Bfp (but paranoid!) - unhappy update page 3

[True Blue]

Lace I am so so sorry - this is so unfair sending you lots of love & hugs

[Alias83]

Oh I'm sorry to read this lace thinking of you, xx

[LacePrincess]

Thanks TrueBlue and Alias. I'll be okay. It's a lot easier emotionally this time then last time - last time I felt homefree with a BFP, and this time I knew different.

The timing just really, really sucks. I did end up telling my older two so they know why mommy is going to be crying a lot the next few days. I'm kind of pissy about the weight gain too, all for nothing, argh.

I assume that there's nothing to worry about yet in terms of anything wrong with me, probably a chromosomal abnormality. My prog levels were really great so it's not that, and my thyroid was checked only a few months ago. It still sucks though and it REALLY sucks being alone this week. I must say that our failed IVF attempts hurt worse, at least we didn't spend tens of thousands to get to this point.

[bunnywabbit]

How terrible! I'm so sorry, laceprincess. You're in my thoughts. Please know we're all here for you xx

[mandyp85]

So sorry to hear that lace, thinking of you ❤ Xxx

[ImmiNAddi]

So sorry to hear Lace
I am also going through the same sort of thing (but booked to have a D & C next Tues).
Hugs to you xox

[LacePrincess]

Thanks everyone. It helps to have all your support!

So sorry to hear Lace
I am also going through the same sort of thing (but booked to have a D & C next Tues).
Hugs to you xox

Oh gosh Immi, I'm so damned sorry. I'm really sorry you have to have a D&C too, ugh! The one thing I'm glad of is that my body is starting the process on its own, or at least I think it is, I really don't want to have to do a D&C with DH out of town.

Big hugs to you Immi. This is so unfair.

[Alias83]

It's always bound to be a shitty time I guess.. I remember following your HT cycle. It does make you think about the chromosomal abnormalities doesn't it, there is nothing we can do about it either, that's just it sometimes, bad luck, and it's so unfair! Hope you are ok with DH out of town, can you get some support from family/ friends locally? x

[LacePrincess]

It's always bound to be a shitty time I guess.. I remember following your HT cycle. It does make you think about the chromosomal abnormalities doesn't it, there is nothing we can do about it either, that's just it sometimes, bad luck, and it's so unfair! Hope you are ok with DH out of town, can you get some support from family/ friends locally? x

Yes for sure. I'm not *shocked* yk, since I know based on my age and what we saw with our HT attempt that 2/3 of embies are probably going to be abnormal. It's best for everyone in the end that the bean not stick if it has an anomaly like that. I know that I would never do another IVF without PGS testing!

Right now I don't really want to talk to anyone today, but I do have friends and my MIL if I need to. So yes I do have local support if I want to talk. I just kind of want to mope and wallow for now though. My kids are a great comfort right now, I'm very thankful I have them around at least. This sure makes me appreciate even more the miracles they are.

[XXforhubby]

I'm so sorry this is happening! Ugh, why does stuff like this have to happen at the worst times?! I'm glad you do have support if you need it, and we will be here for you too! Hugs! I'm sending you lots of strength and healing .