Originally Posted by
jennaesue
Anyone else really dreading having the baby? I know that sounds crazy, but I really love being pregnant (even with all the aches and pains and tiredness). Like, I wish I could be pregnant all the time. And this is really supposed to be it for us. And I am starting to wonder if I can handle 4 kids, let alone 5, so I think we really do have to be done. :( I know it sounds horrible, but I love the pregnancy part and hate the newborn part. My life has been so hectic lately- kids have been sick, dh has been sick, we are trying to decide whether to buy or build a new house, we have to much to do to get our house ready to sell, etc. I have no idea what we are going to do with this kid with he arrives. All I have so far is a plastic bin of baby clothes in ds3's room. (we do have car seat, stroller, crib, etc). We haven't decided whether we are going to try to squeeze ds3 in the same room with the big boys or if we should have ds4 go in the same room with ds3. Either way, it's going to be tight, and I need to make room for a toddler bed for ds3 and a dresser for ds4. I'm just feeling overwhelmed and thought of having a newborn is really freaking me out. I know it's ridiculous, because that is obviously the goal, but right now I'm having a very hard time dealing with the fact that I am running out of time. Plus, I have had some problems with ppd/baby blues. So I'm not looking forward to that, either. And top that all off with the feeling like this would all be so much more worth it if it was a girl. And feeling guilty about feeling that way. Agh!! Okay, sorry for the long rant.