyone

fresas- hope things work out for you. Will be thinking of you!

Mocha- good luck with your scan here's hoping for a big fat low-angled nub!

Zan- Take care of yourself and don't work if you're not feeling up to it!

[fresas]

mandicane - good luck with the gender scan in a few weeks! So exciting!

mocha - I hope you have a good appointment!

My hCG at 4 weeks 2 days was 800, which the doctor said was within normal ranges, kind of low, but normal. She said we won't know if the pregnancy is viable until the next few blood tests to see if the numbers are doubling. If they double, the pregnancy may still be viable, but I'm not out of the clear yet. If the numbers aren't doubling, then it is indicative of non-viable pregnancy.

My next appointment is Wednesday. I will be officially 5 weeks then. I have another ultrasound then, too.