If you need me, I'll be under my rock

[Mochagirl]

So sorry, Tinks.

[lisvna]

Tinks im so sorry to hear this.....big hugs!

[Hobbermittens]

SO sorry tinks.

[girlmom]

AWW im so sorry tink. prayers are with you and your family. we only lost one of our twins i cannot imagine the pain of lossing two at once. one was bad enough. hugs, you are a strong lady.

[fresas]

My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry.

I don't know if you are one that needs to know why to gain closure, but I am. If you feel strong enough to request this because you believe knowing why will help, then please ask or if you have someone with you, you might ask them to ask.

I am so, so sorry.

[Princess of Pink]

I'm so sorry tinks!

[familiesr4ever]

Oh, Tinks, I am heartbroken for you and your family. Hugs to you and your family.

[atomic sagebrush]

Hope you are doing as well as possible.

[tinksmagic]

Hi Ladies!
First thank you for all of your support and kind words. I'm still in limbo at this point. Over the weekend I lost what I am pretty sure was the bleed I had. As for the rest of the impending miscarriage ~ nothing. I go again to my ob for yet another ultrasound tomorrow. I hate that I cannot get closure at this point and I really want to get started on my recovery and next cycle. Short of divine intervention, nothing has changed in weeks.

I'm still going with Mass General, though I am calling around. Rhode Island's Women and Infants has a great rep too, but don't know if they do PGD. I really just want to get to the bottom of it all. I am also researching everything to possibly increase my egg quality. Seems hopeful from what other women post as their experiences while on supplements.

As for me, I've been living in a world of 70 degree weather, birds chirping, kids out playing and just when all seems right in the world, I get the "oh yeah, I'm just waiting to lose my twin boys" and reality hits me so hard again all I can do is cry. It totally sucks I will continue to post here, everyone has been great, but maybe not so often; I'm still in denial and trying not to let depression sneak in. Of course yesterday, while walking in to CVS I walk in right behind a very happy grandma toting her two newborn baby twin grandsons. That one hurt ~ a lot!

I hope everyone is doing well themselves, and please keep in touch!!! I hope to post better progress along the way for this next journey if I can ever get it started.

[fresas]

That does hurt. I'm so sorry. I'm crying for you. I hope you get the closure and clear answers you need. I also hope you can find somewhere comfortable for you to cycle again when you are ready.