I hope it is my last.
I lost the baby at almost exactly 5 weeks so it was an early loss, but a loss nonetheless.
The pregnancy was not planned. It was more of a practice sway. Now I am scared to sway because I'm scared of all the medication and herbs I was taking. I don't know if any of these contributed to the loss. I will never know and that hurts the most.
I wish I could do high tech. I really don't want to go through another miscarriage. It hurts physically and emotionally. I want to somehow maximize my fertility and health of eggs, sperm, and hormone levels.
I am swaying with PCOS and women with PCOS have a higher risk of miscarriage because PCOS is typically associated with not just high levels of testosterone (which hurts the quality of the eggs), but low levels of progesterone. Progesterone is necessary to sustain a pregnancy and if it is too low, regardless of if the pregnancy is healthy, miscarriage rate is so high.
I have a lot of think about. For now, I miss my angel.
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March 7th, 2012, 11:54 AM #1
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first loss, broken heart
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March 7th, 2012, 01:12 PM #2
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hugs im so sorry for your loss. we lost 3 early angels and 2 daughters. it hurts the same with all if we were 5 weeks or 22 weeks. take comfort in your boys, it really does help.
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2012!! he's finally here!
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March 7th, 2012, 01:18 PM #3
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{hugs}, I'm sorry x
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March 7th, 2012, 04:06 PM #4
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that's painful, fresas. Im so sorry
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March 7th, 2012, 09:14 PM #5
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I am so sorry for your loss
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March 7th, 2012, 10:13 PM #6
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That is very sad fresas. It is so hard not to question everything, but at least they were loved and wanted.
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March 7th, 2012, 10:36 PM #7
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Fresas - my heart is breaking for you. If you ever need to talk, pm me.
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I can't believe I have a daughter!Thank you everyone at Gender Dreaming and may all your dreams come true as well!
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March 7th, 2012, 10:50 PM #8
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Sorry to hear about your loss, it is the worst thing ever
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March 7th, 2012, 11:24 PM #9
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I'm so sorry for your loss.
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2013: twin boy stillborn at 37 weeks
Sweet baby boy, you are loved and missed more than you will ever know.
There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and wonder what
you would have been like. I love you and miss you so much.
Rest now, my baby, in the loving arms of Jesus.
Biggest shock of our lives - surprise BFP! And it's a GIRL!!!
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March 8th, 2012, 12:23 AM #10
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So sorry
.... Having a loss is horrible...Hugs to you!
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After a hard 2011, I am looking forward to a great 2012
Thanks to gender dreaming for all the support! Our little miracle Makalee joined our family Nov 14, our family is complete and all my dreams came true
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