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[PrimalMamma]

Thanks kidandcat I shouldn't feel so sorry for myself. My SIL & BIL are dealing with their 2nd miscarriage in 3 cycles (no babies yet) after trying for nearly a year. So I feel guilty for being all "oh I want my 3rd healthy baby AND I want a particular gender..." I feel like a spoilt brat.


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[SamS_TTCPink]

Yes PrimalMamma! I feel like I just can't have girls and all this will be for nothing! I feel like my m/c was my girl and I've got chance of ever having a DD.

It makes it hard to keep motivated to keep up with LE and I haven't exercised. 😞

[Marika]

Primalmamma - I think most of us have moments when we feel sorry for ourselves and when it feels like all this swaying is probably for nothing. I truly have moments like that and i must say I generally feel lower now than I usually did. My dh often ask me what's on my mind, he says I have become so "closed" and more quiet. Don't know if it's the diet that affects me or if it's the ttc and longing to be pregnant again. My friends and family ask me every now and then if anything has happened and it's so painful to have to tell them "no, but we are not stressing" with a smile. I don't know why but I fell I don't want them to know how emotionally hard this is. They all know we wanted to try again as soon as possible after the loss, so they are asking for a good reason but it is stressing to know that people are "waiting".

But I also have to add that while it feels hopeless at times, it is so motivating to read all the success stories here. It gives me some hope reading in that section of the forum :-)

[stephk]

girliedreamz - thats often the best sway, the one you dont know about yourself hopefully you will feel more relaxed not trying to look at lines every day

primalmamma - yes I think everyone has these moments. Totally know what you mean and you do see people worse off and think how can I be so selfish. And we are doing all of this stuff and it could be for nothing but that is the nature of swaying, an opposite is always possible. But then you have to think is another gorgeous boy such a bad thing? All we can do is our best and leave the rest to god. Just think if you did have a boy what a fantastic life god has planned for him because you prayed for a DD but god had other plans.

Marika - pretty much in the same boat, stupidly told friends when we would be trying because we constantly had questions, are you going to have another so for some close friends I said yes we will start trying in January - so now that its nearly june and some people are trying to be discrete about it but they are still asking - but then I give a blow by blow account of my cycles, hormones and blood tests which must be quite boring for them to hear but they asked!! haha... privately though I am like you, it is depressing not to be PG. Wish I could be more like a guy sometimes as they seem a lot more relaxed about it but they dont have to go through what we go through with our bodies.

kidandcatmommy - is there something else you can take for the headache that wont have the drying effect? Glad you enjoyed the meat, wow that is a long time not eating any meat at all, my DH wouldnt let me get away with that!!

[SamS_TTCPink]

OMG! It's midnight but just took a opk and it's so close to positive if not positive!!?! We're so not DTD tonight but looks like tomorrow will be attempt day! Wasn't expecting it til the weekend or next Monday so glad i started testing early. 😀

[stephk]

I also tested today even though its only CD11 and it was a negative line but if I follow the same pattern as last time, it may well turn positive within a week

mumofsix good luck for your attempt

[Marika]

Good luck with your attempt Mumofsix!!

steph, hope your opk lines will turn stronger within a few days!

[Marika]

steph - I notice that friends keep an eye on my glass when we are having dinner together. You know "is that wine or is she pregnant yet??".

So I try to just grab a bottle of wine at once and then no one needs to ask or wonder.

I am now 4 dpo and time is going so awfully slowly. It's torture. Can't believe how 4 days can feel like 4 weeks! Just wanna fast forward a week and have a test (even if I promised myself not to start too early this cycle).

[stephk]

Lol me too I just immediately pour myself an alcoholic drink so that I am not watched!!

Hope time passes quickly and a BFP for you

[Kidandcatmommy]

Stephk I can take ibuprofen at least until I attempt. I've decided now that I'll probably take the Zyrtec through my period then stop until after we attempt. All the BFN's so far this month have frustrated me enough I'll just deal with the headaches.

I also know what you guys mean about the wine glasses. My husbands family watches mine and it's hard during the TWW trying to act as if I just don't want alcohol!

I'm soooooo tempted to also add in attempts next month like a bunch of attempts! Trying to fight the temptation.