first loss, broken heart

I hope it is my last.

I lost the baby at almost exactly 5 weeks so it was an early loss, but a loss nonetheless.

The pregnancy was not planned. It was more of a practice sway. Now I am scared to sway because I'm scared of all the medication and herbs I was taking. I don't know if any of these contributed to the loss. I will never know and that hurts the most.

I wish I could do high tech. I really don't want to go through another miscarriage. It hurts physically and emotionally. I want to somehow maximize my fertility and health of eggs, sperm, and hormone levels.

I am swaying with PCOS and women with PCOS have a higher risk of miscarriage because PCOS is typically associated with not just high levels of testosterone (which hurts the quality of the eggs), but low levels of progesterone. Progesterone is necessary to sustain a pregnancy and if it is too low, regardless of if the pregnancy is healthy, miscarriage rate is so high.

I have a lot of think about. For now, I miss my angel.

hugs im so sorry for your loss. we lost 3 early angels and 2 daughters. it hurts the same with all if we were 5 weeks or 22 weeks. take comfort in your boys, it really does help.

{hugs}, I'm sorry x

that's painful, fresas. Im so sorry:(

I am so sorry for your loss:(

That is very sad fresas. It is so hard not to question everything, but at least they were loved and wanted.

Fresas - my heart is breaking for you. If you ever need to talk, pm me.

Sorry to hear about your loss, it is the worst thing ever :sad:

I'm so sorry for your loss. :sad: ***hugs***

So sorry :(.... Having a loss is horrible...Hugs to you!