Sometimes I feel like he is still here.

[sbowman]

It's so strange, and I'm hoping I'm not the only one that feels this way. But sometimes, like for example when I'm getting my son out of the car and then we start to walk away, I often have a little moment where I think I've forgotten something. Like I forgot the baby. But there is no baby. Is there anyone else that knows what I mean? I feel so weird.

[Adia]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine the heartache you must feel after losing a baby like that.

My mom had 6 kids and considered herself done having kids. For years I had a nagging feeling that someone was missing. I remember it most when we were all piling in the van one day and it seemed distinctly like someone was missing. Sure enough she had my little sister 8 years after she thought she was DONE!

So I will pray that the feeling of "someone is missing" will gravitate from the one you lost to the one that is on the way!!

Big hugs mama

[sbowman]

Thank you. It's good to know at least that I'm not the only one who has ever had that strange feeling. This is really the only reason I'm ok with swaying instead of saving up for HT. I really just want a baby, regardless of gender.

[Rainbow baby]

Owe babe. I think it is totally normal. I have those moments as well. I wonder if I had another child would my mind settle or would I still feel if something is missing.... I mean I know something is missing and never a replacement that's not what I meant but having a constant thought about the baby in the car..........arg hard to explain. All I can say is your not alone with that thought <3

[sbowman]

I think I know what you're saying. I wonder that too. Like I know I will always have this emptiness in my life where he is supposed to be, and having another baby will probably not fix that, but maybe help heal me somewhat.

[Rainbow baby]

<3 yeah that!

[The Anchor]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to find peace.

I had purchased bunk beds for DD and DS when I was about 10 weeks along. The idea of m/c had never occurred to me for that pregnancy ever, which is funny, because my first 2 I was nervous wreck from BFP on. Anyway, we never did put the beds together, they're sitting in boxes in the garage. And every time I take the garbage out it's like a jolt.

I've been trying in desperation to get pg again to no avail. I think I am in the same spot as you...I must have another baby, just to fill the void.

Virtual HUGS to you...

[sbowman]

Thanks Anchor. I'm sorry for you as well. I see you're going HT, I hope it goes well for you and you get your rainbow baby.

[3boys]

Aw honey... Sending hugs. Xx
I feel like this when people ask me how many boys I've got, I often go to say four!

[ELP]

Just Hugs to you ladies xx Your little ones were and will always be part of you, xxx