Uk SMOG Wannabes ~ February

[Wishing4Pink]

Maybepink3, just noticed you had your 12 wk scan at the Rosie, where abouts are you?
x

[HappyLea]

How frustrating for you happylea! Will you keep testing?

Dont think im gonna test anymore deaks, i was getting obsessed testing and when i thought i saw line got my hopes up and then dashed straight away.
My cycles are not a set # of days anywhere between 29 and 34 so if not had visit from witch by CD34 then i will test again.

How about you deaks you holding off with the testing? Its so hard not too test. GL xxx

[maybepink3]

Thanks for all your kind words everyone. Thought I was ok but spent a lot of the evening in tears. Guess it had to come out sometime. Just doubting everything and I know it was 'swaying' and not guaranteed but I felt I had such a good sway, just feeling very cheated. This is the 3rd time I feel knocked and wondering whether I should have tried in the first place but then feel awful for thinking that as I have life growing inside me who I know I'll love. We weren't going to tell anyone the gender but I feel I had to. Couldn't cope with anyone saying ooh bet it's a girl. DH told his work colleagues who all said 'oh I thought she wanted a girl' (they don't know I swayed). Er thanks, really helpful.... Sorry everyone, think I needed to vent x

[charlieispy]

Hun this is EXACTLY how i was with ds 3 had scan brought blue that evening i broke down... you will grieve hun let it out cry wail its ok...i too thought i shouldn't have tried again. it took a while to see through the clouds i also told people as i couldn't handle the comments. but it will get better i promise you that you will love him he will melt your heart and fill your days with joy x i think i am. closer to my ds 3 in a way due to my gd x much much love huge hugs hope dh is being supportive x

[charlieispy]

Pinga hope your scan went well

[Inglewood]

Pinga, off to bed but hope ur scan went well? x

[pinga]

Hi had my scan this morning. Bubs is happy and healthy in there and we are expecting boy #3. Was OK for the scan but then she said I had to go and walk around for a bit and come back as bubs wouldn't turn around. DH then said he had to leave as he needed to get back to his class... and I lost it. Felt so guilty as I'm sure people thought there was something really wrong.
So I looked a mess and almost lost it in front of the sonographer. She thought it was because DH had to leave, which made it easier.

Ended up going shopping (luckily the boys are at childcare today) and wandered around wavering between tearing up and feeling ok. It was good to be busy and I even went and bought him a little newborn onesie. I also had a big piece of cake!!

We've always said we weren't going to tell. I just don't want any pity. I just need some time to deal with my sadness. I'm overjoyed at having a healthy little boy... I just can't help that longing. He is very cute and I got a couple of 3D piccies.

Hey maybepink. Congrats on your little boy... Looks like we're going to be having boys at the same time!!

[pinga]

Here is bub and outfit... (sorry bub is a bit big!!!). He kept pointing his fingers during the scan!

small baby 3.jpg
small bonds.jpg

[charlieispy]

pinga - just came on to check up on you x CONGRATS for your healthy baby boy and HUGE hugs for not hearing pink x Am so sorry you didnt get your wish, maybepink too - you know we are all here to listen to you and support you through this - we all understand your desires and longing x much love hun and oh my how cute is he?!!! Lovely sleepysuit

[Kell]

Oh Pinga and maybe, I sorry for your sadness, but happy your boys are happy and healthy! I imagin the next few weeks will be difficult but like Charlie said we are all here for you as much as we can be! Hugs to you both xx

Deaks and anyone due to test soon, good luck girls! Got everything crossed for sticky pink bfp's

Afm- nothing lol! Got to get off to college, will try and post later! Have a great day guys!