August Thread for TTC Blue - Chit Chat!

[iluvmyman]

Begonia, thanks for the optimism! I sure hope you are right and this is my month. I am SICKKKKKKK of ttc and super sick of this diet and I honestly don't have much more in me.....maybe I can just start ttc with no swaying, but I am just SO OVER being 35lbs heavier than normal and having no clothes that fit and ya know, stuffing my tomato-hole all damn day long. Anywhooooo....rant over. Thank you for your support!

Iluv, I hear you about the unexcited parents.....mine are kinda like that also. I guess they are tired of hearing me announce I'm pg and then lose it. The thrill is wearing off. My sister is ttc right now also, and she told me to not tell them that she is, and that she won't even tell them she's pg until after 20 weeks if she does get pg! I guess she's seen too many losses and doesn't even feel like invoking the parental pity at this point. Anyway, all that matters is that YOU and the fam are excited....I know it's nice to have others care, but in reality, sometimes they just don't. Man, I wish you could get that carrier back, that sucks! I'm sure you've thought of this, but can you call the police dept and make a request? At least to get the thing examined and photographed or whatever before you have this new baby? I hope you are doing ok, thinking about ya.

I hear you about the weight and the diet. I was so good at the beginning but when it drags on for months and months it's much harder to keep up. I think my uterus is finally catching up to my fat. I can't wait for my tummy to be all baby.

I had a talk w/ my Dad and he said he's just scared now since my son died. He's scared for my sister due end of October too. I feel much better after talking to him about it and I understand his concerns. Like your family, Lola, it's hard to be overjoyed when you know how fragile it all is. It's a hard balance for all involved I think. My friends mom (who rocks) cried. I can always count on her to have the best reaction.

I was scared to ask the cops for my hammock back just as not to stir everything up but we got paperwork from the medical review board yesterday asking us to submit to handing over all of our medical paperwork. Our doula will be getting a lawyer and I don't expect to make this easy for the review board and will follow the lawyers advice. I might ask for my hammock back since it wasn't part of the C.O.D. but I doubt they'll ever give it back. I just told her I was pregnant too. She was very happy for us but I feel weird like we get to move on and her crap is just beginning. Not really moving moving on, but you know what I mean.

I'm so praying for your BFP Lola and that this pregnancy is wonderful and you go to term!!

[LolaInLove]

Thanks, WP....I am feeling just pissy and crappy today, so I hope that is a good thing, although it does suck. Don't worry too much about your temps. If you notice on FF, preggo charts don't always have a steep climb to the top and stay there. The majority have dips in the 2ww. Oh, so hoping we get lucky this month!

[iluvmyman]

Ouch WP, that's a pretty harsh comment from mom's. Money is a hard one, we don't have any either but should that really make the difference for not creating life. Although, if you are on food stamps and such you should consider if you can provide the basics, it's hard one. MY DH could use a raise too. That's the sacrifice of 1 income though.

Oh Flava! SO Sorry Girly! I remember w/ my cycle messed up it was a little like Of coarse, I'm starting my M. Cycle when I s/b ovulating. FX for you!

B3blue, is the protein deficiency fixable?

[LolaInLove]

THANKS, Iluv, your prayers mean a lot to me! You know you have mine as well. Well POOP about the carrier, that does stink. Do you feel like your doula was at fault at all? It must be hard for her, too, but you know, hopefully justice will prevail. Everyone makes mistakes, just that some are really really important ones to not make, and not make again. I can't recall if you thought there was medical malpractice of any sort, though. How are you feeling?

[iluvmyman]

Lola, the sicky is encouraging. I started w/ feeling like I was starting a cold in the back of my throat. Just like the 1st beginnings of a cold. I hope I hope I hope!!!!

[LolaInLove]

Iluv, I forgot to comment of your dad's remarks about his fears- I think that is totally normal and very sweet for him to admit that to you....I think mine are a bit in the same boat, they don't want to get too excited until there is a bona fide baby in there. Heck, my FIL told my DH to not tell his mom (mil) until all is well next time because she gets too upset about my m/c. I was like SHE gets too upset????? Anyway, this would be their first grandkid, so they are in the crazy happy giddy phase about it. Like, she'll probably throw me a shower, LOL. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I think it's sweet when parents still get worried and care about their adult kids like that, kinda makes you feel like you are their baby girl still, in a way. I certainly hope that both you and your sis have bouncing bundles to quell their fears!

[iluvmyman]

THANKS, Iluv, your prayers mean a lot to me! You know you have mine as well. Well POOP about the carrier, that does stink. Do you feel like your doula was at fault at all? It must be hard for her, too, but you know, hopefully justice will prevail. Everyone makes mistakes, just that some are really really important ones to not make, and not make again. I can't recall if you thought there was medical malpractice of any sort, though. How are you feeling?

The autopsy is so sketchy like probables but no definite answers from what I can tell. Like we know what he ultimately died from but why? when? how did it occur is the ? No, I don't blame the doula. The truth is that God could have saved him and he didn't for whatever his divine purpose is and I will probably never know. And it's just a crappy world and it happens. I think it's how you deal w/ it and what you do w/ the pain and how you use it to honor God that matters now.

I just hope that our story can be used to help someone in some way. I don't blame anyone really, most the time. More myself I guess then anyone. Right or wrong I'm the mom and it just is. There are things we may s/h caught, but he just could have been severely brain damaged instead if we did catch it. Probably will never know. She can lose her license though & it would really be up to the D.A., medical board and lawyers to hash out the probable, the blame and the outcome. I really don't know but don't see her getting away w/o revoking her license, which just sucks!!! Dr.'s get sued for the final C.O.D all the time but they fight it, so I would think it would set some sort of precedence but I'm not sure.

The carrier stinks cuz of the cost. The company hasn't responded either but it's an open ticket so they need to at some time.

I'm doing OK, just tired, on/off nauseous, and mood swings. I can do OK till about 3p.m. then I end up in bed. Somedays I start and end super tired though. I literally woke up w/ a random headache on one side of my brain and woke up w/ it again this morning but seems to be getting better at the moment. DH is gone for Thurs. morning - Monday night so I'd better figure out a way to make it work. Just is hard being so tired when there's so much to do. I just need to make it for another 2 - 4 weeks then I'll be dandy. The house is soooo bad right now.

[iluvmyman]

Iluv, I forgot to comment of your dad's remarks about his fears- I think that is totally normal and very sweet for him to admit that to you....I think mine are a bit in the same boat, they don't want to get too excited until there is a bona fide baby in there. Heck, my FIL told my DH to not tell his mom (mil) until all is well next time because she gets too upset about my m/c. I was like SHE gets too upset????? Anyway, this would be their first grandkid, so they are in the crazy happy giddy phase about it. Like, she'll probably throw me a shower, LOL. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I think it's sweet when parents still get worried and care about their adult kids like that, kinda makes you feel like you are their baby girl still, in a way. I certainly hope that both you and your sis have bouncing bundles to quell their fears!

That would be my MIL too. She is wonderful but...it's not about you! Well, 1st grandkid too, that's a hard 1 for them. I wish my sister was having hers sooner just to make ME feel better. I'm like a MIL too I guess. I'm glad I talked to my Dad. Quite frankly, and I told him this, since we live w/ them they are the only people that I will give any allowance too, but even then they are treading on thin ice. I gave him my nice little speech anyway.

That just leaves my "judgmental friend", my friend/employer, my brother who's been trying for years to have a baby and miscellaneous people. Saving the best for last.

[begonia]

Iluv for all you have going on. Glad your Dad opened up to you though.

Lola that's sweet that MIL is going to be super excited Too cute about her throwing a shower ... but really, it's her first grandbaby so totally understand why she will want the full experience! Hopefully she isn't overbearing about it all.

[iluvmyman]

My friends always throw me a shower and vise versa no matter how many kids we have. How does everyone else feel about that? They are definitely not the huge 1st baby showers but w/ your close friends and family. I'm not sure how I feel about it this time. Everything they get helps and I do need more cloth diapers but we didn't get to use anything from our last baby, then getting more? I had saved all of my cleaning money for months to buy stuff for this baby but had to spend it on bills. Yuck!