looking for advice

[Threelittlemen2013]

After a year of dieting, I have completely lost motivation on this diet and fell off of it badly the last 2-3 weeks. I just never felt full and satisfied so I ate a ton, not every day but a large amount of days. I stick to the diet all day and then pig out at night. Partly probably due to the stress of being alone when my husband was traveling, the first fathers day since my dad passed is coming up and the anniversary of his death is as well. So I have a lot of emotions that I think I am using food to Cope with.

I also have low amh and high estrogen, which I know I just have to wait for the golden egg, but I am getting depressed and feel like I am kidding myself on having more kids at 38. I am on my 6th month of ttc and am on cd13 today. I had 1 dominant follicle and two slightly smaller (1.59cm), so I received my trigger shot today. We dtd this evening and while I know I should add in one more attempt since I have been on clomid for 3 months and now femara for one cycle and really just want to conceive, but I can't help but feel like this was a horrible month and not want to add it in.

I need to decide if we should dtd the deed again tomorrow (hubby is gone after that until Friday evening) and cross my fingers or if I should stick to one attempt and start fresh next month. Or maybe this (my overeating) is a way of telling me I should stop swaying and just let nature run its course.

I know I have to be comfortable with my decision and that this is all silly, but I just had to put my thoughts out there for people who got it.

[djmommy]

I am sorry you are feeling so down. To me, 6 months doesn't seem too lomg, only because I am on cycle 18. I also have low AMH and turned 39 in January. At this point in time, it is more important for me to get pregnant and I honestly don't care about gender. I never would have imagined it would be taking so long. I would love a girl but would equally love a boy bundle just as much. I would give anything to get pregnant right now. Maybe I am not the right person to offer advice but I did femera and trigger this cycle and had 2 attempts. I guess the best thing for you to ask yourself is if you only want a girl or would you be happy with a boy too. I think I ovulated 2 days after the trigger so I am glad I got two attempts in. I personally like to have an attempt a day before O. I know how hard this is. I hope you find some peace. Hugs!

[djmommy]

I am sorry you are feeling so down. To me, 6 months doesn't seem too long, only because I am on cycle 18. I also have low AMH and turned 39 in January. At this point in time, it is more important for me to get pregnant and I honestly don't care about gender. I never would have imagined it would be taking so long. I would love a girl but would equally love a boy bundle just as much. I would give anything to get pregnant right now. Maybe I am not the right person to offer advice but I did femera and trigger this cycle and had 2 attempts. I guess the best thing for you to ask yourself is if you only want a girl or would you be happy with a boy too. I think I ovulated 2 days after the trigger so I am glad I got two attempts in. I personally like to have an attempt a day before O. I know how hard this is. I hope you find some peace. Hugs!

[Threelittlemen2013]

I would love a girl, but more importantly I just want one more baby. I know this by the disappointment I feel with each negative test as well as each tiny baby I see. While i long for a girl, my boys are the biggest joy and I would happily add in one more.

Thanks for the response. It helps to hear from someone in sort of the same position.

[atomic sagebrush]

I'm so sorry you lost your dad, Three.

THe longer you've been on diet, the more you can relax and treat it more as maintenance. Plus, 3 months of Clomid, one of Femara is a great sway tactic anyway and I'd have you in with attempt.

[maidentomother]

Don't waste a month on meds. I'd stick to one attempt but not worry too much about the recent eating, as your many months of strict dieting far outweigh that. I also.so definitely think that your lifestyle 2+ months ago matters much more than in the weeks-month before conception, and the stats do confirm this (from reading through the sway attempts in detail I've noticed this trend).

I'm a big believer in listening to our bodies so it's very possible your body NEEDS/needed those extra cals and nutrients to maintain your fertility. Cravings often occur for a reason.

I really hope this is your month!

[Threelittlemen2013]

I ended up doing two attempts and ovulated 2 days after trigger. I am 2dpo now so fingers crossed!!