Uk SMOG Wannabes ~ January

[deaks66]

I had more spotting well actually it was tinged pink cm yesterday when I wiped and and when I went to the loo again it was clear cm so thought I was imagining things. Then it was a browny/grey CM, then back to pink and now clear this a.m but felt wet this a.m so thought I started bleeding again but just CM sorry TMI. This is the oddest cycle i've ever had!

You really are having a strange cycle! I hope that once you have this months af it all sorts itself out.

[Babymad]

Thanks girls xxx
Not doing too good at the minute...day at a time I suppose.
I really appreciate everyone's support, couldn't get by without it xxx

[Kell]

Babymad I'm sorry your feeling low, congratulations on your healthy little man, I wish there were something w could do to make it better, I guess times a healer as with any kind of grief. Hugs xxx

Pinga, sorry you lost your mum, Hope your ok today! x

Lavender when's af due? What an odd cycle, hope your spotting/bleeding has gone now!

[chocolate]

Ahh Babymad, sorry you didnt hear girl, take some time to feel disappointed without feeling guilty about it, thats fine to do!!
I think that families of all boys tend to get a bit of a better mother son bond because the boys dont have that 'mother/daughter' bond to compete with. They probably also have such a great bond with their brothers that this kind of sets them up to be a bit more open to continuing that bond with them and also their parents.

Hope that makes sense, If I end up with 4 boys I will be so sad to accept I won't have a girl, but I can see myself having family dinners with all 4 boys and just loving being the only female there and think we would all feel a bit closer to each other than if we had a girl there too. Its hard when we can't have one of the most important dreams in our lives, but am sure you will conquer it soon and will enjoy the benefits of having lots of boys, going to be some special close bonds in that household! I would have loved loved loved to have been 1 of the 4 of the same gender, how amazing!

[Sunset]

Babymad, congratulations on your precious baby boy!!! i'm so sorry to hear you're feeling down at the minute.. i don't really know what to say to make it any better other than don't be too hard on yourself! give yourself plenty of time to grieve your daughter and in time i'm sure you will start to look forward to meeting your beautiful baby boy! we are all here for you and we all support you!! sending you a big virtual hug!!!!

[Sunset]

Pinga ~ big hugs!!!! i hope today is full of beautiful memories!

[Lavenderlime]

Kell AF is Due on Wednesday CD 27 so in 5 days.

Deaks I know right?! Me too!

Charlie when I googled it (I know it shouldn't but I can't help it sounded like implantion spotting because of the tinged CM with the days PO) But I didn't make an attempt this month but suppose there is of course a teeny tiny chance I could be pregnant. But we only DD twice this month. Because at the start of the month DP pissed me off about my birthday so wasn't even talking to him, then we made up and then I started bleeding. Whe it stopped I got this awful cold. Both times it was with the withdrawel method and I used rephresh literally just before so highly doubt anything got through that combo!

I'll have to wait and see what happens on Wednesday really I guess. Just think my body is playing trick on me because I started TTC last month. So my hormones have gone doolally or something???! lol

[indigoviolet]

oh gosh Babymad....I'm just stunned for you, can imagine how you are feeling. ((((hugs)))) we are here for you. I like the fact that we went through it with petal and now she is so positive and is honestly happy. thank goodness we have eachother. You will get through this (although you don't want to and I wish we could make it different for you). Oh hun, loads of love and will keep you in my prayers.

[deaks66]

Babymad, been thinking of you all afternoon. Was wandering if you felt you could tell dh as perhaps it would help to talk to someone. Might help the floodgates to properly open and that might help with the process of greiving for a dd. I know it did for me when i went through the same with ds2. lots of love X

Lavender...ooo yes i didnt realise you attempted at all, so it could well be implantation!!! Exciting!

[zanacal]

Oh Babymad, massive {hugs}. I agree that it was really brave of you to have the scan and I'm sorry for all the heartache you're going through right now. You have the most beautiful boys (as if you need telling ) and I know your new little man will be just as sweet but it's perfectly ok (and understandable, we all know that) to grieve for now and to take as much time as you need to feel excited about his arrival. Thinking of you x