Marvelous March 2WW

[Shannshaff]

My tests for the past few days.
3-6-17 14dpo.jpg

Yes, I will get repeat betas because I am walking in and having it drawn. The Dr didn't want them. UGH

[Pbn3]

Yep there's progression there shannshaff! Cant wait for you to have some answers!

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[Pbn3]

Cant believe doc didn't order them???? That's the first thing on the list with bleeding after pos pregnancy test.

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[kc15880]

It feels s strange to be writing this but even though I finally got my BFP I'm just not excited like I was the past 3 times. I am happy & relieved to be off the LE diet but I dont have that excitement of my little secret growing inside of me. I think it is because of the miscarriage last year & I am just worried that it might happen again. Hubby is so terrified of another miscarriage that he wont even tell his parents that I am pregnant again. I know many of you have been in this position. I feel that last years experiences is going to rob me of enjoying this last pregnancy. Any tips or hints?

[Pbn3]

Kc personally I feel its completely normal to feel somewhat disconnected. Its a natural emotional defense mechanism I think. That first miscarriage is crushing and takes all the innocence and blissful ignorance away from any future pregnancies. Instead of feeling elated and excited you are worried and nervous. Whether you choose to get bw in these early days for peace of mind is up to you however even that is no guarantee All I can suggest is try and put things put of your mind until your dating scan but then I've lost 3 pregnancies this past year so my thinking may not suit lol - I want to stay ignorant again if you get what I mean? How do you feel? Do you feel you need some reassurance through bw?

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[kc15880]

My gp will order bloods next week & ask if I want a early scan which I will do this time (I didnt last time but did with my other 2). I just feel so robbed of that early exitement. I just loved that feeling so excited you were going to burst. I feel so bad for this baby that Im just not feeling the joy that I should be. I totally understand that it is self protective but it is all so out of my control I dont know why I am worrying! Both of my boys in the past 24hrs have asked for another baby again. They are always asking & I just want to be able to tell them but we dont want to tell them anything until we cant hide it anymore. We want to protect them too in case anything happens. That was the one thing that I was so glad about last time is that we didnt tell them anything.

[MiaMelb]

So I did another test earlier with smu and urine looked more concentrate and still looked stark though felt like something was trying to catch my eye. A few minutes ago I pulled them apart and took pics immediately but the strips still looked stark to me. Just found this on my photos. No idea if its fmu or smu test. Does anyone see anything?

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I definitely saw something when I first glanced the pic and then not so sure as I look at it longer. Fx.

[MiaMelb]

Nurseandi, miamelb, I feel the same way. I really wanted a third but after getting my hopes up and a BFN last cycle, I feel discouraged and keep second-guessing myself. Life feels so hectic with two, and my DH just took a more demanding job (he used to be the more flexible parent who handled more of the childcare than me). I don't want a Christmas baby either, so I've just given up the diet completely now that I'm in the 2WW.

I would do it in a heartbeat if I could guarantee to have my DG but since there are no guarantees (and I'm convinced we will always have girls) it makes it more complex. I almost talked myself into having a third the other day just so that they'd have another sibling to be there for eachother when they're older. Not sure if I truely believe that logic or not though, just trying to find a reason other than just wanting a boy I guess. I'm also lucky enough to not have had a mc to date which I can only imagine makes the journey and decision making that much harder.

[MiaMelb]

Wow Shannshaff what a few days your had, rollercoaster definately. Hugs. Can't imagine doing that u/s with an audience like that. My fingers are crossed that all is ok cause I definitely see the progression in your tests from the last few days.

[fiveboys]

Whos next to test ladies? Il be testing friday. So nervous..