I'm back here in the loss section :(

[purple]

So today I had some bleeding so I went to the hospital to get it checked out and unfortunately the baby stopped growing at 8w 2d.

After having a scan at 7wks and seeing a healthy heartbeat I was feeling more optimistic. I did start to get concerned as my nausea had almost gone away after the scan but I tried to keep remembering that every pregnancy was different so it could be normal for this baby.

Tomorrow I go back to have a medically managed miscarriage. After my last experience of losing too much blood and needing 2 blood transfusions I didn't want to do it at home but I also want to avoid another d&c if possible.

At the moment we are thinking we are done with trying for a 3rd baby and will be happier with just our two boys. I honestly don't know if I can go through with the anxious wait of another 1st trimester and even worse another miscarriage.

Thanks for all the support of this forum. I will probably take a break and I'm not sure if I will feel up to returning. This make me really sad too as I would like to see how everyone goes with their pregnancies and also see if those who have been ttc with me have some success but it also hurts seeing what could have been for me too.

I might come back in a few days to provide an update on how it goes, I'm a bit scared but at least they will be there to keep an eye on my blood loss.

I really didn't think I would be so unlucky to lose 3 out of my 5 pregnancies

[Mamato3?]

I'm very sorry for your loss... Wishing you all the best and a healthy recovery.

[Kittybear]

So sorry for your loss Xx

[bunnywabbit]

I'm so sorry, and can completely understand. Hang in there, we're all here for you... xx

[essnce629]

Oh no Purple, how horrible. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. This sucks so bad. Please take care of yourself and give yourself time to heal. I understand not wanting to come back on here. I wonder every day why I'm still here. (((HUGS))) to you and I'll be sending healing vibes your way.

[maidentomother]

Oh no. I'm so, so sorry.

[honeybee37]

Oh no, purple I'm so sorry

[Violet Winter]

I'm so sorry hun! I've been where you are and I know what you are going through. It's not easy and I understand you needing time to heal. Do you know if the doctors will do genetic testing. After my third miscarriage they did testing and showed baby had trisomy 16 which is the most common causes for miscarriage. My last was similar to yours, 7 weeks a heartbeat then 8 weeks irregular heartbeat then week 9 the heart stopped beating. It was so distressing and emotionally draining. Lots of hugs from your boys will help you through, I know thats what helped me. Please look after yourself, take all the time you need and know we're here for you when you feel ready. Xxooxx

[pinkfairydust]

very sorry for your loss Purple
We are thinking of you.

[twointow83]

So today I had some bleeding so I went to the hospital to get it checked out and unfortunately the baby stopped growing at 8w 2d.

After having a scan at 7wks and seeing a healthy heartbeat I was feeling more optimistic. I did start to get concerned as my nausea had almost gone away after the scan but I tried to keep remembering that every pregnancy was different so it could be normal for this baby.

Tomorrow I go back to have a medically managed miscarriage. After my last experience of losing too much blood and needing 2 blood transfusions I didn't want to do it at home but I also want to avoid another d&c if possible.

At the moment we are thinking we are done with trying for a 3rd baby and will be happier with just our two boys. I honestly don't know if I can go through with the anxious wait of another 1st trimester and even worse another miscarriage.

Thanks for all the support of this forum. I will probably take a break and I'm not sure if I will feel up to returning. This make me really sad too as I would like to see how everyone goes with their pregnancies and also see if those who have been ttc with me have some success but it also hurts seeing what could have been for me too.

I might come back in a few days to provide an update on how it goes, I'm a bit scared but at least they will be there to keep an eye on my blood loss.

I really didn't think I would be so unlucky to lose 3 out of my 5 pregnancies

I'm so unbelievably sorry purple. I understand the need to step away. Don't worry about us, worry about you and your family right now. Please do post and let us know u r ok when it's all said and done, though. No matter what the future holds for you I pray it will make your life as happy and fullfilled as any person can be. Take care of yourself and those kiddos. Hugs and prayers.

🙏 for a healthy 🌈 🚼
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