Part 4: Due January, February & March 2019

[Eighme]

I've been silently keeping up with everyone!

Hope everyone is doing better, especially you, Simkan! I am on day six of a nasty sinus infection that has knocked me on my butt. I can't get any relief and it just feels like it's one thing after the other with this pregnancy. Which makes it harder for me, I'm happy he's healthy and all that jazz. It definitely wasn't this hard with my first, and some days I don't have the energy to see the positive; today is one of those days.

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well. I go in tomorrow for an ultrasound to check on Bud's heart. They didn't get as as many good pictures as they wanted previously, so it seems routine and nothing to fret over. I still fret anyway!

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[mummaofboys]

This is how I feel about a boy. 8 losses? All abnormal XYs during IVF? Why would this baby finally be my healthy boy?

Oh TP I hope and pray you get your boy and I’m sending you ALL my blue dust and will happily take your pink. I feel like my mc last year was pink. Never confirmed, just gut feeling. Sorry you’ve been in a bad place. I really hope this little rainbow of yours brings you so much joy and happiness xx


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[Throwaway_panther]

Thank you hopper, everything you said does make sense. I'm sorry, I did totally interpret your post as meaning just me having odds of a healthy boy stacked against me. It's hard to think of us ALL having odds stacked against us, because it should just be 50/50, right? But then that's the thing -- we're all the unlucky ones on here Makes me wonder if this is some circle of hell we're all unknowingly on...

But that is funny on the linea nigra! I've of course read enough online now (including some old GD posts) to know it means nothing, just definitely never had one ever with DD and have a faint one up to my breasts, slightly askew of navel now.

And thank you mumma <3 I so hope you get your girl, too.

I'm with you as well, Eighme. I am just in such a crap state of mind lately. I'm 31 weeks today, and last midwife appointment around 29 weeks we found out baby was breech. Baby has been breech and transverse alot this pregnancy (though also head down), and I've just been incredibly depressed since. I've been doing everything you're supposed to do positioning wise for ages (just like I did with DD, who was always perfect position!) and now feel very angry that nothing I'm doing seems to help this baby get in position. And the only thing keeping me going is a.) hoping to try as soon as possible for next baby if this one really is a girl. Don't even give a shit if that's not recommended for boy sway. I've been through enough and done enough to know what I'll do next time around and that gives me at least a LITTLE agency and b.) I'm literally wanting to force myself through another unmedicated birth, hoping for the same birth "high" I had with DD that made me bond instantly. The idea of not getting any of this makes me really, really, reaalllly depressed. And DH has been shitty again as usual, so just feeling overall awful.

And WAS planning on fostering another dog, but the shelter I was working with hasn't "received a shipment" of dogs in awhile as they were supposed to.

Lol, can you tell the antepartum depression has taken over? The constant pain from my hips and SI joint no matter what I do isn't helping either...

[hopper]

Thank you hopper, everything you said does make sense. I'm sorry, I did totally interpret your post as meaning just me having odds of a healthy boy stacked against me. It's hard to think of us ALL having odds stacked against us, because it should just be 50/50, right? But then that's the thing -- we're all the unlucky ones on here Makes me wonder if this is some circle of hell we're all unknowingly on...

But that is funny on the linea nigra! I've of course read enough online now (including some old GD posts) to know it means nothing, just definitely never had one ever with DD and have a faint one up to my breasts, slightly askew of navel now.

And thank you mumma <3 I so hope you get your girl, too.

I'm with you as well, Eighme. I am just in such a crap state of mind lately. I'm 31 weeks today, and last midwife appointment around 29 weeks we found out baby was breech. Baby has been breech and transverse alot this pregnancy (though also head down), and I've just been incredibly depressed since. I've been doing everything you're supposed to do positioning wise for ages (just like I did with DD, who was always perfect position!) and now feel very angry that nothing I'm doing seems to help this baby get in position. And the only thing keeping me going is a.) hoping to try as soon as possible for next baby if this one really is a girl. Don't even give a shit if that's not recommended for boy sway. I've been through enough and done enough to know what I'll do next time around and that gives me at least a LITTLE agency and b.) I'm literally wanting to force myself through another unmedicated birth, hoping for the same birth "high" I had with DD that made me bond instantly. The idea of not getting any of this makes me really, really, reaalllly depressed. And DH has been shitty again as usual, so just feeling overall awful.

And WAS planning on fostering another dog, but the shelter I was working with hasn't "received a shipment" of dogs in awhile as they were supposed to.

Lol, can you tell the antepartum depression has taken over? The constant pain from my hips and SI joint no matter what I do isn't helping either...

Oh don't be sorry at all TP. It wasn't phrased correctly AT ALL. I'm glad I made some sense in my replies tho!! Maybe this is an unknown circle of hell but you know what - at least we are honest about how we feel and what we want. I think we swayers are incredibly brave to keep rolling that dice!! At least the swaying does tip the odds somewhat more into a 50/50 region, tho sometimes it just doesn't feel like that does it :/

It's so funny about the line a nigrea lol!! I 150% had one all the way from my pubic bone to my belly button and then going from there up to my boobs on all three boys! Not even a hint of a one this time. It's weird. But then again I'm not quite 19 weeks yet so still.plenty of time to have one form...there I go trying to quash that hope again lol!

It's a real pain that your baba hasn't settled in head down position TP. When is your next scan? For what it's worth my mother was booked to have me manually turned by her OB (don't ask me the medical term, my baby brain is in full swing here! Couldn't even remember the word for "fire" yesterday!!!) On her way to the appt at 38 weeks I flipped round myself! So there's definitely plenty of time!! I am so hoping to deliver these babies vaginally. I've had great natural births previously with no medication or intervention and that high afterward is unreal!! The idea of missing that is a total bummer so I totally get what you're saying!
I also hear ya on the shitty DH. Had a HUGE row with mine yesterday. Still not speaking today. He just doesn't get how bloody tired I am at the minute. I feel like I have narcolepsy, I'm liable to fall asleep within seconds of sitting down!! So cooking and household work has taken a back seat and he's had to pick up the slack, you'd swear I was growing two babies or something


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[hopper]

I have my OB appt tomorrow. Bit nervous. Dunno whether or not I should ask the genders!!! I don't know if she will even be able to see as her machine isn't as good as the sonos but I feel so anxious anyway. I won't have anyone with me. Would you ask if you were in my shoes?

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[Throwaway_panther]

Oh don't be sorry at all TP. It wasn't phrased correctly AT ALL. I'm glad I made some sense in my replies tho!! Maybe this is an unknown circle of hell but you know what - at least we are honest about how we feel and what we want. I think we swayers are incredibly brave to keep rolling that dice!! At least the swaying does tip the odds somewhat more into a 50/50 region, tho sometimes it just doesn't feel like that does it :/

It's so funny about the line a nigrea lol!! I 150% had one all the way from my pubic bone to my belly button and then going from there up to my boobs on all three boys! Not even a hint of a one this time. It's weird. But then again I'm not quite 19 weeks yet so still.plenty of time to have one form...there I go trying to quash that hope again lol!

It's a real pain that your baba hasn't settled in head down position TP. When is your next scan? For what it's worth my mother was booked to have me manually turned by her OB (don't ask me the medical term, my baby brain is in full swing here! Couldn't even remember the word for "fire" yesterday!!!) On her way to the appt at 38 weeks I flipped round myself! So there's definitely plenty of time!! I am so hoping to deliver these babies vaginally. I've had great natural births previously with no medication or intervention and that high afterward is unreal!! The idea of missing that is a total bummer so I totally get what you're saying!
I also hear ya on the shitty DH. Had a HUGE row with mine yesterday. Still not speaking today. He just doesn't get how bloody tired I am at the minute. I feel like I have narcolepsy, I'm liable to fall asleep within seconds of sitting down!! So cooking and household work has taken a back seat and he's had to pick up the slack, you'd swear I was growing two babies or something


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Oh I feel for you hopper! You are taking care of essentially 6 kids when your husband is not helping out -- growing two is a LOT of work, plus the 3 outside of you. I am so frustrated on your behalf, and so sorry we're both dealing with husbands dropping the ball It only ever makes my GD worse, I know (especially because I can NEVER talk about it with DH, especially not after the last few years).

And I think you're talking about a version! I've definitely heard of those and already have one in my mind if things don't start looking right -- and while I know I have time, I'm still in that window where baby "should" be a certain way, so that's enough to make me freak and obsess and pretty much always stay on all fours lol. Plus it is VERY uncomfortable whenever this baby is breech or transverse. I thought DD being so low for so long was bad, but kicks to the cervix or the stretched out punches and kicks to both ribs are far worse!

As for gender guessing tomorrow -- maybe you could ask if they could take a look without you looking? Sometimes having that apprehension taken away by not having to see it for yourself one way or the other can help. And they might not be able to see because of gestation and technology! Or ask for it to be written on a card?

It's really tricky. I'm so mixed on finding out nowadays haha, and with twins I feel like things are so different (I always would have found out with twins, no matter what). I am just so hoping you have at least one girl in there!

[Noemi2017]

Tp i have the same feelings...u r not alone. I still try to believe i can have my baby girl (if God allows) i dont want to loose my hope thats what keep me up. My husband has 3 brothers and his father had 10brothers! If my baby is another boy i want to try other baby as soon as possible also due to my age. I was thinking also about Ivf but again i dont have big chance due to age or adoption. I need some hope i send u all my blue dust and i really wish u get your baby boy

[hopper]

Oh I feel for you hopper! You are taking care of essentially 6 kids when your husband is not helping out -- growing two is a LOT of work, plus the 3 outside of you. I am so frustrated on your behalf, and so sorry we're both dealing with husbands dropping the ball It only ever makes my GD worse, I know (especially because I can NEVER talk about it with DH, especially not after the last few years).

And I think you're talking about a version! I've definitely heard of those and already have one in my mind if things don't start looking right -- and while I know I have time, I'm still in that window where baby "should" be a certain way, so that's enough to make me freak and obsess and pretty much always stay on all fours lol. Plus it is VERY uncomfortable whenever this baby is breech or transverse. I thought DD being so low for so long was bad, but kicks to the cervix or the stretched out punches and kicks to both ribs are far worse!

As for gender guessing tomorrow -- maybe you could ask if they could take a look without you looking? Sometimes having that apprehension taken away by not having to see it for yourself one way or the other can help. And they might not be able to see because of gestation and technology! Or ask for it to be written on a card?

It's really tricky. I'm so mixed on finding out nowadays haha, and with twins I feel like things are so different (I always would have found out with twins, no matter what). I am just so hoping you have at least one girl in there!

Thank you TP! DHs can be pieces of absolute crap when they so choose!! Is safely say my own DH recognised his crappiness of late cause today I get a call from my hair salon to confirm my appointment for tomorrow. I didn't have an appointment made myself, they told me my DH booked it for me as a treat! I informed DH that treats like that are appreciated but being an understanding person takes precedence at the moment. I don't think he was overly impressed after he making the gesture but hopefully my point has been made! At least I've an easy day parenting wise tomorrow. My boys are going to my parents before breakfast as my OB is a super early appt, I have a few errands to run after that and then collecting them but the older two have play dates in the afternoon and I'll be headed to the salon anyway - which might be much needed if I hear I'm about to parent five boys tomorrow morning!!
Oh I don't envy you getting breech and transverse kicks. I've always had them head down from an early week but I've heard those kicks can get quite brutal! You're right tho, you do have plenty of time so fingers and toes are firmly crossed baba plays ball and does what they are supposed to do Its your second baby to get to this stage but they have way more room in there thanks to your DD stretching it all out for them so they possibly won't go head down til the breech gets too awkward for them (hopefully!) My second was head down but sunny side up. It didn't matter until the labour but funnily enough his delivery was my favourite awkward and all as he was being!!
I really like your idea for tomorrow!! I think you've hit the nail on the head. It's the apprehension of seeing it on the screen myself before she says it. I feel nauseous even thinking about it!! I remember after we had our gender scan on DS3 I walked out of the place and burst into tears saying to DH I just don't know why I'd ever have imagined I could hear those precious words "It's a girl" I don't know why I thought I might hear it and let myself hope. I kinda feel the same about finding out. Ugh. I don't know if I'll sleep tonight!! And after all this just watch this space - she won't be able to tell me

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[hopper]

Just out from my appt and OB was able to say with 95% certainty we're having a boy and a girl!!! I dunno whether to trust it. I feel all over the place. Having another scan in a fortnight and anomaly a week later so we can definitely confirm but he showed me the lack of boy parts and three lines but "she" was extremely active and hard to get a really good look! I'm shocked I think. I don't believe it!!

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[Pretty]

Huuuuuuuuge congrats!!!