LolaInLove's Infertility Journey

[Princess of Pink]

Big hugs Lola...I don't think you can "make" your eggs run out....but OMG I understand how you feel. I am starting to feel like me wanting a baby so bad and deciding to start TTC has also run my eggs out. Gotta love the irrational thoughts of a mad TTC woman!!

[LolaInLove]

(((hugs))) Lola! I think your eggs are still good in there So much can affect our fertility, and you can have normal cycles even after some are anovulatory. Are you doing any supps that are known to alter cycles? Vitex or anything?

You're in the middle of so much right now, it's possible your body isn't sure what's going on. Are you eating well? Getting enough fat? Those things can stop your cycles, too.

I hope you get your normal cycles back soon.

I'm taking a prenatal with DHA and fish oil, but just added in (about a week ago) a RJ/BP capsule and an antioxidant multi that DH and I are both taking. I am REALLY hoping you are right and it's just a lifestyle change thing. I am not eating as much fat as I used to, that is one thing. I have started working out a lot and eating way less carbs and fat to lose some of this swaying weight. I was afraid it was inhibiting my fertility having gained weight. I eat healthy fats, though, like avocados and cheese. Plus I take the fish oil, but I don't know if that helps. I do have an unopened bottle of Vitex that I could start at the appropriate time of month. I could also try DHEA again.....

Like I said, really hoping it's a temporary thing, but it does freak me out. Thanks for your reply, Skrimpy!

[LolaInLove]

Big hugs Lola...I don't think you can "make" your eggs run out....but OMG I understand how you feel. I am starting to feel like me wanting a baby so bad and deciding to start TTC has also run my eggs out. Gotta love the irrational thoughts of a mad TTC woman!!

Well, because I'm 36 and of course, thanks to the wonderful folks who put out fertility information everywhere, feel like I am about to coast into menopause at any moment. I know that is not true, but it would be just my luck to FINALLY have a solid plan- we got the bad sperm diagnosis and are excited and all systems go with the overseas IVF and have just opened a new savings account for it, and WHAMMO, that is the stage cue for my eggs to run out.

[Princess of Pink]

Yeah I have to agree that is my luck too hon! I'm 34 and feel the exact same way about it. My body won't even ovulate now!

[LolaInLove]

Well, I got a positive opk just around noon today, so seems that I will actually ovulate (well, hopefully), but it was just later than usual. I have no cm at all, though, which leads me to think I have low estrogen from something, probably stress, this month. POP, why don't we make a pact to try to be chill and nonchalant about ttc for a while and see if it helps us? Maybe the stress of just ttc and temping and all is doing the same to you? But you did have ewcm this month, that is good.

[Hobbermittens]

Use some preseed, Lola! It will help!

[LolaInLove]

I did! I've been putting it up there by the cervix with the applicator like you are supposed to also.

[Princess of Pink]

Yay Lola!! Good luck! I had a temp rise this morning...not huge but a definite rise!! I don't think I O'ed yesterday though....I think I O'ed during the evening before as I had my typical stabbing pain I get when I O and yesterday by 10am my cervix was back super low and creamy CM....so maybe I did O. Got a 2 day cut off though lol

[LolaInLove]

Ugh, the 2ww is just pure torture when you have been ttc this long. Mostly because I'm not sure how to feel anymore....do I remain hopeful and waive that glass of wine and not go water skiing and whatnot or do I just go on acting like I did when I was unknowingly pregnant with my girls....just go on about life and not think about it. Every time I get a "symptom," my mind starts playing tricks on me. Like, oh, you smelled that dog shit from 20 feet away? Pregnant! Or, nipple is slightly tingling....pregnant!?!? This meal makes me want to barf a little and not because it's not delicious....pregnant?

On a good note, I did start taking my progesterone again and it has made my uterus feel much calmer, if that makes any sense. I slept like a dead bear the other day, too. Best sleep I've had in months. But still going to go in and see what the doc thinks about this brown spotting business from the last two months. My girlfriend told me some horror story over margaritas the other night, so now I'm a bit alarmed. I haven't had it for a while now, which is good.

[atomic sagebrush]

Hey, the tingly nips have always been a sure sign for me. I hope this is it for you Lola.