December 2WW

[Girlsway]

Do you think!!!!! Oh please let it be, I am so pissed off with this TTC!!!!!

Did you try using the second urine for testing as wantingpink described about a week ago in this thread? It worked gor me and I got a pretty clear line. GL testing, have my fx for you.

[letiha]

Well another day of bfn... Still got 2 more days till af is due... On the bright side looks like I might be able to have a drink on New Year's Eve but will keep my fingers crossed for a bfp in the next 2 days

[Butterfly Spirit]

Pebmc, I see a line! It's not stick thin, so that has to be a good thing!
Can't wait for an update from you!

[Pangea]

Dreamofpink, that's good news about the clomid, but hopefully you won't need it and get a bfp this month instead.

Letiha sorry you got another bfn, hoping you get a bfp soon.

Pebmcp6 did you test again this morning?

I tested this morning and it was a bfn, I'm only 8dpo though (ticker is wrong) and I've never got a bfp before 11dpo before, so still feeling hopeful.

[Dreamofpink]

Thanks Pangea. Finger's crossed for you!

Peb how have you got on today?

Leitha you're not out until af turns up!

Feeling really rotten today, full of cold, af cramps and a sore throat. Feel even worse as my cousin had her 1st baby today and a family friend had hers today too. So that's 3 babies born (other cousin had her second in July) in the time that we've been TTC and still no BFP. I feel like such a failure especially as eveyone's had natural births whereas I've had to have two sections due to very serious complications. Doubt I'll ever get to give birth properly. Such a pity party here today, which just makes me feel worse as I hate wallowing in self-pity. It's exacerbated by upsetting my mum this morning when she rang with the news about the babies as it's also the 9th anniversary of her Mum's death. She told me not to keep bringing it round to myself all the time and that we've been trying too hard. I just feel so so awful about everything and can't turn to anyone, friends and family must be so sick of me always failing to get a BFP each month and getting upset although I've hidden it a lot in the last few months. After all I have two healthy beautiful children whereas another cousin has a terminally ill child with a genetic disease and hasn't been able to conceive any more children through genetic therapy IVF. I should therefore 'be grateful for what I have' and I don't think my mum understands my desire for more children as she was very happy with her two girls. Please don't get me wrong I am happy for my cousin and friend, but it's been a really long hard year. I can't wait to see the back of it now! Af's a wicked witch and I could do without the usual pmt making me feel even worse.

DS1 has been giving me lots of cuddles though, he's so sensitive and knows when I'm feeling down. My children are such a blessing but I have a big space in my heart waiting to be filled by number three. I'm not about to give up on the diet but i just want to be pg now. Sorry for the rambling message but I needed to get it off my chest. Thanks for reading.

[Pangea]

Dreamofpink I was saying similar things to my DH last night. It's only my first month trying, but it's bringing back all the memories of trying to get pregnant with DS2, and everyone else around me getting pregnant and me still not pregnant yet.
There just seems to be so many people who always get pregnant first try, including my mother who always used to say "he only has to look at me and I'm pregnant". I don't know why I haven't inherited it. I know how it gets you down month after month of BFNs.
My best who is 5 weeks pregnant got pregnant by accident. I'm so jealous I would love to get pregnant by accident! It must be amazing. But even when we are careless I never get pregnant, we have to be really trying.

With DS2 it was the month that I was really upset and despairing about it that I finally got pregnant. I was 5dpo on New Years eve and decided to get drunk because I thought I wasn't going to be pregnant, because every month I was never pregnant, but this time I was.

AF cramps could be a pregnancy sign, I really hope this is your month because you deserve it.

[pebmcpd7]

BFN this morning @10dpo, I think our eyes were playing tricks on us yesterday!!!!!
I am now gonna start the diet again full on and hope for a BFP before my DH birthday on the 1st March, would love to put the test in a box like northern shutterbug, his face would be priceless, he is so into thisTTC this time, I think it is because we are trying so hard for a girl!!!
He did say this morn though to calm down and relax a few things and enjoy it a bit more, it is so mechanical!!! I don't even feel like DTD in my non fertile phases, neither does he!!!

Hope you all get your BFP's!!!!!

[pebmcpd7]

Awh Christmas must bring it out in us, I actually had the same conversation with DH last night, My sister is sure to come to me in the new year and say, we are going to try in March and I swear she will get pregnant first time she always does, OK I did get pregnant a few times accidentally, nice accidents might I add. But when I really try to get pregnant it takes me 14/15 months!!! I started trying for this one last Feb, was gobsmacked when I got pregnant in may, only for it to end in miscarriage!!!! Hope it happens soon for us!

[Angelone]

BFN this morning @10dpo, I think our eyes were playing tricks on us yesterday!!!!!
I am now gonna start the diet again full on and hope for a BFP before my DH birthday on the 1st March, would love to put the test in a box like northern shutterbug, his face would be priceless, he is so into thisTTC this time, I think it is because we are trying so hard for a girl!!!
He did say this morn though to calm down and relax a few things and enjoy it a bit more, it is so mechanical!!! I don't even feel like DTD in my non fertile phases, neither does he!!!



Hope you all get your BFP's!!!!!

sorry u got a bfn it really looked lik a line there

[letiha]

Anothe BFN, not even a faint line - although my queasiness is increasing, i'm emotional and very tired, also getting a few twinges....just can't work out whats going on. But as i've been told its not over till AF comes.

Still using my internet cheapies, and will use another one tommorrow morning, and if no AF by Monday morning will use my first response i have under the sink so i can decide whether i'm sticking to virgin watermelon mohito's for new years eve.