August Thread for TTC Blue - Chit Chat!

[iluvmyman]

Daisy I just read, oh how horrible! I'm without words

Agreed, Not sure what can be said about something so wrong in every way.

[iluvmyman]

Daisy : I am so sorry, that is so hard to deal with. Praying for you and that family. I totally agree.....God is the final decider in what gender we have. I will be happy with a girl too. I hope your day gets better.


Well, BFN......I am a lot more upset then I thought I would be. I woke up at 5am(eastern) and had to pee, so I had to test.....I just counldn't get back to sleep. Now I am tired and upset.......and on top of all that I have to wait for the awful AF. Sorry, I had to vent.

So Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!

[iluvmyman]

Awww, WP, big hugs. That totally bites FX it happens soon for you.

I'm in a funk today. DH said something last night about hoping it is a boy and I just felt really awful because my gut is this is our 3rd and final girl, and I just wish he (we) could have a son. I wouldn't trade my girls for the world (I know you all get this) but I have always wanted a boy, even more than DH has, and it just sucks to think this is my last shot. Once she is here I will be so much more OK with it, but I'm afraid pregnancy is going to be a long, moody road for me I also full well know I'm a grab bag of hormones so in about an hour I might be all smiles again

Both my girls have an activity today so I think I'm going to go shopping for some sweet gender-neutral layette stuff. That might cheer me up

Don't you start that, B! You have a perfectly good chance of having a boy! It's for sure and reality that it could in fact be a girl but you did everything you could. Obviously, whatever it is will be a blessing but I really do understand and might very well be on here whining soon. I hope it's a boy for you soooo much! Pregnancy is a HUGE emotional roller coaster for me too, it's like my hormones have permission to just totally mess w/ me and jerk me around. Sad, happy, impatient, elated, crying, ready to punch anything that gets in my way....thank God I don't commute anymore. Can we say road rage. You might even change your mind and have more children after a year or two. Praying all of us get the boys we hoped for!!

I'm not making you feel bad about saying that though and don't get me wrong. You cry away and be as hormonal as you need to be!!!

I'm finding out the sex either way, I can't wait and want to have everything planned.

[iluvmyman]

Lola, I need to write notes down and make a big post too but I forget.

I do have another Dr. Appt at 1:45 today but not sure if he's doing another in-office ultrasound. He might since it's 6 weeks now and we might see a heart beat? I showered and shaved real nice like JIK! I just can't forget to pee in the cup before I leave.

I'm feeling better now for sure but it's weird feeling every bit of stress right in my gut. A little scary but it comes w/ the territory. I feel better after that post from you and I really thought and tried to identify why I was feeling so off. Hopefully the Dr. appt goes well but today I'm noticing some of my hypo symptoms coming back so we'll keep an eye on it. I've been cold and dry under my eyes again. Will be taking another blood test in 2 weeks or so.

[Flava]

Warning: VERY SAD

Girls, I'm sorry, I have to get this off my chest. Today I started back to work and I was feeling so depressed. There are several new members on my teaching team and they are all just so young and cute and skinny and I felt like such an old cow. Then there's one woman who's pregnant and of course, she's younger than me and she's due in September and I swear, I weigh more than she does eight months pregnant. And she's having a boy, of course, and she has a little girl 18 months old and didn't do a thing differently to get one of each. I just felt so stupid and depressed and hopeless about things.

And then I got this call from my grandmother. My brother and I grew up near this little boy I'll call D. His parents are the nicest people. They went to our church and they tried for years to have a baby and never could. They finally adopted D as a baby right around the time my brother was born. They're only a few months apart. They played baseball together. I remember watching them all the time. Our dads played softball together. His mom helped give my wedding shower.

D hasn't done too well in the past few years. He's 26, dropped out of college, has had drug problems. Recently he got in trouble for shooting at a house and his parents paid thousands of dollars to help him get out of the trouble. They really tried hard to raise him well and give him a good life.

I found out today that D is in jail because he was supposed to be taking care of his girlfriend's little girl, between one and two years old, and he beat her to death. I am just horrified. Just absolutely sick about this. Obviously I feel so terrible for that poor little girl and what she must have gone through and I can't stop thinking about how she was just a little younger than Lillie and what kind of person could do that to her. I can't believe the little red headed boy who used to play on the church playground and the Little League field did that. And I just feel awful for his parents, who have just washed their hands of him at this point. The police told him this was a death penalty case and he confessed everything. That poor baby had broken limbs, a broken pelvis, a head injury. I just can't imagine.

It's just sickening. That poor, poor little girl. And I thought, you know, I am thankful for any baby I can have, boy or girl or whoever, because that baby will be mine and my husband's and I will love him or her with everything I've got because there are some people out there who don't. That baby's mama knew that D had hurt that baby before and still left her with him so in my mind, she is at fault too. And I just thought, I need to be grateful for any son or daughter of mine and do everything I can to be a good mama because there is so much evil in the world. I don't know if that is an odd reaction or not but that's how I felt.

I'm sorry for being such a downer, but I need to get that out.

OMG I just came over from the private forum thinking maybe it's time to join back here now it's August and so...and to read this!!! I absolute hate ppl like this guy and yes I really hope he get's the death penalty! If we would not have ppl like him around our children would be safer. And that woman the so called "mother" is guilty as hell too! How could she left that poor little baby girl with him when she know he hurts her??? She should have reported him the first time it happened and should have left him to go protect the baby! But no she stay with him and left the baby with him??
Im sorry but Im so angry...DD4 will be 18 month soon and she is so sweet and I love her so so much I look at her and can't imagine some1 would hurt a baby like her ...broke her bones and who knows what. OMG now I cry. Im so sorry.
Im thinking I will be happy after all for a sweet little girl too!

[ttcboy]

Thanks Lolainlove - I'm hoping that all those who are ttc blue will join me in a group where we can help each other, but i don't know where to start or what to do....can anyone advice pls?

[begonia]

Thank you thank you thank you Iluv and Lola I was laughing Lola b/c that is EXACTLY how I feel ... at one point yesterday morning I was thinking I might be upset if I DON'T have another girl, LOL. Which is CRAZY because I do not think that would be the case at all! Hormones are funny things. Iluv you're so right; I KNOW I did everything I could, I wouldn't change a thing, so I have to take peace from that. And this bean is meant to be in our family boy or girl. Anyhow I totally dropped my ladies off at their activity and went to my most fave spendy baby boutique and drooled over the cuteness for boys and girls. I will be shopping like mad once the bean arrives that I know for sure, if it is a girl it'll make me feel better to have her dolled up, and if it is a boy I'll love getting all the things I have never had before. I love the little boy shoes!!!

Ttcboy Lola makes a great point! I would post a thread in the general Gender Swaying forum to get info from anyone here who has swayed with EGS for boy or girl. to you; you've been through a lot already and I would love to see you get your son. Let us know what we can do to help!

Iluv I am so thrilled you have another appointment and FX you can see heartbeat today even though it is early! Oh how exciting, seeing the bean is just greatness! LOL about shaving all the, ahem, "right" places! I know I whip out my nair before my appointments I am so glad your conference went well! Do you belong to a homeschooling group or do it all yourself?

Flava you SHOULD join us in August!!!! Come back come back! Your attempt is getting closer and I want to hear all about it.

Alexis I loved EPO for me and ITA with Lola the oils are so good for you anyway! I never heard anything negative about the RJ so would definitely try it out. Might as well; I think that is the upside of having another go at this ... you can only make your sway stronger!

Welcome Lisa!!!

Babydes where are you?!?! Hope all is well! And Jen! I want a post from you so I can see that ticker; I'm pretty sure you'll hit 13 weeks on Thursday? And have another appointment? FX you girls are both great!

[iluvmyman]

I went to my appt and had another in-office ultrasound. The size of the sac is about 3 times larger than it was so that's great and you could see the yoke this time. I asked about the pole but he didn't mention. I asked if they would take my vitamin levels and he got my D Vit. levels and another HCG test. I have another Dr. appt next week. I like the weekly appt.'s but not sure when he'll stop doing that. I'm happy things look good. I take another thyroid test in 2 weeks or so.

At this time, my daughter is in need of speech therapy and I have to go through an independent charter school so they'll pay for it. It's way to expensive to do on our own. It has it's benefits at $900 per kid/per semester for classes, approved book and such. The downside is you are accountable to someone and have to follow their rules. I plan to do it independently when she is done w/ speech. Although I'm used to getting money for classes which I couldn't do on my own and DS is probably looking forward to taking some classes as well. I do belong to a homeschool group but it's more for a home-base of fellow homeschooler's, monthly activities, weekly park days for my kids getting to know other kids and support.

Home schooling can be difficult but I wouldn't have it any other way and feel very blessed to have the opportunity. Too bad it continues to keep us in the financial crapper and I'd really like to not rent my parent's upstairs anymore. It's not the best situation and I want my family to be completely together at my home again. Oh well, these are the choices we make. It's just sooo expensive here. Sad you have to make over 100K just to make it around here and we for sure don't make that much. Blah blah, I need to get back to work. Was supposed to leave for SoCal tonight but I have a lot to do to pack and get ready and I'm too tired. I can't even tell my sister's why since we aren't sharing the "news" yet.

[iluvmyman]

Thanks Lolainlove - I'm hoping that all those who are ttc blue will join me in a group where we can help each other, but i don't know where to start or what to do....can anyone advice pls?

I don't know anything really about the higher tech stuff, sorry!

[hope.ful]

My sway info is pretty much all right. We are taking a break in August bc I have to have a couple more xrays from a broken wrist, but we will ttc again in Sept.