Dreaming Pink Due Date Group: TTC and Beyond

[I Love Ladybugs]

Sorry I've been m.i.a lately... I've been having a super hard time with gd, and being on here makes it worse I think. I know I have no right to even have an ounce of sadness, but my rational mind just can't quite grasp that right now. I know I will love this little man, and I will be so happy when he's born, but right now I'm still mourning the loss of my 3 child dream... my dream of 2 boys and a girl. That was always my dream family... and I almost had it and it was taken from me. Now I have to rethink my idea of "perfect"...

I was doing okay at first, but obviously reality hadn't set in or something. I have moments where I'm totally fine and happy, and then 10 mins later I'm crying. I think this makes me sound totally looney haha

Clearly I need a reality check or something...

I think that you are thinking rationally......you have been through so much pain in your ttc journey and I from my heart wish that you would have heard pink and had the family that is in your head and heart. We are here for you to vent, hug and love on you and your boys!

I am in this state in which my head tells me boy for me and my heart tells me girl....the next 3 weeks are going to drag on!

[GeCon]

3boys, I am really hoping you will get some reassuring news very soon. Crossing everything for you.

Charlee, I am sorry you are having a difficult time with GD. We are always here for you to let off steam, but of course I understand that being on here is not easy and can in fact make you feel worse. How did you get on with the InheriGen test you mentioned some time ago?

Ladybugs, good luck at your appointment today. Hope you get to enjoy your LO's heartbeat.

[Mathilde]

Charlee: we are all here for you, and many are going to follow down that exact path in a couple of weeks statistically. Possibly then it will be easier for you here on the forum as we then won't any longer be a bunch of dreamers, but "knowers". God knows its going to be rough... Hugs
Mathilde

[Charlee]

Thanks so much guys... Ladybug you always know what to say to make me feel better! I forgot momentarily that I should log on for support, not just to be reminded that my sway failed. Mathilde - I know some of you will follow my footsteps and I'm sorry for that LOL! That's why I tried so hard to be optimistic at first.... to show everyone that it can be handled with grace. But that just led to me falling flat on my face apparently! haha... I have good days and bad days... I'm just hoping the good days start to increase and the bad days get easier.

GeCon- I did get the results from the InheriGen test back and I was negative for all genetic mutations with one exception... I got low risk for Fragile X syndrome, not a negative. This *might* explain why I keep having boys, and why I've lost so many babies (although my 32 week loss was a boy so it doesn't explain that one)... So overall it was great news My doctor seemed to think the "low risk" diagnosis was not very concerning, although I didn't get an explanation as to why she said that.

Thank you all again for being so supportive I can't begin to tell you how much it means to me

[GeCon]

Great news on the results of the test, Charlee. And I think there is no reason for concern with the low risk one as it is exactly that: a low risk.

[Emily]

3boys sorry to hear about the scan results. Was it just the nuchalnfold or was the nasal bone absent? What sort of blood tests are they doing? Some are more reliable than others. I really hope you get some answers soon. We are all here for you. Big hugs.

[myrainbowgirl]

Ladybugs - I could have written your last paragraph! My heart says 100% girl, but head doubts it...of course I question things I did/didn't do while swaying, etc. It's hard! But as someone else said, we will all KNOW soon, and what a relief that will be! Looking forward to hearing about your appt.!

Charlee - I am so sorry you are struggling. I know if I end up hearing boy, it will be soooo hard. But Mathilde is absolutely right, several of us in this group will be walking down the same GD path shortly...so just hang tight, you'll have people to commiserate with very soon! And so glad to hear your testing went so well--yay!

[I Love Ladybugs]

Charlee....I remember being back on IG back in the day and the ones of us whose "sway" blessed up with the opposite were hedged out by those who were gloating that they "got" pink or blue....only one girl in my month actually hung around with me there and we really just posted to each other to cheer the other up! Lol, I went to check and guess what...she is back for #5....she now has 4 girls and is praying and hoping that this last little one is a blue bundle. I find that the girls here are the awesomest....Genderdreaming and the girls here are truely the sweetest.

Mathilde....I am ignoring stats right now....lol, just because I want everyone to get there bundle of pink in 2013 or early 2014, it is hard to think that this is not how it works. How are you feeling this week?

Gecon....lime baby!!! I loved lime baby week! I think that having the scan then for me was nice, but you are going to have such a better pic and chance to nub guess!!

Emily....how are you doing? All ready for the move? All excited????

Dreamofpink.....you all selling and buying houses has me confused. I keep on thinking that I am the only one who is staying in their current home, but I know that is not true. We are only 20 days out from knowing gender!!!

[myrainbowgirl]

Hi ladies! Anyone else completely exhausted? I am dying here. Middle of the day driving wondering if need to pull over, because I'm about to fall asleep! Don't think I was quite this tired with the first three. Of course, it could easily be that I have 3 little ones 5 & under to take care of, and that I'm of course older this go round! OMG...need to go to bed!! Lol.

[Mathilde]

My ms went away yesterday(as it did on the exact same day w both ds1 and 2...) something I count now as being a sure blue sign... (White nuckles..)have my 8 week scan on Tuesday and my GD is getting worse and worse by the minute..