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Thread: I should not think this way :(
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January 1st, 2015, 03:53 PM #21
I have been thinking of this post for days! I know you said you are Indian/Asian can I ask what your husband is?
The reason I keep thinking of this thread because I can totally relate...
Here is my story,
I am of Hispanic descent, though I look Asian (Filipino to be exact), DH is Irish American. I have tan skin, brown hair and eyes. DH has brown hair and green eyes.
DS#1 Blond hair and Blue eyes and Fair skin
DS#2 Brown hair and Hazel/ Light Brown eyes, light tan skin
HT DD Brown hair and brown eyes..
While I am still thanking the universe for DD, it was a little shocking. Why should it be because I am tan with dark features and she is a TOTAL MINI ME, BUT everyone leading up to the birth kept saying how my daughter will be blond and blue eyes and look more Irish than anything and they would say it over and over almost like this would be ideal!!
Once she was born, I remember that first week we went to my in laws and my SIL was looking at her and said Wow she is a lot darker than the boys were! HUH?? WTF is that??? This is coming from a blond blue eyed woman who had a tan dark hair dark eyed daughter as she married a Guatemalen immigrant!! Seriously!!
A few weeks later my mom came over with her friend, my mothers friend is holding the baby and says to the baby "what happened? you were supposed to have GREEN eyes!! What an ass!
Two months later my mom is looking at her and says lets see her what color her eyes will be and says to me SORRY they will brown! WTF?? SORRY? like she has a birth defect??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I can't take ignorant people!!
I remember growing up all of my "white" friends would rub tons and tons of baby oil on and tan all day long, I had friends with orange hands as they would douse themselves with self tanning lotion lol!!
Our girls are BEAUTIFUL they are Exotic beauties with a natural tan!!Last edited by Jany1025; January 1st, 2015 at 04:27 PM.
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Cycle #1-August 2010-Transferred 1 Girl= BFN
Cycle #2- Nov 2010- No Unaffected Females to Transfer No Unaffected Males to Freeze
Cycle# 3- May 2011- 5 Fertilized --Frozen on Day 2 to Batch with Next Cycle
Cycle #4- June 2011- Transferred 3 Girls=-BFN
Cycle#5- September 2011-- Day 5 Biopsy-- Grade A Hatched Blastocyst Girl= BFN
Cycle #6- Different Doctor-Dr Braverman January 2012-Transferred 3 Girls=BFN
Cycle #7-April 2012 Transferred 6 Girls =BFN
Cycle #8-July 2012 Transferred 3 Girls=BFN--WTF!
Cycle #9-October 2012 Transferred 2 Girls- Beta-=13 Chemical Pregnancy...
April 2013- 40 yrs old- New RE- SIRM-NYC/Westchester- Transferred 2 Girl Blasts & 2 Girl Morulas= BFP!!!!
April 2015- 42 yrs old- SIRM- 1 Girl Transferred- BFP!!
Samantha 12/17/13 8pounds 3oz
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January 1st, 2015, 04:28 PM #22
I am Indian. 1st generation in America. I'm darker than my fairer handsome brothers. My mom would try to convince me to lighten my face skin so ppl would want to marry me.
My aunts would tell me to stay out of the sun and criticize me after a fun summer (bc I'd get so tan).
On Indian marriage websites some of the criteria u can choose is skin color: fair, wheatish, dark.
I don't know why in Asian cultures white is better, well western cultures too.
Despite all that it didn't affect THAT part of my self image (I was always more concerned with weight).
But when I married my olive toned (lighter than me) Italian, and my kids came out all mixed, I would notice how ppl who cared about that gave more attention to the lighter child. It's funny that DD2 has the lightest hair and skin (even lighter than DH) and ignorant ppl always say she looks JUST like her daddy. Which is SO not true!!!! All her features are MINE just a lighter "shell" as u guys say.
The quality ppl in our lives tell me she looks like me.
My family is VERY much like urs, ignorant about what's impt in life. If I ever heard a comment like that, I would just flat out say I am not ashamed of my daughter. Her life is precious and it's her health and her happiness that matters. Desi ppl don't believe in happiness. They only think in terms of status and money. So u may not be able to change them but u can repeat urself over and over to shut them down until at least they keep their mouths shut.Last edited by gizmo77; January 1st, 2015 at 04:31 PM.
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January 1st, 2015, 05:15 PM #23
Nahri I was so certain you were Indian, up until I read the last sentence, lol! You know so much about Bollywood
You are right, we need to teach the next generation not to judge people by thir appearebce or color, starting with myself. After I started this thread and after reading all the responses, I have noticed a change in myself. I am looking at my baby for whi she is not what color she is! And she is beautiful, so thank you all! Hugs!
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January 1st, 2015, 05:28 PM #24
Hello dear,
My husband and I are both asian/indian. From same country. He is a bit darker than me, but lighter When he was baby.
I am sorry that you have to hear that. The only thing they should be telling you is how lucky you are to get your DD! But unfortunately, some people think it is their job to point out what is NOT perfect in other ppls lives. I am sure your DD is beautiful as she is. We have to see the person behind thesé "shells".
After all we wished for a healthy DD and that is what we got! I am sure once we get to know the persons inside, we will love everything about them even their color
If it is your DDs picture, for me she is just perfect!
And I can totally relate to you abt the expectations. And it might be even tougher for you because of the options! I mean for me it only meant one shade darker.
I am not letting these ignorant people make me think that there is something wrong with her.
Yes, our DDs have perfect olive skin many could only dream of ))
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January 1st, 2015, 05:37 PM #25
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January 1st, 2015, 06:38 PM #26
Jany you are both gorgeous!
Cauliflower, your daughter is precious. I want to tell you about one of my close friends from high school - whom I still keep in touch with, bc like me she moved to Europe after growing up mostly in the US. Her father is a very tall, lean/athletic blond haired, blue eyed German and her mother is Mexican but with very pale skin, curly black hair, brown eyes and a short, round/plump body. My friend has MUCH darker skin than either parent, so much so she doesn't look remotely related if you look just at her skin colour, which is the same shade brown as your daughter's. Even her brother is pale skinned, he looks exactly like a male version of their mother both body & face. My friend has brown eyes and medium-dark, straight brown hair but she's tall like her father and has his very regular, chiseled facial features.
She was and is one of the most beautiful girls/women I have EVER seen - model beautiful, but too naturally curvy (in a good way) to be a runway model. Always she's had her pick of men and she is very successful in all her endeavors, both bc she is smart and so charismatic. I even had a little crush on her in high school - I could just stare at her beauty endlessly - and I'm heterosexual, she's the only girl I have ever found so enchanting and appealing, she just has this magic about her that always makes her the center of all attention. At 32 she is still incredible looking, and also happy, living a great life. I wish the same for your daughter!
Btw, I myself am quite pale and have always been attracted to pale men, I do even have a paleness obsession - but still, my friend is more beautiful to me than nearly all pale people on the planet.Last edited by maidentomother; January 1st, 2015 at 06:45 PM.
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January 8th, 2015, 11:58 AM #27
I read this earlier today and was thinking about it and felt sad because appearently in this world the lighter you are, the better. And you were brought up in that world, thinking you'd rather have a light skinned child, because it would be easier for them to cope. I can somewhat understand the impact of this on your life, just somewhat ever so slightly. As a white female I haven't had the challenges many of my coloured friends have dealt with, but I've seen it when I was dating a beautiful coloured man years ago. Racism comes in so many ways, it was horrible. I read not so long ago in a few hundred years everyone will have about the same skin, hair and eyecolour, as dark colours are stronger than light colours, so there is hope for all of us that one day we will all be the same
As to your personal struggle: when I was pregnant with my daughter, I always pictured her like me: brown curly hair and green eyes. Sadly I've been deprived of watching her grow up so I will never know, but when my sons were born I was very surprised. They were blonde! My first son being an exact copy of my husband (no really, we totally pressed CTRL+C and CTRL+V and my son came rolling out like a clone) and my second son is me, except with blonde hair. They're obviously brothers, yet so different at the same time. And so I found myself having to create a new idea of what my daughter would have looked like. Probably not dark haired, but blonde. Maybe with curls like my eldest or without them like my youngest. Probably green, grey or blue eyes. And maybe that's why I yearn for a daughter so much. I want that question answered. And if she comes out completely different, Let's say with red hair and grey eyes, I would have to adjust to the idea I've had of her. And maybe worry if people would judge her because of her red hair. And I guess that's slightly similar of what you're experiencing right now. Am I making any sense? Maybe we should let go of our dreams we have of our children, as they will always find a way to surprise us and they have the right to be who ever they want to be. Not just by how they look, act or dress, but with every life decision they make. And as a parent we will not always be happy with that. Not saying that you would, but I know I would, I'm kind of a controll-freak. Not really sure how to protect our hearts from that, from dreaming about what our children will be like in a certain way. It would make GD and life in general so much easier.
Oh and by the way, had I made babies with my ex, they would have been gorgeous. They would have had his skin and hair and my eyes. Lol. Now I've done it again haha. But my ex was not meant to be, my husband is an absolute winner whom I made gorgeous bubbas with and so did you, just gorgeous and perfect I bet!Mummy to a girl, born sleeping & two gorgeous & loud little boys
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January 9th, 2015, 04:33 PM #28
Thank you Dana-Alicia for writing to me. I wish I could express myself as good as you just did!
I think I am still in denial, or maybe surprised, not adjusted to the idea that she would be so dark. Am I ever going to get used to it? Am I just imagining that this is the first thing everyone noticed?
I met up with a friend the other day and her daughter looks very much like DD, except that she is very fair. So I said, they are so similar except for the skincolor, she looked surprised and said, I think they are the same colour too!
On facebook I have gone through pictures of every friend of mine and their kids to see what colour the kids had inherited. I found fair parent with darker kid and dark parents with fair-colored kids...
it is okay, I will get used to it! I just need to remind myself of how lucky I am! And she os perfect for me and my husband. We dont care, really....we only see our beloved daughter!
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January 9th, 2015, 04:51 PM #29
I saw you had posted an Avatar pic with you and her next to each other and HONESTLY I didn't notice any difference in fact I LOVED her complexion, So I posted of a pic of DD and myself but I took it down when I saw you took yours off! LOL!!
I remembered after posting that one of my best friends went through this after her second child a daughter was born, my friend is white and her DH is light skinned black, I called her after her birth and one of the first words to me was "she is so much darker than my son" and she wasn't joking either very solemn almost saddened..and I thought HUH?? What is wrong with her?? But I get it, sometimes things don't come as we expect as she was a little shocked.. 7 years later I see no difference in color and she is absolutely gorgeous!
Enjoy your beautiful girl!2 Boys 6 & 9 yrs old 6 year old IVF and has NF1 - PGD to test for NF1 and Gender
Cycle #1-August 2010-Transferred 1 Girl= BFN
Cycle #2- Nov 2010- No Unaffected Females to Transfer No Unaffected Males to Freeze
Cycle# 3- May 2011- 5 Fertilized --Frozen on Day 2 to Batch with Next Cycle
Cycle #4- June 2011- Transferred 3 Girls=-BFN
Cycle#5- September 2011-- Day 5 Biopsy-- Grade A Hatched Blastocyst Girl= BFN
Cycle #6- Different Doctor-Dr Braverman January 2012-Transferred 3 Girls=BFN
Cycle #7-April 2012 Transferred 6 Girls =BFN
Cycle #8-July 2012 Transferred 3 Girls=BFN--WTF!
Cycle #9-October 2012 Transferred 2 Girls- Beta-=13 Chemical Pregnancy...
April 2013- 40 yrs old- New RE- SIRM-NYC/Westchester- Transferred 2 Girl Blasts & 2 Girl Morulas= BFP!!!!
April 2015- 42 yrs old- SIRM- 1 Girl Transferred- BFP!!
Samantha 12/17/13 8pounds 3oz
Ava 12/28/15 8pounds 4oz
My Miracle..http://genderdreaming.com/forum/ht-f...acle-here.html
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January 11th, 2015, 05:38 AM #30
Jany, lolz, I thought I took it down at once, but you saw it I wish I had seen yours, now thats unfair, you have to post it again I also noticed very little difference on that pic, so I did not want to seen ridicolous posting it...lol pluss, I did not want to seem obsessed! But I am glad I started this thread
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