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August 18th, 2016, 04:13 AM
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My goodbye for now - a poem
Hi all, I'm stepping away for awhile but thought I'd leave you all with something I penned this afternoon (after many wines 😂 and yes I know I'm weird lol but I have no one IRL to share my feelings with...
Just have a look at me smiling
Lucky you can't see beneath
The sadness that I feel inside
So overwhelming
I still laugh at funny pictures
And write my funny texts
But little do you understand
I've been through life's hardest test
For those that know I've lost a bub
Before they're even born
You're weeks are all just new ones
Yet everyday I mourn
While you try your best to comfort me
With 'verses' well rehearsed
None of it means anything
Doesn't lessen all my hurt
Months have passed and days tick by
To you I'm yesterdays news
Yet here I am sobbing inside
This month was my date due
I know you just dont get it
And pray god you never do
This feeling of hopelessness
I'd NEVER wish on you
So forgive me if I drink to much
Or say things out of line
I'm going through something
I'd NEVER wish on ANYONE in my life
I feel broken up and shattered
And you will not understand
That I long for just another chance
To be pregnant once again
But that's ok and like I said
I don't want you where I am
I know misery loves company
But this time she is BANNED
For I'm hopeful for the future
But terrified as well
I hope my rainbow baby comes
And for all those that have miscarried
I HOPE YOURS DOES AS WELL
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August 18th, 2016, 05:39 AM
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Xxxx Pbn, have faith that your day will come, never stop believing.
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Dreaming of pink
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August 18th, 2016, 05:42 AM
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Thank you pinkpony xxoo I so so hope to see you with a bfp when I come back!!!
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August 18th, 2016, 05:55 AM
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August 18th, 2016, 07:23 AM
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Dream Vet
Much love hun. This is beautiful.
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August 18th, 2016, 08:27 AM
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Dream Vet
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August 18th, 2016, 01:24 PM
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August 18th, 2016, 01:38 PM
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Swaying Advice Coach
please let us know how you're getting on. You've always been such a help and I hope to hear from you very soon with good news.
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August 19th, 2016, 01:48 AM
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Dream Vet
I'm crying reading this Pbn3. I feel the exact same way and have thought of leaving the boards. (((HUGS))) to you and feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk and be depressed together.
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Me: 35 years old. Was an infant nanny and birth and postpartum doula. Now a full time SAHM.
DS1: Aug 2003 (my first home birthed water baby!)
DS2: May 2009 (my second home birthed water baby!)
Oct 2014
July 2016: Laproscopic surgery to remove a ping pong ball sized endometrioma on left ovary and 3 pea size fibroids on outside of uterus. Hysteroscopy to remove one larger "penetrating fibroid" inside uterus.
Oct 2016: Heartbroken after DH's vasectomy. Looks like my dreams of a daughter are gone.
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August 19th, 2016, 04:28 AM
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Hugs pbn. Hope your back with good news 😙
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Healthy baby girl :)