Overabundant October 2WW

[ME MOM]

Xx I admire your patience and hope o was late and your test is a good one soon.

Robin lve never had a bfp before cd15, lm still very very hopeful for you!

Dreamsister let us know what they say on Friday! What a roller coaster. Hugs


I'm cd22 10dpo, af is due tomorrow but l won't test till Friday unless af shows. My hpt isn't that sensitive and it says to test only after af is late. They are expensive and l only have two at the moment. I'm definitely ordering better ones online if af shows..

I woke this morning and saw temps have gone done, though not below my coverline but a steep decline. I was surprised but how sad l was of that though l haven't had lots of symptoms this tww. I usually spot at this time, 2 days before, but small things have made me a wee bit hopeful in the past 24 hours .. my coffee this afternoon was yucky (and l love coffee!), had dh taste because it tasted spoiled and metallic to me.. I had to lie down because I'm tired, not the first weeks' of pregnancy dead rock tired just regular tired.. And l drooled which I've never had (not on pregnancies either like a previous person wrote here), only of l'm congested which l'm not.
But there was that temp decline this morning and l'm more a realist this month. I've made myself 110% sure last month that a bfp was coming, was sure that my regular af spotting was implantation and then af came and it hit me hard..
I'm waiting patiently to see if af shows, trying to keep busy..
Fx for everyone here and know l pray daily for you all!


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[momamia4]

Robin, yes each pregnancy is different with testing. With my boys, I didn't get a positive pregnancy test until I was at least 4 days to 2 weeks after af was due. With my miscarriage last year, I had a bfp 6dpo and with my miscarriage this year, I didn't get a bfp until 13dpo (despite testing daily!!). You're not out until af shows up and even then it's questionable (as we've seen with a few ladies now).

FX for you Dreamsister!! I know exactly the limbo you are in right now. It's frustrating because you want it to either end or know without a doubt that everything will be perfect. I hope your scan goes perfectly!

FX for you Me Mom!! I'm so excited to see more bfps!!

I didn't have as big of a temp increase as I would have liked to have seen this morning. I'm a little disappointed about it. I'm hoping to see a bigger increase tomorrow as I'm supposed to start progesterone then but I'm concerned that O got delayed somehow. I don't want to start the progesterone without knowing that I did actually already ovulate. I'm very conflicted! So much for not worrying this cycle.

[ME MOM]

Momamia4 maybe there is blood work that can be done to let you know for sure?
Each cycle ttc has a life of its own, ups and downs and roller coasters.. Charting will all its pluses makes us feel we have all the cards open to us but it's not ever 100% like that and some factors are never on our hands.
Sending all those in the wait patience and perseverance, you women are amazing! Fx!

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[ME MOM]

I meant in our hands, sorry for my English.

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[Serenity]

So sorry to hear that things are up in the air for you, Dreamsister. I hope that everything is fine, or that at least you will get some clarity soon. I completely understand and can relate to wanting to give up on TTC, especially after problems.

I'm dropping my sway diet for now, and slowly returning to my normal healthy way of eating. I know I'm pregnant because of how I feel...I've been pregnant 5 times before, I've always known it right away, and I've never been wrong yet. I can feel implantation every time, too, and it's been happening over the last couple of days. I wish I didn't know, because of course I will experience it as another loss if AF comes in a few days, even if I don't test early. I just can't seem to fool myself about it, though. I'm praying that this little one is healthy and strong. I don't know when to test. I guess I'll still hold out for as long as I can - at least then I won't know for sure.

If I lose this one too, I'm not sure I'll continue swaying anyways, for the sake of my mental health. I don't need any more losses, and I have the sense that this might be how my body reacts to swaying: I briefly conceive boys and then lose them, because my body thinks that there won't be enough food for them. If I was a person with a normal level of sensitivity, this would probably be fine, because I'd never even know without testing early and then eventually I'd get a girl, but I am extremely sensitive in every way, so I know the little one is there nearly as soon as they are, and then I have to say goodbye soon after (the sensitivity makes pregnancy loads of fun, too...the only advantage is that I can feel the baby moving much earlier than is supposed to be possible).

The sway diet, in addition to the loss, has had a very negative impact on my mental health. I could relate to Pbn's post today...I haven't experienced suicidal thoughts recently, but I've been quite depressed and anxious since I started swaying. I was fine with it in the short term, but it's been months now, and it's not fair to my kids. I need to get back to working hard on my business, and back to being an awesome, connected mom.

If I lose this one, I might give it one more cycle of swaying, or I might not. I definitely don't have it in me to continue this process for much longer, though.

[momamia4]

I'm sorry you're going through this Serenity. I'm also very sensitive the same way you are. This is all very draining. My family (sisters and mom) don't understand why I keep delaying everything while I'm ttc. It's because I can't imagine attempting to do anything while dealing with this. It's such an emotional roller coaster that I know I wouldn't be able to cope. I've given up swaying. I'm really looking forward to taking next cycle off. I'm not sure if I'll continue ttc after that. After 18 cycles ttc and 2 miscarriages, I just don't think I have it in me to keep going. I hope everything works out for you and you have a healthy sticky bean in there. [emoji5] [emoji173]

[Serenity]

I'm so sorry that you feel similarly, momamia. Draining is exactly the right word for all of this.

Thanks for the good wishes. I hope you get your own sticky little one very soon.

[ME MOM]

Serenity l admire your body awareness and sensitivity and am truly sorry for your losses. I think that you are listening to your body and think your decision will do you good.

If you don't mind my asking, what does implantation feel like and is it very different than pms cramps? How do you tell them apart?
Thank you!

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[Serenity]

Implantation feels exactly like what it is: like something very small is slowly burrowing into me. I feel it as a digging + small sharp pain/pinching sensation, sometimes accompanied by bigger cramps, sometimes not. Sometimes it feels like a very small spider is spinning a web in there - I always think that that part is probably the placenta starting to form.

[momamia4]

I agree with Serenity. That's exactly how I've always experienced it.