Shocked with myself...

[ocean]

You're not insane - even without preggo hormones I feel the same at times. It depends on the day, I've found, and how resilient I feel overall (mood, sleep, exercise etc). I like to shop online - I can filter for just boy clothes. Gymboree is expensive but they have tons of sales and super cute clothes. Janie and Jack outlets are my other fave. I adore their boy clothes!!

[BZ94]

Oh shopping is the worst with GD. I used to design clothes for a girls' clothing brand and always thought I'd be dressing my girls in my designs (or similar ones anyway, since I "retired" when I had kids). I have a good friend who struggled to even get pg and is having a girl in Sept and I know I SHOULD go buy her some cute girly things but whenever I start to look at the girl section at Baby Gap I get that sick feeling in my stomach and have to leave. So far all I've bought her are books. I too mainly shop for my boys online (mostly out of convenience) and it saves me the heartache of seeing all the great girl stuff out there...

[JP2007]

I am in a very similar position to you. I have a 3 year old son and another on the way. I was secretly hoping for a girl, but DH and our son wanted a boy so bad that I thought everything would be fine either way. I did not realize the disappointment I would feel after hearing "boy". I immediately started looking into swaying and dream about having a girl almost every night. I really want to move past this, I am honestly excited about my son but wish I could suppress this feeling that I have to have a girl.

[Fae]

I'm sorry to hear your dealing with it too... I want it to go away as well.. Looking into the swaying info has been a great distraction. Focusing on how I wish I felt doesn't help. It makes me panic so I am trying distraction for now. It makes it harder for us in a way because we didnt expect to feel dissapointed. Hoping it passes for us both soon! I'm hopeful it's partially hormones

[black&gold]

For me DS1 was the worst. I really really wanted a girl and had a boy. DS2 I was totally expecting it so when I heard 'its a boy' I wasn't in the least shocked as I'd kind of prepared myself for it. I knew how much I loved having DS1 so I assumed I'd feel the same. I can tell you DS2 is the most amazing baby boy I have ever met - so gentle, sweet and seriously has stolen my heart all over again! And like someone else mentioned, the best thing you can give your child is a sibling of the same gender! I never realized how much this would impact how I feel but my two boys are so in love with each other and it's so amazing to see that bond form. I feel like it also takes the pressure off me to be super 'boyish' as they both are completely entertained by each other. Once you meet this baby and he grows and you see your two boys loving on one another you will be SO happy you had a second boy. I'm pregnant with #3 and we aren't finding out this time, but I'm fully prepared for boy and actually a little excited to add another to the gang! Don't let peoples annoying comments bother you - I go out of my way to say "I'm so happy I have boys, I didn't really want a girl anyways" so shut them up. That has by far been the worst for me. I'm happy with my life, but every time someone makes a stupid girl comment it annoys me and I have to make a point to NOT let it bother me. "It's not about NOT getting what you wanted, it's about wanting what you got" - that quote has helped me in the past for sure! All the best!