I just want to cry!!!

[atomic sagebrush]

feetje, my husband would NEVER have gone along with me not having big O. He takes it personally. I had it when I got my DD. Please don't worry, it will be ok.

I think you have had a very good sway and I think all is well. I can promise I was mad at my DH just about all the time when I got my DD.

[atomic sagebrush]

Hi Maidenmother! So painfull to get negative responses to the Genderdreaming! Especially from your brother and best friend! I hesitated to tell another friend, but am glad I decided not to, because already my sister and best friend, although they understand to some extent, think I'm crazy for doing al those swaying tactics. And I need to defense myself all the time for continuing the diet and the exercising. I understand they are worried for me getting to thin, but they know me al long time and know I'm not the person for a eating disorder. This is just something I would want to do for a couple of months for the higher purpose..
I didn't read your post like you were thinking I had OCD, no worries about that! But it make me laugh, because I felt myself that I do have OCD tendencies, recognize certain elements for sure! Made me think about a article Atomic wrote about the personalities of boy moms... That was confronting! LOL

Others just don't understand unless they have experienced this, and the funny thing is, I wouldn't want to wish it on my worst enemy. I hope people do understand someday. I promise that many people who were very uptight did indeed get girls on diet and exercise - you can do this!

[feetje]

Hi Atomic, thank you soooo much for your response and your support again!! It means the world to me!!
You're awesome by giving so many women your support! The whole swaying with al the difficult times and uncertainties becomes sometimes so hard and then especially it's so helpful and supporting that you help us with al your great knowledge and also the sweet warming, supporting words!

I think you're right and may not even have ovulated when I continued the restrictive way of swaying, because I lost so much weight and bmi was getting too low. So now I have peace with my sway as it is.

In mean while I had my raise of temperature, so now wait!! I got cramps starting last Friday until now, the way I feel when I get my menstruation, also feeling a bit sickly. But every time I look when I feel some wetness, still no spotting or blood. I remembered when I got pregnant with my two boys, I also had these cramps like my menstruation was about to start, so could be! Now I'm just enjoying this time of not knowing in the ww by daydreaming if it might be. But feeling more relaxed in a way!

Thanks again!!

[atomic sagebrush]

Good Luck Feetje! Please let me know if I can continue to help!!

Many of us have had cramping and wetness in our uterus in early pregancy. Good luck and pink dust.

[feetje]

Thanks you so much Atomic!!
My temp went down for two days and now up again... Strange, I think up to next month, but we'll see
:hug:

[atomic sagebrush]

Hmm....I actually think that is promising. Temp drops when estrogen is released and that is normal to have a couple days' temp dip. Now we want it to go up and up.

[feetje]

I hope so!!!!!!!!! Ooooh this waiting is killing me