SOMEWHERE in these posts someone asked about what my TTC plans were and I was busy and didn't answer right away, and I cannot for the life of me find it now!!:oops: And I know there has been some confusion about what I am swaying for this time (if there is a "this" time).
Anyway, as you guys may remember, I had the 3 boys and I was swaying pink with my 4th. I got pg on a swaying break and ended up with twins, one of whom I lost early on and never knew the gender, and then my 4th boy, who is a dream come true.
Through the course of all this I made a lot of peace with my GD. There will always be that part of me that would have loved to have a daughter, but really, honestly, if I am to get pg again, it makes more sense for our family to have another boy. We have boy clothes, boy toys, our whole family is geared up for boys, and I have really come to realize how much I treasure being a mom of all boys. GD is something I have left behind me. So, at such time when/if I do get pg again, I'm going to sway blue gently and I will be happy either way, no worries.
My husband seemed like he was getting on board with another baby until just a couple weeks ago, when we received the news that our insurance plan had gotten a lot worse and we would have to pay double out of pocket expenses to have another baby - $4000. That's a pretty major expense for us and my husband has gotten cold feet over it. We also are bursting at the seams in our house and are working on building another one but it is taking forever.
Plus, me being 40 years old...it's a risky situation. For right now, I am just maintaining and trying to be at peace with whatever the future holds.
