Bfp (but paranoid!) - unhappy update page 3

[LacePrincess]

Well we got our BFP over the weekend. I was sooooo scared of testing I put it off until 15dpo, LOL. Did a bunch of internet cheapie tests that were positive and got a nice dark FRER this morning (17dpo).

My clinic had me come in for a beta and prog test, and they said my RE was happy with the numbers! And yet I can't help but still fret that something's still going to go wrong. I even questioned my beta number, even though my RE was pleased and he's not at all the type to sugarcoat. So really I should be reassured, and yet I'm fretting!

I know why though - 3 years of trying, an early loss, having infertile friends and hearing so many sad endings, and spending time on infertility forums has all made me very cynical. I'm having a hard time being excited this time, I keep expecting things to go south! I guess after our difficulties with our HT try it has made me feel like we're fated to never have it end well.

Well at least I know that I *can* get pregnant again, LOL. I was really starting to wonder after almost 3 years of not even a BFP. So the plumbing still works!

[True Blue]

LacePrincess I think it's natural to worry & fret, I know I do!!

Huge Huge Congratulations on your BFP & on your good numbers I'm so happy for you.

Lots of sticky bean and happy & healthy pregnancy wishes to you!! I hope you start enjoying being pregnant really soon xx

[XXforhubby]

OMG! This is the best news ever!!! I'm SO happy for you!

I understand how nervous you are. Hang in there sweetie! This is meant to be!

I seriously can't stop smiling!!

[Junie]

Huge congratulations!!

[Traci25]

congratulations! Think happy thoughts!

[bunnywabbit]

Aww, congrats on your BFP! I understand your worry - it took ages for me to conceive then had a couple of chemicals. I decided not to even bother getting my hopes up until I saw the heartbeat for myself. But he's here, 13 months old and fighting fit! FX for a h&h 9 months x

[nuthinbutpink]

Great news! How many follicles did you see on u/s before trigger? Did you use a trigger? Congrats!

[LacePrincess]

LacePrincess I think it's natural to worry & fret, I know I do!!

Huge Huge Congratulations on your BFP & on your good numbers I'm so happy for you.

Lots of sticky bean and happy & healthy pregnancy wishes to you!! I hope you start enjoying being pregnant really soon xx

Congrats to you too!

I dunno about 'good' numbers, lol. I keep googling and getting depressed my beta number isn't sky high. Though my RE seemed more pleased with my prog number, they said he looks for a good prog number because if it was a chemical the prog number would be the first to slip. I do realize that bhcg is more about doubling rates, but I turned down the offer to redo a bhcg in a week because, well, if it's not meant to be more tests isn't gonna change that.

Gah I think my problem is I've just been spending FAR too long on infertility boards so now I know far too much about how it can all go wrong! I'm not sure I'm going to be able to enjoy anything until at least the first scan.

[coralsky]

Yay!! Fab news lace!! Sooo happy for you xxx

[ImmiNAddi]

Congrats Lace I am kind of 'ignoring' the fact that I am 6wks - not going to get too excited until I have the Harmonie test results in my hand saying everything is healthy etc. So far it's been easy as I am still feeling ok, so I am just getting on with things.
Best of luck to you in the coming weeks and I hope the time flies for you for your first scan.