September 2WW

[purplepoet20]

Zanacal and anyone who has wondered about me - I have been busy and sad...

It has been raining a lot in the last few months. We have been trying to finish as much outside remodeling as we can before winter starts. It normally gets to cold to do anything by mid october. We are so close to being done. We want to have the backyard done this year and ready for grass next Spring. Next year we get to do the front yard but that will be easy, it only needs 5 trees cut down and grass. Still can't believe there were 25 trees on such a small lot.

I also have tons of sewing to do for Christmas gifts. I am having a hard time with the sewing because I have 3 neices to sew dresses for. I have found patterns that I love so much and want to make a little dress for my own girl but I get so sad sewing that same pattern for a neice. I have fabric that my greatgrandma bought 25 years ago and tons that I bought just sitting in a tote. I can't use the fabric for a neice because I would cry the entire time I am sewing. I know if I start sewing dresses for my own girl and then have another boy it will be harder to deal with.

... I have been very sad the last few weeks and trying to stay away from the computer. I hope I get pregnant this month because I can't take anymore of these what ifs. I would consider adoption but I am afraid I want love a daughter as much if she wasn't mine. Maybe I will talk to my hubby about Dr Potter if we don't get pregnant this month.

[zanacal]

Zanacal and anyone who has wondered about me - I have been busy and sad...

It has been raining a lot in the last few months. We have been trying to finish as much outside remodeling as we can before winter starts. It normally gets to cold to do anything by mid october. We are so close to being done. We want to have the backyard done this year and ready for grass next Spring. Next year we get to do the front yard but that will be easy, it only needs 5 trees cut down and grass. Still can't believe there were 25 trees on such a small lot.

I also have tons of sewing to do for Christmas gifts. I am having a hard time with the sewing because I have 3 neices to sew dresses for. I have found patterns that I love so much and want to make a little dress for my own girl but I get so sad sewing that same pattern for a neice. I have fabric that my greatgrandma bought 25 years ago and tons that I bought just sitting in a tote. I can't use the fabric for a neice because I would cry the entire time I am sewing. I know if I start sewing dresses for my own girl and then have another boy it will be harder to deal with.

... I have been very sad the last few weeks and trying to stay away from the computer. I hope I get pregnant this month because I can't take anymore of these what ifs. I would consider adoption but I am afraid I want love a daughter as much if she wasn't mine. Maybe I will talk to my hubby about Dr Potter if we don't get pregnant this month.

It made me sad to read that purple, I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. Big {hugs}

[zanacal]

I see it too Washington. Yay - congratulations!!!! How are you feeling?!

[ladybug]

I'm so sorry your feeling down poet. I hope and pray you get your BFP this month. Be kind to yourself and I hope you feel better soon.

[ladybug]

I got PREGNANT on my digital this morning so it's official. I really feel my mom sent me this special angel. I'm sure if she can have it her way it will be a girl. I am due May 17. It's a bittersweet moment for sure. I feel I did all I could have done for my sway and this is my last baby for sure.

Good luck ladies I hope you all join my soon!!!

[Yuzu]

Purplepoet--I'm so sorry you're feeling down. Sometimes things just suck, don't they? TTC is such a hard road.

WashingtonPromise-I see it too! How exciting!

Ladybug-I think your mother had a hand in helping your little one along. Very bittersweet, but beautiful.

I took my own test this morning at 10dpo and I'm not clear on the results. I thought I saw a faint line, but I'm almost positive that's wishful thinking. My luteal phase is only 11 days which means AF is due tomorrow and I feel exactly as though AF is on her way! I'm pretty sure I'm out for this month.

[LolaInLove]

WP, I see a line! You see one, right????? CONGRATS!!!

PP, I am sorry to hear your have been down.....I know very much how you feel. I feel at the end of my ttc rope as well, and wonder how much longer I can do this myself. Ya know, if you can go HT, that would be great, and you would get your girl! I hope we both have some luck in the next month, hun. Lots of hugs.

Ladybug, that is so sweet, gives me tears. I hope this is indeed a sweet baby girl sent from your mom.

[LolaInLove]

Hey Yuzu, I hope you don't have AF coming! I'm feeling the same way, I'm out. Hugs, next month we will get it done, yea?

[swish]

Congratulations, ladybug, I'm so happy for you, I too believe your mum helped to bring this lovely baby to you, her way of giving you a little happiness back!
Congrats, wp!!!!!
Gl Lola and yuzu, fx af doesn't show up!!!
Pp, so sorry your having a hard time, swaying is sooo hard, xx

[Mochagirl]

Congrats to Washington and ladybug on your BFPs!

You're not out yet, Yuzu - what kind of test did you use? Maybe get a FRER and try again later today?

purplepoet - I'm sooooo sorry you're feeling down. This whole swaying thing sucks so much. I hope we all get our BFPs this month.