Boy #4 for us.

[wilma_five]

Exactly how I felt with the unexpected pregnancy of boy #5! I went down to dark places I will never ever go again, I swore that. I was at the point where I wanted to end my life because of GD. But DS #5 is here, he is a year and a half right now. He is such a sweetie, love him to pieces! But he never took my heart as ds #4 did. Offcourse I love them all the same but ds #4 has something special. Now I have a bunch of healthy happy little boys, we have a lot of fun as a big family and I'm hoping to add a girl along the way.

[KnockYourBallsOff]

Any updates? How are you feeling? I'm prepring to join you and enjoy reading your feelings b/c I know so many of us can relate.

[shouldihope?]

At this point I am just ready to be done being pregnant. Not excited, more like numb and flying on auto-pilot. I think it has finally hit my DH because he has been super-grouchy which is just making getting things done all the more challenging. Probably comes down to my lack of desire to dtd but this time around I just have no desire. I am sure he knows it will be a long dry spell, but really I am exhausted and miserable. I think most of my friends and family assume I am fine at this point and are tired of hearing my lack of enthusiasm so I try not to think about it honestly. I have noticed that some friends have become rather protective of me when someone has a negative comment about boys etc. Truly sweet that I know I have some supportive people in my life. That part is helpful. Thanks for everyone's comments and support. I will update when something changes.
KYBO- I truly hope you hear girl. Mostly because I would not wish for anyone to have GD if it was within my power. Good Luck! I will watch for your update.

[Pinzer]

Did any of you ever feel scared to try again in fear of having another boy? because thats where I am at right now. I can't imagine what you are going through but I went through a horrible time with my 2ds. I could have cared less what we named him. I didn't want to partake in anything in preporation for him. I really hope you have a fast GD recovery!

[KnockYourBallsOff]

Shouldihope....thanks for updating us. I felt similar to that when waiting to deliver DS3. I hope your delivery goes smooth and that this time of mourning eases the post partum hormones once he's here. I am preparing emotionally as much as I can...even at just 7 weeks along. Thank you for your well wishes. My thoughts are with you.

[atomic sagebrush]

Did any of you ever feel scared to try again in fear of having another boy? because thats where I am at right now. I can't imagine what you are going through but I went through a horrible time with my 2ds. I could have cared less what we named him. I didn't want to partake in anything in preporation for him. I really hope you have a fast GD recovery!

Yes, but I found that I had my one bad GD baby and then my next son it was much easier...almost like I had made peace with it. I wasn't super excited but I didn't have the depths of despair that I did with DS 3. By the time we decided to try for Child #5 I was fully at peace with boy or girl. It may get easier for you over time, I hope so.

[Sugaree]

Did any of you ever feel scared to try again in fear of having another boy? because thats where I am at right now. I can't imagine what you are going through but I went through a horrible time with my 2ds. I could have cared less what we named him. I didn't want to partake in anything in preporation for him. I really hope you have a fast GD recovery!

My view on it is that if the worst thing that can happen is another perfect, hopefully healthy boy to love, well I'll take the chance. I feel like I would regret not trying more than I would regret any children that I end up having.

[fresas]

Thinking of you. <3